Are We Representing Jesus As A Representation Of Him?

Recently, I was thinking a lot about what we look like as the Body of Christ and also, how we all fit together in Him and with one another.  I was thinking about what it is like to be “on the outside, looking in” and if I were outside, would I have a desire to be like us?  Would I have a desire to be like me?  If I were looking in…  Do “we” do “I” or even do “you” resemble Jesus, if even in’the smallest of ways?  If we are really supposed to be fishers of men, just how do we “reel” them in, so to speak?  The truth is most of us shy away from harsh people and if we are too harsh for one another, I can only imagine to the lost we appear to be raging heretics.  It seems at every turn, the Lord is directing us at our gatherings to focus once again on being loving rather than a clanging cymbal.  It must just be our divine appointment or something, since this appears the area He works on us the most.  So rather than focusing on what others are doing wrong, we will surrender fully to Him in order He teach us how to be more like Him for our divine appointments He has laid before us.

The other day I was listening to this amazing message from Zac Poonen…  The title of his message was, “You who have failed will be blessed,” so you can totally see why I was drawn to this message from the get go.  Many of us feel like the Lord should have destroyed us many years ago and since He didn’t, we have a debt of love to Him and one another.  He is teaching us constantly now to give, to love and expect nothing in return because He is our return or rather reward.  Aren’t we starting to actually sense more freedom now?  This is why…  We are becoming more like Him in the laying down of our desires and wills so that He truly can operate through us as His hands and feet.  And more importantly, He is guarding our hearts in the process, which is truly a blessing all of us needed.  All it takes is surrender.  I often wonder why that is so difficult for us to do?

Anyway, about Zac’s message…  He compared us to a piece of bread, saying until we are broken into many pieces we cannot feed the thousands.  Isn’t that incredible?  No wonder the Lord said a little leaven ruins the whole lump…  Bread, just think about it spiritually speaking – What are we actually “feeding” people?  And is it something they would want to come back for and eat again and again?  In truth, if it is not love based without condition or anger and such (which equals to leaven) the answer is NO, they instead will seek the one who holds the Bread of Heaven within, who feely gives out that which is freely received. 

A couple weeks ago I shared a message the Lord gave me about the woe coming upon leaders first, out of the Book of Jeremiah Chapter 23.  Because in this World, as we let our love light shine, we are those who lead the way for others – all of us do this, as it exceeds the scope of Earthly titles given by man. 

So in order to build upon the precepts we have learned over time… Today we are going to take a look at ourselves and discern through the Holy Spirit if the leaders we are following truly are replicating Jesus as the source, He absolutely is the only pure source of love and are we?

Initially I titled today’s teaching, when I was in study – Are All Leaders in the Church Godly?  But today as I was in thought with the Lord, I changed it to – Are We Representing Jesus As A Representation Of Him?  Only the Lord knows the details of the change, so we will see how all this unfolds. 

I am sure it goes without saying by now, but just in case…  Like with all studies, we thank the Lord for showing us His ways and receive this teaching for ourselves first, to correct and clean our own walks prior to ever looking to another.  We also thank Him for giving us wisdom to discern when others we follow are not following Jesus in that we be not deceived as He eradicates all leaven within us so that we do not mislead others.  Amen.

Keep in mind we all are “leaders” to some degree, whether that be in our homes, workplace, community, ministries, etc…  Our presence sets an example as a vessel of honor, which is habituated by the One Lord and Savior Jesus.  Therefore, this message is for all of us and I thank the Lord for it, may He prepare our hearts to receive.

What kind of prompted this whole study is a message I was listening to by Francis Chan about division in the church and how it trickles down from the leaders, as their flock who are like minded and of one heart, gather under them.  He then went on to talk about what a Godly Leader is and is not, so I thought to myself – Lord, I do not want to be found out of Your grace and will, so I began on this journey I am going to share about today.  Like I said, this teaching number one is for us to check our own hearts and make sure we are surrendered to Jesus and number two make sure those who are over us are submitted to Him, as well.  Because, none of us want to be caught off guard and hear those dreaded words, “I never knew you” and labeled a worker of iniquity. He is helping us to be Him visiting those who are in prison, sick, troubled and such, through the teaching in His word.  In order to do His will, we must be surrendered to Him, otherwise we are doing our own will.  In Ezekiel 36 it says “When I put my spirit in you to walk in My statutes (ways) and you will be careful to observe my ordinances (commands).”  In the Old Covenant the people performed… In the New Covenant the Lord performs through us.  The only requirement is:  surrender.  He completes this verse by saying – and you will live the life I want you to live.  He said He does this so that He may be glorified through us. 

Shall we get started in our study?

Remember how the Bible tells us – Jesus was poured out as a drink offering.  As He is poured into us and we drink of Him a beautiful event takes place.  We surrender, and He overcomes us with Himself and then…  He pours out to others through us – We water many in such a way.  I find this so beautiful – as a matter of fact I see Jesus within so many of you.  Thank You Lord.

This is why we are going to study today about BEING A GODLY LEADER.  So that we can put down all the characteristics which are in direct opposition to Jesus and replace it with pure water…  As the river of life flows in, it too shall flow out.  Let’s get started!

One of the most distinctive signs of a Godly leader is when we ABIDE IN JESUS, because we are then “set apart” from those in the World.

John 15:14-23 reads ~

14 If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.

15 If ye love me, keep my commandments.

16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you forever;

17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.

18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

19 Yet a little while, and the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also.

20 At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.

21 He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.

22 Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world?

23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.

Isn’t that truly something?  So those who abide in Jesus make time daily to be alone with Him our number one priority not some of the time, but all the time.  He and He alone is #1 on our to do list each day.  Not only do we recognize apart from Him we can do nothing, but we no longer have a desire to do anything He would not do or say – or rather, apart from Him.

I was thinking about how we are to PROVE TO BE HIS DISCIPLES and how we can get so withered when we are not abiding in Jesus.  Then I heard this most amazing message from Francis Chan and he was describing that very thing.  I took a few notes because it spoke so much truth into my Spirit, correcting and edifying me to seek His face even more.  He was explaining how if we are not abiding in Jesus we are similar to those DEAD BRANCHES mentioned in the Word and that these dead branches are spiritual branches made up of pride, ego and being somewhat of a know it allHumility produces the fruit, fruit of the Spirit, as a living branch dependent on Jesus can bend without breaking, a dead branch “snaps” when moved with the wind.

If we get too comfortable we will often begin to depend less and less on Jesus and more on ourselves or even others.  If we get puffed up it is way easy to go from being a love light in the midst of sinners, to one being a sinner driven by works to save and correct others, as if we are their answer and not Him.  A dead branch will point to self for having all the answers and a live branch always points to the source of life – Jesus Himself.

To teach or instruct others, we must remain teachable and when we are not… We are withered, threatened and unsure of ourselves.  When ABIDING is not our priority, WORKS becomes our centric portion – self.

Knowing there will always be a need, a talk to give, an event to participate in, as it states (the poor will always be among us…) trying to distract, trying to pull us away from our time alone and allotted to just be quiet, making Jesus first to abide in only Him as our focus.

What happens when we slip in this area?  We can easily wither, get dried up and eventually be thrown into the fire and we all know what happens inside the fire – the dross/waste is burned off of us, it is painful and exhausting to say the least.  Jesus is with us inside the fire and we come out all shiny and new.  So this is not the everlasting fire, but a cleansing fire and we know also, there is nothing like a fiery trial to pull us close and back into the abiding place with Jesus.  As a matter of fact… Many of us are in the fire at this very moment and if not, we have been or will be.

Today we just basically discussed the introduction of our study in BEING A GODLY LEADER by abiding with Jesus and what it looks like to WALK IN HUMILITY.  This is so very important because HUMILITY casts out offense, giving it no placement in our lives.

Our souls are longing to be ONE WITH HIM continually.

May the Lord continue to bless you in His Love ~

Angela ~ Marked By Heaven

Biting And Devouring One Another For The Sake Of Correctness ~

October 23, 2018

I have been praying so much lately that when the enemy shows up around me, that he will find nothing within me to adhere to and that I will have nothing to feed into his desires to grow his assignment here on Earth as accuser of the brethren.

I keep asking myself – Who? What am I aligning with?  Knowing at any weak moment I could and do fall prey to the enemy’s devices of discontent so that when he shows up in my weakness he feeds that discontentment and I come into agreement with him against the situation the Lord has me in or another person or thing that seems to be against the Lord’s will for my life.

I have been so busy lately with the Lord in purging even the deepest crevices of my heart, those things hidden way down and ignored, those things which if I just didn’t think about them they do not exist.  But in truth just because someone or something has departed from our lives, does not mean the frustrations they brought departed at the same time.  The truth is they leave fragments of shattered promises or hope within our hearts that can only be sealed by the Blood of Jesus and if we do not fully forgive, release and bless that one…  Well, the pain within us becomes more obvious through our words and actions than we would like to admit.

