?I am a little stunned into the realization that the heart, which once embraced with the warmth of affection, has twisted into the sting of a string of excuses, because when the heart breaks, it doesn’t break even.
The other day the Lord gave me that simple pearl of wisdom, so I sat with it for a while, actually a long while.
As with most words of wisdom He gently imparts into me, it often takes a long while before the fullness of the meaning is understood. We often say we trust the Lord with all things ~ But I must confess at times I do not trust Him with my heart. Of course, I know He will not hurt me. But what about the times in which He takes your heart, that is one with Him and places it into another’s hands, who so cunningly can shatter it into a million pieces? That quite often is me and today, as I write this, I am wondering if that is you too?
I do have a precious sister in the Lord who keeps pressing me to go one step further in my transparency to bare all things for the Glory of Jesus. But this one Lord? I so quietly plead within my soul, not this one. She says I am to lay everything down. Including this one. Deep breath of sighs… I guess I have danced around this one for long enough.
At the moment, I am dancing alone it would seem.
There are times in our lives when we do fall hopelessly in love with another. Quite often it is because at the onset they “Give it all they got” only to recoil later. Oh it is true, love is still spoken, but what was offered in attentiveness, turns into an overwhelming sea of excuses in which we are left dazed and bewildered. At this moment, demonstration deflates to words…
I must admit I have tried everything in my own power to salvage what was lost. From prayer to pleading to withdrawing to embracing and nothing works. I guess you could say this is when we finally get to the end of our rope, only to discover the True One and Only, Jesus. As I remind myself, my heart is securely in His trusted hands and I already said “Yes Lord” I find the strength to draw upon Him as the source of love poured out, even into the crushing hands of another.
So when the heart breaks ~ quite often it doesn’t break even. Love relationships are continually changing and shifting, one gives, one takes and when one lets go… The other falls. This fall is not as pleasant as the initial fall into love either. However, what is beautiful, is the truth we fall right into the arms of our real Beloved, our Lord Jesus.
I do not know about you ~ But I am getting a little weary with hearing about love from those who do not demonstrate love other than with their lips are moving. I wonder if it soothes their ego to profess love and I often wonder just who they are trying to convince? Because I surely am not. For those of us who do actually put verbs into our sentences of love, we no longer live in a swarm of excuses. Actually, there is no excuse required in the presence of doing.
?Be Love ~ Even to those who are only Saying Love.
Because… You are not your own, your heart is safe with Jesus and whoever and whenever He chooses, He will place your heart into another’s hands. This is how Jesus is and the beauty in all this is knowing what breaks your heart, breaks His, as well.
I am not saying any of this is easy. I too often want to close up my heart or pull it away from the one who is crushing it and worse yet, denying it at the same time. The Lord began to open my eyes to something. He was showing me how if I love another with my own love, I am more vulnerable to be hurt. However, if I glean from Him the love I share with another, Jesus is the Source, so what is His, I in turn give away. I pour out and He pours in… In the process, He is guarding my whole heart, which belongs solely to Him.
?Love is risk free in this way.
I have no idea why people love bomb you, only to pull away. Or why they “Say love” apart from “Being love.” But one thing I am learning is, with Jesus the heart does break even. He never leaves us or forsakes us because our heart being broken just as His was, is actually purposely mended back together in the wholeness of Him. No human can do that for us, only Jesus.
So I want to encourage you all to seek Him today with all your heart. He truly is a Man of His words.
?Jesus is love
In closing, I just want to remind you to trust no human with your heart. But rather, love others with the love of Jesus, while you entrust your heart in His hands only. He continually embraces you with the warmth of affection, which never withholds or changes or runs cold.
I guess I should have known that from the get go, but sometimes I am a slow learner too…
Here a little, there a little, line upon line, precept upon precept we go ~ wiser and gentler than before.
May the Lord Bless You in His Love,
?Angela ~ Marked By Heaven
He will wipe away all tears from their eyes. There will be no more death, no more grief or crying or pain. The old things have disappeared.