This is how the enemy is working feverishly within the church today…  This is what was written about so long ago – brother betraying brother, things like that are manifesting everywhere now as the love of many, way too many, is growing colder and colder.

I believe we can all agree…  The enemy has come into the church and has found many things within that he can use to prompt us to agree with him to the point love is not covering us, one another or a multitude of sins.  The past month I have needed so much clarity and direction that only the Lord could provide.  I still cannot figure most of it out, but I have been diligently in prayer and study and wanted to take a little bit of time today to share with you what He has shown me.

Just like in all studies…  This begins with my heart first and I share with you as my family in the Lord.  The Word tells us to “Judge our own hearts” and in this study I have been constantly judging mine.  As I share, remember I am not judging yours – only sharing what He gave me and instructed me to not agree with on any level, lest I too fall into temptation.  That is the premise of why I want to share with you today what I am about to share regarding…  BITING AND DEVOURING ONE ANOTHER.

  • A few weeks ago the Lord gave me a stern warning for those who are “leaders” of any kind proclaiming Jesus is Lord. It really gave me pause…  Because I do not want to be weighed in the balance, found wanting.  He showed me a measuring rod going out on the heads of those who lead others and warned me of a woe going out on their heads for going against Him in anyway, especially for provoking others to be a child of wrath and not walking in love.  He showed me how they themselves were leading others to be just like themselves and if the enemy found placement in them, he would in turn find placement in those who follow and collectively they gathered of one heart and mind in either love or hate.  He showed me whatever was within was the commonality that they shared and when either Jesus showed up or the enemy showed up, whatever was within was found inside.  I still have the most severe warning for all leaders right now I shudder because this woe He gave me is eminent if they do not repent immediately.  This is why I have been very isolated and quiet the past few weeks…  I had to search my own heart and when He releases me I am going to share what He showed me as a stone of stumbling block within my own heart.  Not today, but I surely will as I do not mind to be used by Him in such a way as an example of how not to be.
  • All this division in the Worldly Church today is heartbreaking to Jesus. I know this for two reasons.  One being He showed me there is no division whatsoever in His Church Bride and two because people have given love a backseat for the sake of vanity and being right.  Jesus is heartbroken over this, I pray you can hear me and most importantly that you can hear Him.
  • Like with most teachings a manifestation of what is being taught is granted by the Lord, the same is true, especially today. It all started with a word I got in my Spirit over a month ago and I really did not know what to do with it – so I wrote it down and set it aside and yet He kept bringing me back to it.  He just gave me the Scripture two days ago and opened my eyes to what He was actually telling me.  It is a sad story really…  But if we share the heart of Jesus, we too are grieved when the Holy Spirit is grieved.

This is the word He gave me ~

We want others who have hurt us to pay for their own sins, while we ourselves are exonerated fully for ours.

For a while I told everyone I could those captivating words, but it never really seemed to resonate with them like they did me.  Oh the gravity of those words, the denial of mercy upon another while we ourselves with both hands opened fully receive the mercy offered at the cross.

In religious attire we selfishly declare…. YOU have the greater sin than me and therefore you must be exposed and put to an open shame from your drastic deed while I remain hidden under the blood for the minor atrocities I have committed.

I held onto this word for a very long time…  But today I am released to share.  It was only after He gave me the Scripture in Mathew 18:21-35 that He has allowed me to teach on this.  I really needed my own heart purified and cleaned in order to not drag tainted flesh into what I am about to say today.

I already know those who are participating in biting and devouring will not hear me, they boldly declare they do not listen to me and haven’t for so long a time in their hurtful emails.  The reason I am sharing with you today is twofold.  One, you can cautiously examine your own heart to see if you too are provoking or if by any chance you are being tempted to come into agreement with the accuser of the brethren so that you can be purged in that he find nothing in you and as a result when Jesus comes all He finds within us is an image of Himself.

Once again ~ The word I received was…

We want others who have hurt us to pay for their own sins, while we ourselves are exonerated fully for ours.

I am trying to decide whether to talk about the elephant in the room or just get into Mathew 18.  I think I will do both and see where the Spirit leads.  This is a conversation I have been avoiding to be honest, I do not like contention whatsoever, but the Lord has laid it on my heart as a vessel of love to bring light to the darkness without partiality.

As a demonstration of the Scripture I am going to use the recent contention with COT, another ministry and those who lay in the crosshairs crying out to the Lord with their heart shattered when self desires its way and satan enters in, using one against another.

I just need the Lord to give me boldness to address this whole situation as a parable for His word and glory.

If you have been a part of the recent division I ask you to please hear my heart today and reconsider what you believe to be the Lord directing you on what to say and do and if you are one caught in the crossfire of all that has gone on, I pray it will give you encouragement and wisdom to walk in love and mercy for a day that is surely coming in which it may be all that you potentially have to get you through.

As a reminder, we do not need to pick a side as long as we are on Jesus’s side.

Let’s get into the Word:

Mathew 18:21-35

21 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times?

22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.

Have you ever wondered how someone could sin again you that many times?  I propose something to you – How about in your mind when you replay over and over in your thoughts what someone did to you?  This could easily add up to that amount and more.  Some of us at times have made it apart of our daily routine to rehash all the evil done to us by our “brothers, sisters, etc…”  In this portion of Scripture Jesus said we must forgive all things, all the time, as many times as it happens when someone does something against us.  Jesus said this because He paid the price for all sin – it is finished, He forgave all and therefore, we cannot hold anything against anyone.

Now the next part is where He gives an example.

23 Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants.

                If we are in the Kingdom of Heaven we abide by the rule of Jesus, he keeps record of His own and they follow His leading, doing as He did and saying what He says.

24 And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents.

                On the day of reckoning or rather coming face to face with Jesus all our debts are before Him, all our wrongdoings and sin are laid bare before Him out in the open.  Since Jesus paid for it all, we owe Him and yet…  let’s keep reading

25 But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made.

If Jesus desired He could require we repay everything owed to Him for what He has done for us.

26 The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

This servant was so fearful not wanting to lose everything he fell down, worshiped Jesus, seeing how guilty he was, just as charged and he begged – HAVE PATIENCE WITH ME

27 Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.

Because Jesus is moved by compassion we are released from our prison and forgiven for every single sin and wrongdoing, paying nothing in return as we receive fully what Jesus has already done.

28 But the same servant went out, and found one of his fellow servants, which owed him an hundred pence: and he laid hands on him, and took him by the throat, saying, Pay me that thou owest.

Some, once they are forgiven themselves tend to elevate themselves and forget how far they have fallen and how dirty they actually were.  When this happens we feel empowered to require those in our midst to PAY FOR THEIR SINS, even though we did not have to pay for ours.  They neglect to see they too are a work in process and totally ignore the fact others are as well. PLEASE NOTE:  This is so interesting because it is directly speaking of “fellow servants” or rather those who you serve the Lord with.  Very timely indeed given what has recently transpired.

29 And his fellow servant fell down at his feet, and besought him, saying, Have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

So the one who was forgiven went to the one he was serving with demanding something of him because he thought he was guilty.  When this happened the one accused fell down at his feet (just as he had himself to Jesus earlier) and asked for him to be patient with him and he will repay what was lost or stolen or rather what HE THOUGHT WAS OWED TO HIM.  He needed the same PATIENCE that was given to him as he too was a work in progress.

30 And he would not: but went and cast him into prison, till he should pay the debt.

But the servant refused to offer compassion and patience to his fellow servant and cast him into prison after he, himself, was forgiven of all debt.

31 So when his fellow servants saw what was done, they were very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done.

There were other fellow servants sitting back observing all that was going on and were very sorry and heartbroken and because it grieved them so they went to Jesus in prayer in their heart and cried to Him.

32 Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto him, O thou wicked servant, I forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst me:

Jesus called this servant wicked who was forgiven for all his sin.  This servant did desire Jesus by the way.

33 Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy fellow servant, even as I had pity on thee?

Jesus told him you should have had compassion on your fellow servant because I had pity on you when it was time for you to pay for your own debt of sin.

34 And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the tormentors, till he should pay all that was due unto him.

Jesus was fiercely angry at this servant even to the point of calling him wicked.  But look what happened… He was given over to demons to torment him until all his debt of sin was paid for.  He basically was reaping no mercy because he had shown none.  We can only imagine what he reaped due to his lack of sowing of compassion, love and patience.

35 So likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not everyone his brother their trespasses.

This teaching in so important because this is what the Father will do to us, if we do not FORGIVE in action every time our fellow servants do something we do not agree with that hurts us…  A trespass. 

I am wondering if we know what it is we are even supposed to forgive?  What it means to be merciful?  What it means to be like Jesus since He did not come to condemn anyone of anything?

Do we actually think He should expose and put us to an open shame every single time we lead someone astray with our mouths?  Or speak His word out of context? Or have secret sin if only in our thoughts?

The truth is many cannot know the truth of another because they do not love enough to cover them rather than uncover them.

I know many things about many people that I would never ever utter publically about them.  Why would I do that anyway?  They do not answer to me, they answer to One, Jesus.

I don’t care who you are… We all have sin still in our lives that Jesus is patient with, showing mercy at every turn, that we do not want put in open display before the day of reckoning and completion.  Who are we to demand the day of reckoning of another when we ourselves claim our sins are covered by the Blood of Jesus?  When we do this we are certainly on the most dangerous of ground….. we are that wicked servant spoken of in what we just read.  We are very close to be fully given over to demonic torment for the way we have tormented another.

What I am about to say may sound a little harsh, but I must be obedient to the Lord on High, giving answer only to Him.

You see there are some of us who simply sit behind the scenes calling out to the Lord Jesus on High to intervene and remedy this situation.  We are on no one person’s side, but rather just pray continually that love, mercy, grace, wisdom and forgiveness have its perfect way.  We truly do not want to see anyone harmed or scarred in the process and desire everyone put aside their differences and operate out of a place of love.  We are the ones who are stumbling because of the vendetta of your offense.  We are the ones who have nothing to hide, because we hide nothing.  Our hearts are breaking as the little ones who have loved you and followed you and now you cannot hear us anymore due to the desires of your minds that are overriding all mercy and forgiveness through your shouts of anger.  And what saddens us most is how you are drawing away our brothers and sisters who we consider fellow servants in that because we will not take a side and you have, we too have become their targets of dissention.  Our hearts are breaking because you cannot hear our “I love you’s” over the spirit of offense whispering in your ears.  We beg of you, to please lay your weapons down towards one another, to lay down all pride which forges you to put to open shame one who we deeply love and just come together in unity to serve Jesus with us, not against us for we are not your enemy.  There is a time coming in which we will need one another, because Jesus and one another is all we will have.  We have severe fear and reverence before the Lord, knowing if we cannot submit to His ways now a greater tumult is inevitable in which we truly are forced to appreciate and love one another just as He has commanded us to do so. So please stop being angry and sinning, you are hurting not only us, but Jesus too and if He were here, He would say to lay your sword down or you will surely die by it.

So this is my constant prayer, as well as it is the cry of the heart of many I believe, considering the emails I am getting.

The Word tells us the Lord hates it when those sow discord among the brethren.  In His Word He never gives reason to sow this discord.

We pray all the time for the Lord to forgive us when we trespass against Him and yet we attempt to hold one another accountable when they trespass against us.  We pray for mercy and yet withhold it from others, Lord forgive us.

The Lord was showing me how we can have much knowledge about someone or something, but wisdom comes in only by understanding what we are to do with what we know and have been shown.  Quite often the Lord will only reveal to us the truth of another to what capability we have within us to love them.  On the other hand, the accuser will reveal knowledge about someone to provoke us through pain and hurt.  We need to follow the constant leading of the Holy Spirit to know the difference because it is surely impossible that offenses not come.  Amen.  I for one, will not be used as a source of fuel to build a case against anyone ever.  I stand with my Lord against such tactics and need to likely remind anyone who is planning to use me in such a way that you are not to touch God’s anointed or do His prophets no harm.  In full submission I lay at His feet, knowing already that even if He slay me, I love Him and receive Him as my Beloved.

So today’s teaching would not be complete if we did not go over Mathew 18 on how to deal with differences, keeping them inside the Church.  The brethren are told never to go to law with one another but reason together in all differences.

People have always had struggles amongst themselves even back to the time of the disciples when they would boldly declare they follow Peter, Paul, etc…  The real issue here is that Peter and Paul and the others did not encourage that sort of behavior, but rather served as an example knowing Jesus was the Head of His Own Body, in that competition and strife was not welcome nor allowed to operate.  As long as the disciples stayed in unity and love…  So did those under them who followed suit.

Mathew 18 is basically a step by step guidance on how to address a situation when a brother trespasses against YOU – YOU PERSONALLY.  This is not about preaching false doctrine, leading others astray and all that other nonsense.  This directive in Mathew 18 is how to deal with one of the brethren who trespasses against you personally, which we will go over in a bit.

But first, so just what is a trespass?

To keep it simple – a trespass is a wrong doing

It means to injure, annoy, inconvenience someone, a violation of any law – civil or moral, to offend someone or even God Himself, to go against the Biblical Word.

The Bible even teaches us to make amends with one another before coming before Him or He will not receive whatever it is we are offering up to Him – prayers, worship, works, etc…

Mathew 6:14-15 says ~

For if you forgive men their trespasses, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you; but if you forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

So it seems, just as sure it is we shall be offended, we must not hold that offense against anyone or we will too remain in an unforgiven state.

And to be honest, I really don’t even know what to do with all that?  I too struggle at times from all the heart pain inflicted upon me since birth, up until recently the cards seemed to be stacked against me, so to speak.  I am sure some of you feel the same way.

We must keep our hearts and eyes focused continually on Jesus, trusting that in time He will wipe every tear and put our hearts back to pieces as He mends them complete in Him.

Before we go into Mathew 18 I have to tell you a little testimony of mine.  A few months ago as I was struggling with something I reached out to a very popular female Minister and to be honest I was shocked that within a matter of minutes I found myself on the phone with her.  I kept thinking this has to be the Lord, because never in my wildest imagination did I expect a response right away, let alone a phone call.  I actually talked to her a couple times.  The main reason I even reached out to her was I needed some female guidance from what I would call someone over me in maturity, someone without partiality who was not involved in any way with what I was going through to avoid the flesh and such, plus I needed my discussion to remain confidential since on a personal level she did not know me and I do not know her.  Well anyway, it wasn’t long into our talk that I began to see clearly her wounds that were unhealed.  She just kept telling me that I am way to “Mercy motivated and to get out while I can…”  Now, I kept trying to wrap my mind and heart around what she was saying because in the mind it made perfect sense and yet in my heart I just could not reconcile fully what she was saying.  She continued to reveal to me some of her personal life pains and how she finally just had to run…  Anyway, that is not the point.  The point is I kept trying to separate my heart from me and how the Lord created me to be or rather to replace my own personal identity with the pressure and will of someone else or many in this case.  And I just could not seem to do it.  None of what they were saying to me made sense in my heart, only in my mind so internally I knew I must not be moved and do nothing but sit still and wait upon the Lord.  He kept telling me this too shall pass, just like all the other times you have been deeply hurt and that only He is my Savior and Master.  So I waited, things got worse and I waited and things kept getting worse, so I am waiting… Things are not better EXCEPT… sometime in all this quiet waiting and seeking Jesus in one sentence He spoke into my heart and this is what He said…

“I made you in the image of Me, do not let man tell you what to be like or who to love.  Do not let man tell you not to be mercy motivated because I was mercy motivated too, so much so it was for mercy’s sake I hung on a tree, they just do not know this yet and if they loved Me they would love who I love, which is everyone.”

And in one moment… all the chaos and fretfulness of not knowing what to do vanished.  In an instant I was settled and complete internally and at rest.  I maybe one of the most misunderstood humans on the face of the Earth – but I rejoice in knowing my Jesus understands me because it is His love I love another with and not my own.

Some of you are very similar to me, please do not let anyone tell you who to be.  Remember who you were before the World told you who you should be.  You are fearfully and wonderfully made, a Heaven sent creature to spread love and light into a fallen World, you confound the wise and make grown men cry, as you wipe the tears of a baby’s desperation.  You carry the fallen and lift up the weak, you are an overcomer with Him and a hot mess on your own.  You may stumble and fall and yet your door is always open to the 1 set before you. You are wronged, unbraided and sometimes a little tangled in sin and yet you always have time for a heart that needs comforted.  You are moved by mercy because you need it most and you forgive more as He has forgiven you for much.  You realize you were truly bought with a price of the highest degree as it cost Him His life and just Who would do such a thing for a dirty rag like me?  You know you are naked, broken and bare so there is no point in pointing the finger to another because you realize one simple truth…  It isn’t the saved Who need a healer – it is YOU and it is me, all of us because none of us have  yet been raised up incorruptible.

The Lord’s grace (patience) is sufficient for every single soul on Earth.  We often are partial in who we show grace to, the Father isn’t.


You really cannot make this stuff up… But you will not believe this, yet I promise it is true.  Just as I thought I was almost finished with my notes for today’s study I felt the Lord remind me of how He instructed his disciples to work out their struggles as well as for all those who followed after Him.  I remembered it was in Mathew somewhere like Chapter 15 or something and as I began to search for it, lo and behold… Guess where it is?  Mathew Chapter 18!  Yes, it is before what I was studying earlier about the wicked servant…  I am still in awe at our Lord’s majesty and His ways.  Tatum can verify what I am saying is true because as I was talking to her on the phone I told her I am almost done with the teaching but the Holy Spirit laid upon my heart it would not be complete unless I have instruction by the Word on how to handle when someone hurts you.  So here we go… Because now more than ever I am starting to grasp how important this is for us to understand.

Let’s start at the beginning of the Chapter, since we already covered the end of it, we will do this a little backwards today.

Mathew 18 ~

This is kind of cute how it all starts out because I often wonder exactly what conversation the disciples were having that prompted them to ask Jesus, “Who is greatest in the kingdom of Heaven?”  Isn’t that just a riot – like us – they probably each secretly wanted to be the greatest among all of the Father’s children.

You remember what Jesus did?  He called a little child and put him right in the middle of all them and said, “Unless you become converted (changed) and become as little children, you shall not enter into the kingdom of Heaven.”

Do you know what converted means in this sense?  Being humble

Jesus said, “Whosoever shall humble themselves as this little child, the same is the greatest in the kingdom of Heaven.”

Humility = the opposite of pride

Children may be a lot of things, even full of folly and yet…  They are humble, as Jesus said.  The same should we be.

Jesus said also, “If you receive a little child in my name, you receive Me.”

If we think of this in depth – I would receive you, you would receive me, we would receive one another for one reason only – each of us belong to Jesus.  Isn’t that just amazing?

He does give a stern warning about what happens to those who offend one of us who belong to Him, as a child, humble.  This is what Jesus said to everyone listening to His word, then and now:

“But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it is better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

Goodness gracious, that is a frightful thought and my concern is we have heard it so often we begin to take it lightly.  Those who offend are in much more danger than those who are offended.  One sure truth is that those who belong to Jesus for real, when offended they call out to Him in their time of need knowing He is the only answer to all our troubles.

The next verse I believe we are witnessing increasing today in the World we live in…  Jesus said, “Woe unto the world because of offences!  (seems like a tumult to me, just sayin) He said, “Offenses need to and must come BUT WOE to that man by whom the offence come.”  Do you mind if I share why it is so bad if an offence comes through you?  The Holy Spirit revealed to me a woe comes on you because you are being influenced by evil to offend someone.

Let’s picture this…  The offended who belong to Jesus go to Him when hurt, those who offend others are being influenced by evil to harm a little one….  This reminds me of when the parents are late coming home the children get antsy and begin to fight or…  If people believe Jesus has delayed His coming, they will start to smite (inflict pain upon) their fellow servants.

Next the Lord tells us whatever body part is being used to cause pain on another (feet, hands, eyes) because it is better to enter into the kingdom maimed than to keep that which offends you to the point of lashing out that you would end up into hell’s everlasting fire.

Side Note ~ I personally believe just like Israel becomes a trembling cup to those who have come against it, we too will be a cup of trembling to those who have come against us.  We are grafted into the Branch being Jesus so there is no true separation between Jew and Gentile in the Body of Christ.

Jesus warns us to take heed that we do not DESPISE not one of these little ones, because their angels in Heaven do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.  This is scary because we could simply just not like a child that belongs to Jesus and slip in our intentions towards them and perish.  This is just very serious and I pray just because we have heard it so much that we not forget to receive the severity of the Word at hand.

The next verses tell us the Son of Man (Jesus) is come to save that which is lost to the point he will leave all 99 of His sheep to track down just one lost sheep and that HE REJOICES MORE OVER THE LOST ONE THAT RETURNED than He does over the 99 that never did go astray.  Isn’t that just astonishing???  Wow

Now verse 14 brought me so much peace, I pray it will you too…  In verse 14 it says, “Even so IT IS NOT THE WILL of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.”  Whew – Did you get that?  It is NOT THE FATHER’S WILL that we perish – in other words, we won’t perish as long as we keep surrendered to Him.

So the next few Scriptures are why today’s message would not be complete… But I had to get it into context as to the extreme the Lord goes to for RESTORATION.  Verses 15-20

Many of you are very familiar of these next instructions BUT please hear my heart on this, the Lord showed me distinctly without a doubt IF your primary goal is not RESTORATION then it is very dangerous to even take the next steps without a humble right heart, full of love.  If we get outside of God’s will in this we become the ONE BRINGING OFFENSE upon another and are uncovered at that point and like we just read… influenced by evil.

We already talked about “trespasses” so when that happens to us, we are blessed to have instruction on how to handle such things in our daily lives.

15 Moreover if thy brother shall trespass against thee, go and tell him his fault between thee and him alone: if he shall hear thee, thou hast gained thy brother.

Reminder – This is if YOUR BROTHER in Christ does something, not someone who is not a believer

We are to go to the person privately and if he hears us we have gained our brother back (we do not go to other people and he must HEAR us which means listen and receive what we shared)

16 But if he will not hear thee, then take with thee one or two more, that in the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.

Now if that does not work, you ask one or two more witnesses for Jesus to go with you (hopefully to encourage the one lost, not to gang up on them just like the Lord goes after us when we stray)  These people who go with you are not to give witness to your offense but be a witness to Jesus for reconciliation. You see we have had this so backwards in the past.

17 And if he shall neglect to hear them, tell it unto the church: but if he neglect to hear the church, let him be unto thee as an heathen man and a publican.

Lastly, if he will not hear you, then it is appropriate to get the whole church involved to attempt to reconcile him BACK TO JESUS so he is your brother again.  This is not about us – this is about the other person being lost, drifting and needed brought back to Jesus – then we will retain him as a brother.  Sadly if he will not turn from his wicked ways it says to no longer consider him a part of the Body of Christ, he is lost.

Then I loved how Peter then asked… How often do I have to forgive my brother when he offends me?  So now we have come full circle to right where we began.

Forgiving one another when it is easier to accuse, laying our desires down for one another, showing patience while we each grow, giving mercy instead of criticism, repaying evil with love and so forth; knowing fully all that we do to one another GOOD or BAD we are actually DOING IT UNTO JESUS.

Just one last point before I close today…

Please, please before you proceed in any fashion be 100% sure YOU HAVE THE FULL TRUTH, not just facts that lead to the truth BUT THE FULL TRUTH or else it places us individually into a very dangerous situation.  Consider this— If you are willing to gamble your own eternal position in the kingdom without a shadow of doubt what you are saying about a brother or sister in the Lord is truth then by all means do as you are being lead.  But keep in mind, if you are accusing them with your measurement of truth rather than theirs and they are not guilty in the Lord’s sight, only yours… just like the 1 Jesus left the 99 for they will be saved while you perish.

1 John 4:20 tells us – If a man say I love God and hates his brother he is a liar.

The Lord has given us an excellent opportunity to store up some mercy for in a future time to come in which we are surely going to need it.  He has in His ever present mercy shown us patience while teaching us to be patient with one another because we all are a work in progress.  Anything done with anger, strife, contention is derived from hatred and perceived by many who are watching.  We must always ask

We have barely scratched the surface on biting and devouring one another and will go deeper into this opportunity for repentance in our next study as He is teaching us to stop swallowing a camel of our own sin while straining the gnat of those who belong to Him as our brothers and sisters.


I am going to share today something Sister Jodi wrote yesterday which really blessed my heart and then we will pray.  But, first I want to remind us what Jesus said to those who were feeling a little aggravated in how some other disciples were ministering to their flocks differently than they were…

Mark 9:40

But Jesus replied, “Do not stop him. No one who performs a miracle in My name can turn around and speak evil of Me. 40Forwhoever is not against us is for us


Wow…  What an instruction that is…  Jesus said – DO NOT STOP HIM, that those who perform a miracle in MY NAME will not speak evil of ME.  Whoever is NOT AGAINST US, is FOR US.

Just because someone has a different method than us personally, if they too are speaking Jesus is Lord, they will not speak evil of Him – you see it is ALL ABOUT HIM, they may speak evil of us, but what is most important is that THEY NOT SPEAK EVIL OF HIM.  He then sets all peace in place and settles all matters of contention and strife in just a few words like only Jesus can do —  He said, WHOEVER IS NOT AGAINST US IS FOR US.

The same is true that who is AGAINST US IS NOT FOR US.

And that is all I am going to say about all that right now.  I just pray the Lord purge our hearts from being AGAINST ANYONE, ever.

💗Let us pray of one accord…

Heavenly and mighty merciful Father in Heaven.  We thank You for this opportunity to gather together in Your Name for Your Glory today.  Lord we just ask Your forgiveness for times when we have not shown others mercy and expected more out of them than what You require of us.  We surrender all to You Lord, as the Great I am, full knowing and fully leading Your children Home.  Please continue to open our eyes to the truth of how we fall short and blind our eyes to the shortcomings of our brothers and sisters.  Do not let our love run cold Lord, save us from the snares of agreeing with others for the condemnation of the brethren.  Deliver us and purge us Lord from all iniquity so that our heart reflect the Image of You and not ourselves.  We petition You to make us whole in that when the enemy comes knocking on our doors that he may find nothing in us to carry our his will here on Earth.  We pray Jesus that You continue to pull us back from the edge of death in times we wander away from You.  Our souls are in Your hands Lord for the molding into Your image and we honor You for teaching us how to die to self so only You remain. 

Lord we lift up those we love who are caught in the snare of offense.  We humbly ask You to show them the height and depth of Your love, we thank You Lord for chasing after those who have gone astray just as You chase after us in our time of need.  We trust You Lord to be the designer of our faith and the faith of others, that only You can save Jesus as Your mercies are new every morning.

In unity we submit to Your will, Your love and to walk in forgiveness to the best of our ability from this day forward.  Bring Heaven to Earth Lord, change hearts, changes Nations as Your perfect will is done.  Deliver us Lord in our time of trouble, healing us and making us whole.

In Your Precious and Mighty Names we pray as one. Amen

May the Lord Bless you in His Love,

Angela ~ Marked By Heaven💗

God’s Sovereignty ~ Finding Our Purpose In WORKS


We are no longer dead in sin… But rather are being raise up INSIDE this flesh body to incorruptible BECAUSE Jesus lives within us.

Recently the Holy Spirit has been teaching us about BEING RAISED INCORRUPTIBLE… Just as it dawned on me, through the Holy Spirit, what that exactly means.  I am not so sure we all understand this, because if we did, we would be so full of joy it would not be contained.

The problem is – we have the mindset of a sinner and yet claim we are saved by Grace.  Grace is for those who IGNORANTLY sin.  That is not us, concerning most temptations we face.  We know right from wrong and still continue to choose to do wrong.  But fret not, no worries here, because we all have Jesus, the Author and Finisher of us (our faith walk) and He will complete a total work within us.

I simply love this Scripture right now:

A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps. Proverbs 16:9

Do we know what this completed work looks like?  We are becoming INCORRUPTIBLE.

When something is CORRUPTIBLE it is:

Having the potential to be corrupted, tempted, perish, dishonest, one who takes bribes, unclean, immoral.


Honest, with convictions, moral, righteous and full of virtue.

So basically here, we see a clear demarcation in something.  Do you see it?  It is the old creature versus the new creature we are becoming in Christ Jesus.

Let’s review the Scripture we discussed last time in 1 Corinthians 15:

52 In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead (in the flesh) shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.

53 For this corruptible must put on in-corruption, and this mortal must put on immortality.

54 So when this corruptible shall have put on in-corruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory.

So this verse is a perfect complement to what we shall be… And we do not even know the fullness of that yet, except to say we shall be like HIM, speaking of Jesus.

We spent much time in Romans 8 the last time I spoke, getting to the heart of the matter in living this life here on Earth as a Child of God, because a child of God does walk in a body of flesh and bone, however, we no longer feed the carnal lusts of filthy flesh for we are counted among the redeemed of the Earth.   Once the heart changes, so do the desires of it and therefore you CHANGE from being of the Earth to a Heavenly body abiding here still on Earth.  A child carries the characteristics/dna of his or her Father. Amen.  Our lives unfold based on the “seed” we carry inside us internally.

I will show you in the Word, where it perfectly gives instruction to this truth.  So let’s get back into 1 Corinthians 15, which we have not discussed in depth before.

31 I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily.

Paul is telling us here – we are to DIE DAILY

So it is true we may die a natural death – however, he is clearly speaking spiritually here in this Scripture

Paul is teaching them – he has counted the cost and follows Jesus as his apostle no matter what comes his way or challenges he must face

33 Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners.

34 Awake to righteousness, and sin not; for some have not the knowledge of God: I speak this to your shame.

Paul is telling them it is a choice whether to sin or not.

35 But some man will say, How are the dead raised up? and with what body do they come?

36 Thou fool, that which thou sowest is not quickened, except it die:

37 And that which thou sowest, thou sowest not that body that shall be, but bare grain, it may chance of wheat, or of some other grain:

38 But God giveth it a body as it hath pleased him, and to every seed his own body.

There are actually His children on Earth today that are of His seed.

39 All flesh is not the same flesh: but there is one kind of flesh of men, another flesh of beasts, another of fishes, and another of birds.

40 There are also celestial bodies, and bodies terrestrial: but the glory of the celestial is one, and the glory of the terrestrial is another.

Some are from Heaven, others are from the Earth

41 There is one glory of the sun, and another glory of the moon, and another glory of the stars: for one star differeth from another star in glory.

42 So also is the resurrection of the dead. It is sown in corruption; it is raised in incorruption:

We were ONCE dead in sin, but have been raised up into LIFE ETERNAL because it is only once for man to die.

The following tells us HOW that it is played out:

43 It is sown in dishonor; it is raised in glory: it is sown in weakness; it is raised in power:

44 It is sown a natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. There is a natural body, and there is a spiritual body.

Here on the Earth there are natural and spiritual bodies – the actual flesh and bones does not determine the origination of the body, but rather the SOURCE of within that particular person.  There are some seeds which are “tares” and others are “wheat” of which only the Father knows, because only He knows the end from the beginning – otherwise, we judge before the time.

45 And so it is written, The first man Adam was made a living soul; the last Adam was made a quickening spirit.

46 Howbeit that was not first which is spiritual, but that which is natural; and afterward that which is spiritual.

47 The first man is of the earth, earthy; the second man is the Lord from heaven.

48 As is the earthy, such are they also that are earthy: and as is the heavenly, such are they also that are heavenly.

49 And as we have borne the image of the earthy, we shall also bear the image of the heavenly.

50 Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; neither doth corruption inherit incorruption.

51 Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed.

To be CHANGED here means:

To exchange one thing for another, to transform or to speak or react in a different manner.  To cease from discord through moods, emotions or self will of desires.

So it is in this moment – daily in each circumstance as we die to the flesh, we crucify our wants, our thoughts, our desires and most importantly, our ways and it is no longer us who live but Jesus lives in us and we are changed.  By this we are effectively applying the Gospel to our lives and we are raised incorruptible.  No longer then do we carry out or walk out that which is in opposition to our Father, we become like Him in all manners of our lives.  This is how we move… Glory to glory.

A good example would be when we get upset with someone.  It is our flesh carnal nature that is offended at their flesh carnal nature.  Jesus is not upset with anyone.  He sees past the flesh of us all into the heart and is accepting, forgiving and loving.  When we view others through His eyes we operate in the same fashion as Him, pulling down all strongholds to lash out, have our way or prove a point just to be right – we become righteous because He is righteous.  We will never win a battle fighting flesh to flesh.  All darkness is only overcome by light, in ourselves and others.

52 In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.

53 For this corruptible must put on in-corruption, and this mortal must put on immortality.

54 So when this corruptible shall have put on in-corruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory.

55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

56 The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.

57 But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

58 Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye steadfast, unmovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

This is a NOW WORD… Not something in the way off foreseeable distance.  He is telling us here NOT TO LABOR IN VAIN, but rather to DO THE WORK OF THE LORD.

The WORK OF THE LORD is done IN US – daily, moment by moment.


So today we are going to discuss GOOD WORKS vs. DEAD WORKS.

The Kingdom of Heaven surely is within YOU


19 And he said unto him, Arise, go thy way: thy faith hath made thee whole.

20 And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation:

21 Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.

We so often look for an outwardly sign of the Kingdom just like the Pharisees, becoming demanding and such, but the truth is – THE KINGDOM IS WITHIN US, a hidden mystery that many cannot grasp.

We often battle internally with these WORKS…  Which is why the Lord placed upon my heart to share exactly what type of works He has spoken of and is looking for – because these WORKS He speaks of enter eternity with us, they do not perish and are so hidden most often He is the only One Who can observe them because they are internal – Wholeness and completed by Him.

I can promise you right now this message will crucify your flesh and your flesh and mind will resist it in parts, just like mine did – But if you can spiritually grasp this concept you will have a pearl of understanding today that you possibly did not consider before.

Sadly, the truth is…  Some people need to get saved for real.  To be truly saved, it is no longer I who live, but Jesus lives inside me.  I am dead.  He is risen within.  And when this happens, repentance becomes natural as He exposes, delivers and consumes all that within us that is not of Him.  We are changed (made whole) from the inside out.

Peace comes into our lives when OUR WILL is ONE WITH HIS and it surpasses all understanding because we should be upset, running to and fro and worried and yet instead we are walking in full submission to His sovereignty…  That is when the peace comes.  One cannot have peace and be inside their own will, it is only when HIS WILL IS BEING DONE ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN that real peace is felt and it is then and only then that we grasp how Sovereign our Father actually is – until that time, we will question everything and worry continually.  In these cases we also will fret over who is saved and who isn’t deceived believing it is a part of our WORKS TO SAVE THEM.  It is the ENEMY who tells us to save ourselves and others while Jesus said TO DIE TO SELF.  We need to get out of the way when God is dealing with another, not intervene to save them from what the Lord is using to save their souls and He uses the pains of flesh to destroy it.  When our labor is in vain, so are our works.

The Now Word for the season we are currently in is:  Die to self because as we decrease He shall increase within us.  The truth of it is – A person is not anointed but rather Jesus is the anointed One and to the measurement that we have decreased – He is increasing within us as a demonstration of truth by what is said through us, not by us.

Today we are going to talk about one part of this process – getting rid of all DEAD WORKS IN OUR LIVES.

As the Lord continues to prepare us to receive Him fully into our hearts, souls and minds it seems like lately not a day goes by that He is not revealing and purging something within…  He is truly “preparing His dwelling place” within us.  It was at this point last week I realized…  The impossibility of no matter how much I gave of myself to others it still was laced with a bit of carnality.  This explains why all of OUR works are DEAD WORKS, they are mingled with —- SELF gratification.  He began to show me just how impossible it is to do anything that does not have fragments of my carnal nature mixed in because even though we may be compassion driven – we are still gratifying something of ourselves and usually it is a self-centered desire to BE NEEDED.

Now before you just throw up your hands…  Hold tight for just a little bit, because there are VERY VERY GOOD WORKS which the Lord directed me to in His Word.  These PERFECT WORKS are actually the only ones that are pure into a transference into our Eternal life.  Jesus set the prime example for us as a demonstration on how to walk continually giving the Father Glory.

But before we look at that…  Let’s look into the Book of Ecclesiastes because for the first time in all my life I am seeing that all truly is vanity.

It is interesting to note that King Solomon wrote this book, even calling himself a preacher.  I don’t think I ever noticed that before.  I encourage you to read Chapters 1 and 2 in Ecclesiastes soon because to save time I am going to use just a few passages and do a lot of paraphrasing.

Chapter 1

Vs. 2 tells all that all is vanity and in Vs 3 he goes on to talk about labor and asks what does it really profit a man?  Then in Vs. 14 he says he has seen ALL THE WORKS that are done and ALL OF THEM ARE VANITY.  In other words – people labor in vain because in the next verse it says – that which is crooked cannot be made straight and there are so many wanting it is a number that cannot be numbered.  It is important to note in Vs. 18 he says – in much wisdom is much sadness and as our knowledge is increased so is our sorrow.  I believe many of us can relate to that even today.  The Father alone makes our paths straight and others to be in line with Him.

Chapter 2

In this chapter he goes into all the things he has done on the Earth:  Like pleasure, laughter, wine, wisdom, folly, great works, building of houses, planted vineyards and gardens, pools, servants, great possessions, silver and gold, entertainment and he did all this so HE LOOKED GREAT – Vs. 9  He also took what he desired (including women) and experienced much joy.  He says in his heart HE REJOICED IN HIS LABOURS.

Vs. 11 is very important because it is here HE LOOKS AT ALL THE WORKS HE HAD DONE by his hands and was shown – all of it was done in vain and his spirit was vexed because what he had done brought NO PROFIT UNDER THE SUN.  (It was all done in vain because the reward was here, not eternal.)

Basically, the whole Book of Ecclesiastes is Solomon coming into the understanding that no matter how much you do or the wisdom you have can interfere with the sovereignty of God and when we do attempt to do such things it is all vanity.

We have all more times that we realize have spoken out of self, lead others astray – even unknowingly and been seduced at times to follow idols – one, being self.  Which is why the Father in this season is wanting us to grasp His sovereignty and how a part from Him we can do nothing.

We all are like flowers of the field who toil and spin and yet… In truth, it is the Father Who tends to us because we cannot even take care of ourselves.  How beautiful is this truth!  So we can all relax now knowing “The Father has this” because He truly does.

Before we go more into dead works, I want to preface this teaching with saying what I am not saying…  Which is – I am not saying we aren’t to assist one another, comfort one another and be used by the Lord daily as His vessels pouring Him out upon the Earth.  We are to do all those demonstrations of love, loving others more than ourselves…  Which is exactly the point here…  It is all about Him and it is all about others and it should be not at all about whatever we do to gratify self.  I know some people will take this to the extreme.  However, just like all Bible studies this is about going deeper into the precepts of the Lord.  So please keep that in remembrance as we study today learning more about how the Father operates so we build upon what we have learned, not forgetting what He has shown us so far.

Let’s get into the study:

In John Chapter 9 it tells a story of when Jesus healed the blind man as a display of the Father’s works because people were trying to blame someone (himself or his parents) for sinning to cause this illness.  In return Jesus said no one had sinned to cause this illness, but rather so that “THE WORKS OF GOD SHOULD MANIFEST IN HIM.”  He was born blind for one reason, so the Father could demonstrate Himself as Healer and He did so THROUGH JESUS.

In vs. 4 it says:

I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.

It is important to note here – these are not “worldly” works, but rather an act done for one sole purpose – that the Father get glory.   We will learn more about this throughout the study today.

Interesting enough this word “works” is the same word in the Greek of the following Scripture:

Philippians 2:

Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.

Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:

Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:

But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:

And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.

Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:

10 That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;

11 And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

These “works” we are being taught about concern – obedience and salvation

John Chapter 6 gives us another hint as to what the Father considers worthwhile “works”:

27 Labour not for the meat which perisheth, but for that meat which endureth unto everlasting life, which the Son of man shall give unto you: for him hath God the Father sealed.

28 Then said they unto him, What shall we do, that we might work the works of God?

29 Jesus answered and said unto them,This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent.

Jesus said – The works of God are to believe in Jesus.  This is how we “work out our salvation daily” we do so by FAITH.

He also said here that all other labors will perish but to know Jesus will help us to endure into everlasting life.

What the Lord began to show me is how often we weary ourselves when the enemy convinces us to run to and fro “working” in the flesh to achieve many things that will not sustain our eternal life.  These “works” become some sort of an idol in our lives and goes against what Jesus told us to do.

During my study He reminded me of the CHURCH OF SARDIS in Revelation Chapter 3.  Let’s take a look at what is spoken to that particular church – I think that might bring some clarity as to why the Lord is directling us to study this right now.

And unto the angel of the church in Sardis write; These things saith he that hath the seven Spirits of God, and the seven stars; I know thy works, that thou hast a name that thou livest, and art dead.

This church was doing things for others and not only that, they were being recognized for what they were doing.  They thought they were ALIVE but in truth were DEAD.

Be watchful, and strengthen the things which remain, that are ready to die: for I have not found thy works perfect before God.

They had stopped watching to be strengthened in the Lord Jesus and their works were not PERFECT because they were not strictly for God’s glory, but rather their own.

Remember therefore how thou hast received and heard, and hold fast, and repent. If therefore thou shalt not watch, I will come on thee as a thief, and thou shalt not know what hour I will come upon thee.

They had taken their eyes off Jesus and if they did not repent from these works, He will come to them as a thief – without notice, they will not even recognize it is Him as He will come without warning.

Thou hast a few names even in Sardis which have not defiled their garments; and they shall walk with me in white: for they are worthy.

There was a small remnant who’s garments were made white and had not defiled themselves in these dead works.

Our “Garments” are actually the FULL ARMOR OF GOD found in Ephesians 6:

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

Back to THE CHURCH OF SARDIS in Revelation 3:

He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels.

This is telling us we must overcome doing any works at any time that glorify ourselves, otherwise our names will be blotted out of the Book of Life.  To overcome means to: acknowledge our shortcomings and rely on Jesus to help us go and sin no more – with true heartfelt repentance in this area.

So as I was studying this I began to ask our Lord to show me just what would be considered a “good and perfect work” because our works are so imperfect, we need to know or rather I needed to know exactly what He does consider a “perfect work” in order to make a change.

Ironically, I found 7 PERFECT WORKS in the Bible and each one is GOD CENTERED not MAN CENTERED:



Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

Please Note:  The ONLY SALVATION we can work out is OUR OWN, not anyone else’s.


MARK 13:34

For the Son of Man is as a man taking a far journey, who left his house, and gave authority to his servants, and to every man his work, and commanded the porter to watch.


JOHN 17:4

I have glorified thee on the earth: I have finished the work which thou gavest me to do.


JOHN 5:20

For the Father loveth the Son, and sheweth him all things that himself doeth: and he will shew him greater works than these, that ye may marvel.



But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

Through exhibiting PATIENCE we learn to be made whole, no longer desiring anything on this Earthly plane.


ACTS 26:20

But shewed first unto them of Damascus, and at Jerusalem, and throughout all the coasts of Judaea, and then to the Gentiles, that they should repent and turn to God, and do works meet for repentance.



Make you perfect in every good work to do his will, working in you that which is wellpleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ; to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

So you see…  The Father considers the intent of the heart to be fixated on Him and Him alone and this is truly the ONLY GOOD WORK He considers of importance.

Now on the flip side MATHEW 23 speaks about doing WORKS TO BE SEEN BY MAN – these are unfruitful to the Kingdom of Heaven:

Then spake Jesus to the multitude, and to his disciples,

Saying The scribes and the Pharisees sit in Moses’ seat:

All therefore whatsoever they bid you observe, that observe and do; but do not ye after their works: for they say, and do not.

—false promises would fall into this category, they also want you to watch what they are doing

For they bind heavy burdens and grievous to be borne, and lay them on men’s shoulders; but they themselves will not move them with one of their fingers.

But all their works they do for to be seen of men: they make broad their phylacteries, and enlarge the borders of their garments,

And love the uppermost rooms at feasts, and the chief seats in the synagogues,

And greetings in the markets, and to be called of men, Rabbi, Rabbi.

But be not ye called Rabbi: for one is your Master, even Christ; and all ye are brethren.

And call no man your father upon the earth: for one is your Father, which is in heaven.

10 Neither be ye called masters: for one is your Master, even Christ.

11 But he that is greatest among you shall be your servant.


These works spoken of here has the same Greek root word as DEEDS.

The deeds which are done for the Lord are done in secret, not openly for man to see.  (John 3:21)

If we want to be seen by men – it is for an earthly reward, but if done in secret the Father will reward us openly.


ACTS 7:41 warns us about rejoicing in the works of our own hands while in doing so we are actually sacrificing (or rather giving of ourselves) to idols.

Doesn’t this make you want to stop dead in your tracks and search your heart not only for WHAT WE ARE DOING, BUT WHY ARE WE DOING IT?  It surely convicted me and in turn we will gain much about the wisdom of God.  Praise Jesus!

Jesus told us in JOHN 14:12 that greater “works” we shall do.  Partly because Jesus abides within us now and as we decrease He increases.  As a result, our “works” become submissive to His ways and in turn gives all glory to the Father through our own obedience.  What is amazing about this is – It can happen through many of us all at the same time, which was not possible when Jesus walked the Earth – hence, we do “greater” or rather “increased” works here in our day simultaneously.

We must take note on the fact that “MAN IS JUSTIFIED ONLY BY FAITH, NOT DEEDS OR WORKS” as written in ROMANS 3:27-28

So often we have been groomed to serve others to the point we are in direct disobedience into conflict with God.  Many of us, especially me, are learning how NOT TO go against our Lord in this way.  Again, like I said earlier – no matter what condition we are in at the moment, we are decreasing and He is increasing in us.  Therefore, some who SERVE BY NATURE as being halted and OTHERS WHO TAKE BY NATURE as learning to give of themselves.  It is a beautiful process we are in at the moment.

In this process, we are beginning to — Cast off the “works of darkness” in order to put on the armor of light.  (Which is Salvation) as stated in ROMANS 13:12, so that our “garments” are not defiled by the mingling of truth.

We have all at times “Boasted on our own works” written about in EPHESIANS 2:9, but thankfully just as written about the Church of Sardis the Holy Spirit is giving us the gift of repentance in this area, in order that we are worthy and well pleasing in the Father’s sight.

JAMES 2:26 says that “Faith without works is dead.”

  • These WORKS are not of the flesh, but rather of the Spirit
  • These WORKS do not perish with the flesh
  • Through these WORKS we have a securement of Salvation
  • Through these WORKS our faith in Jesus is perfected
  • Even devils have FAITH IN JESUS AND TREMBLE as stated in Vs. 19 – But these “works” are far more reaching that to just believe in Jesus

If we sow INTO THE FLESH – we will reap FLESH

If we sow INTO THE SPIRIT – we will reap SPIRIT

So please consider this when you assist another.

We must always consider the “source” of why we do something.  Is it self or spirit?

We can do something Spirit lead that will affect another’s flesh, but we cannot be lead by the flesh and expect to reap something Spiritual.  Does that make sense?  Sometimes our desire to be needed overrides what the Spirit is directing us to do.  And other times the Spirit is directing us to do more, but our flesh does not want to cooperate.  What we dwell on – we worship, so if we dwell on others more than Jesus, He is pulling us back on course to fixate solely on Him – then we cannot veer of the narrow path that few find.

We are simply in a beautiful process of learning how to walk by faith and not sight.

This is the dividing line between being chosen to serve or remain in a state of being served.

Remember – It was MARTHA who frantically said to Jesus – CAN’T YOU SEE how busy I am working Jesus?  Make my sister come help me.  And Jesus in His gentle way reminded her how she is WORRIED and UPSET about many things but that her sister Mary had CHOSEN (TO REST IN HIM) WHICH IS THE BETTER PART that will not be taken away.  You see – What was inside Martha (works) was coming out of her and there is no hiding from Jesus what is within.  He is calling us to REST IN HIM and TO RECEIVE OF HIM, where the yokes of burdens are easy and light.  How often the demands of others and this World we easily forget the BETTER PART – resting in Jesus.

Martha represents our FLESH WORKS

Mary represents our FAITH WORKS

Flesh works will all be burned up, however, our faith works will never be taken away.

This surely does confound the wise.

We collectively at COT/ROf recently did a mighty “work” in helping a precious sister and her mom who were in need.  And for all of those who assisted in making this happen, I want to honor you and thank you for your generous obedience to the Father.  This was a prime example of BEING LOVE one to another when one of our family is in need and it is precious.

Here is what happened…  A precious sister in the Lord, who cares for her sickly Mother just happened to mentioned how much they were suffering in the heat since they had no air conditioning.  She did not ask for assistance, except prayer to overcome this heat through Jesus.  Immediately, the Holy Spirit laid it upon my heart for us to come together as one in Jesus to make this happen for them, which we did and the Lord guided us the whole way, opening doors as we progressed in making arrangements for a unit to be delivered as soon as possible.

So, using this example we need to understand the “works” here was not that they got an air conditioner, but rather that her FAITH IN THE LORD INCREASED, knowing He loves her, cares about her well-being and will not forsake her – which is something she will carry with her always.  Even if the air conditioner breaks down, has to be thrown away – she will remember how the FATHER PROVIDED FOR HER and will do so again because HE LOVES HER, that embrace she will always have.

If we focus on the air conditioner – man gets the glory and once the air conditioner no longer works, the imprint it left will fade away too.

If we focus on the deed – The Lord gets all the glory, only He deserves and it is ever lasting – the better part and will never be taken away.

I know she was thankful and we receive her gratitude, always pointing back to Him – but in each email I reminded her it was all Him and we are nothing more than the vessels He used.  In one email I recall telling her to REMEMBER THIS ALWAYS AS AN EMBRACE FROM HIM TO KNOW SHE IS LOVED AND TO NEVER EVER FORGET IT.  She promised me she would.  And then a test came… To insure her walk matched her talk.  For now, I will leave it at that.

Anyone of us can and do many things for others each and every day, but if it is done for any other reason than for our Father to get the Glory – it is consider a “dead work.”  And just as 2 Peter 3:10 says, it will be burned up.  Some key indicators to look for are:  Do we expect a thank you in order that what we gave is “recognized” by the other person?  Are we keeping score, say with a spouse or child, reflecting on how unbalanced the giving and taking is in the relationship?  Do we give something to another expecting the Father to reimburse us 10 fold?  Or even at all?  When we give do we pat ourselves on the back thinking highly of ourselves, even if we do not murmur the thought to another?  There are many other examples, but you get my drift…  The focus is on SELF, not JESUS.

I want to transition a bit and in doing so we are going to go over HEBREWS 4:8-11 as follows:

For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.

And in this place again, If they shall enter into my rest.

Seeing therefore it remaineth that some must enter therein, and they to whom it was first preached entered not in because of unbelief:

Again, he limiteth a certain day, saying in David, To day, after so long a time; as it is said, Today if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts.

For if Jesus had given them rest, then would he not afterward have spoken of another day.

There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God.

10 For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his.

11 Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.

  • There is a rest for God’s people
  • The Father displaying REST as an example for us to follow as He rested on the 7th day – when He completed the works of creation
  • This Scripture tells us to CEASE FROM OUR OWN WORKS as that is where we have rest in Him
  • We are to LABOR to enter into His rest or we will fall into unbelief – our WORKS should be to rest in Him
  • Again – as we WORK OUT OUR OWN SALVATION DAILY – We are becoming co-laborers with Jesus and that truly is the only labor that transfers from this mortal life into our eternal one.

Scripture tells us in HEBREWS 9:14 that we are to PURGE OURSELVES FROM DEAD WORKS TO SERVE JESUS.  I have a feeling He is doing this work inside many of us right now.  Praise the Lord!

JAMES 2:21 says that “Abraham demonstrated great WORKS when he placed Isaac on the alter” which equals to having FAITH IN THE FATHER.  Many of us have some “Isaac’s of our own” we need to place before God and trust Him intently and fully with these cares and concerns.  Me included.

Some of you all are feeling very similar to me lately, resembling the Church of Philadelphia In Revelation Chapter 3.  I am not going to read the whole portion but there are a few key elements I do want to point out.  One being, in Vs. 8 it says that “Only those who WORK out their Salvation enter through the Open Door.”  The open door is Jesus by the way.  But, it also says – SPEAKING TO THOSE WHO DO BELONG TO HIM:


This is very telling as to what counts the most in the Kingdom of Heaven.  He is helping us to rest right now in Him while empowering us in this process to NOT DENY HIS NAME, WHILE WE KEEP HIS WORD.  Now that is something to be ever so thankful for right there!  The World says “stand up, be strong” while Jesus says “in your weakness, I am strong.”

Lastly, in Revelation 20:13 it says “The sea (of people) gives up the dead and everyone is judged according to their works.”  The “dead” or rather “tares” are removed first… Tares and their works are in vain and what remains?  Those in Faith.

Before we wrap it up – I just want to thank you all for staying with me during this study.  I know it is complex and cutting to the flesh and I so appreciate your willingness to walk on this narrow path with me.  Before I close, we are going to take a closer look into the Laodicea Church since we have many more precepts than when we first went over this particular gathering of multitudes.

Do you remember when the Lord told us to “Return to our first works?”  And how He compares that to returning to our “First love?”  Which is Him.  This is why – when we are deeply in love with Him, our eyes are focused on Him, we are so close to Him that what He does we will do, where He goes we will follow and what He says we will say.  In being one with Jesus, His way envelopes us to the point that where He ends we begin and vice versa… That is really – a “first love experience.”

So we can embrace the hurting, feed the poor, visit those in prison and do all the deeds of a Saintly calling just as we are commanded.  However, we must love Jesus above, how much we love assisting others.  We say we love Jesus more – but do we?  How many times must He keep asking us if we love Him, not because He doesn’t know, but rather so we can look inside and ask ourselves.  Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved Him and go figure, Peter proudly said yes and then denied Him three times, to be exact.  Seems there is a message in that as well.

Love is demonstrated, not just spoken.  I know you all probably get tired of me saying that, but I have my reasons.  I just pray you all can hear my heart in all this…  Because I am not saying we shouldn’t give to others, I am saying we need to give all we have to Jesus first then let Him flow out of us to others.

Righteousness only comes by faith, not in what we do or do not do.  This is an extremely hard concept to get, but with Lord’s patience we will overcome all things – especially ourselves.

I know you all are familiar with the Church of Laodicea mentioned in Revelation 3 but I want us to go over Vs. 15 real quick.

I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.

Keeping in mind this is written TO THE CHURCH, not the World, it is important to know that our own works are cold and when mingled with a partial truth they become lukewarm.  This Scripture is telling us He would prefer we either do no works or do His works, but to mingle our own with His, will cause Him to spew us out of His mouth.  I was taught this Scripture was about being on “fire” for Jesus, as if the word “works” was not even in the verse.  Clearly, this verse speaks only of “works” which proves the point – WE ARE TO WORK OUT OUR SALVATION DAILY.

We are almost to the end of this study… finally!

Revelation 9 speaks directly about the 5th and 6th Angels that sound a trumpet releasing “woes” upon men on the Earth.

If we go down to the 6th Angel that sounded to release four angels upon the Earth to slay 1/3 of all men, I discovered something very interesting there…  Let’s take a look at Vs. 20 & 21:

20And the rest of the men which were not killed by these plagues yet repented not of the works of their hands, that they should not worship devils, and idols of gold, and silver, and brass, and stone, and of wood: which neither can see, nor hear, nor walk:

21 Neither repented they of their murders, nor of their sorceries, nor of their fornication, nor of their thefts.

I do not think I ever noticed before how this Scripture is saying how serious it is for us if we DO NOT REPENT OF THE WORKS OF OUR OWN HANDS.  Notice it does not says repent of SINS here, but rather WORKS.  All has changed now in my view of truth regarding these works, after being shown by the Holy Spirit how serious the Father is about only Him receiving Glory for anything and everything.  I have been so convicted by this truth and am really ripped to shreds over it – which is a good thing, but it sometimes is painful when the Lord shows you what you thought you were doing “In His Name” was really for your own will and not His, equaling rebellion.

Even this study continues on with a pattern here that He has been giving us for the past year at least…  Which is:  Purging us from the PRIDE OF LIFE.

I pray this teaching has been a blessing to you all and that you will take it directly to the Father and ask Him to show you what He would have you to glean from it.  I pray also, that He will continue to decrease us daily so that He may increase within us until we are complete and whole that our joy may be made full in Him and Him Alone.  Help us Lord to stop measuring the pride in others, as a mechanism of denying our own.  May He give increase to the seeds I have planted until the day of Harvest which is growing exceedingly more near with each passing moment.  I give Him all honor and glory and praise for His long suffering nature which guides us on the path of truth so we may walk uprightly in the Spirit void of anything within us that opposes Him, as it is an honor to serve You Lord.  In Jesus’s magnificent Name I pray. Amen

May the Lord Bless You In His Love,

💗Angela~Marked By Heaven


A most precious sister in the Lord sent me a question through email yesterday and bless her pure heart that is constantly crying out to the Father.  She has gone through so much in her life and it has been my joy to minister to her at the leading of the Holy Spirit or all these months.

This is what she asked me:

Is he telling me I need to be thankful for the NDE an molestation and the abuse and the rape and the

Violation of coerced sexual manipulation is he telling me that it was Gods pleasure for us to have suffered these things??? Ok I really don’t get that I think that is sick as all get out and I do not believe God is some sick twisted human thinking creator… It a good thing he is not now can I be thankful he has kept me thru that yes.. Has anyone been born again then yet if he is the only begotten are you born when you die? How can that help the living be healed Jesus healed the flesh if the flesh was so bad why did he heal it why would God say I’m going to take the stones out of the heart an give a flesh heart.

So today I am going to address this, because I seem to be getting similar type questions from others and it is pertinent we know exactly where we are in this process the Lord has us in at the moment.  In order for me to share with you all, I am going to have to share one of my pearls.  Something priceless the Lord has shown me.  For those who like to give an excuse for sin or rather their behavior – those that have the “I can’t help its…”  This pearl will not be very popular.  But for those who truly do have a heart after God’s own heart and are constantly in a state of repentance, my prayer is it will bless you.

Like a child, I like to keep things simple.  I also like to read the word with an open heart, letting the Holy Spirit be my guide.  So if it is in the Word and I do not understand it – I go to the Father relentlessly until I have clearer understanding of what He is saying.


Some key points we must understand:

  • Rebellion is any action in opposition to the purity of the Lord
  • Flesh should be understood as CARNALITY – our CARNAL NATURE has nothing good in it whatsoever
  • Our Carnal Flesh nature contain lusts that are not good for us and when acted upon hurt others and ultimately ourselves. We are to die to this selfish nature.
  • Sadly, so many talk about the FLESH as being totally doomed – which in truth a better description would be CARNAL FLESH.
  • Flesh controlled by the Holy Spirit is not carnal in nature.

The Father is pouring out His Spirit upon all FLESH, for this very purpose – just as it is written in

Acts 2:14

The Bible also tells us that the WORD WAS MADE FLESH [in Jesus] TO DWELL AMONG US in John 1:14

We also understand that the Father SHORTENED THE DAYS FOR THE ELECT’S SAKE OR NO FLESH COULD BE SAVED.  This is in Mark 13:20




When we walk in submission to the Holy Spirit our bodies carry out the will of the Father.

When we walk in submission to the carnality of the flesh our bodies carry out rebellion.

I simply do not agree with people when they say – I am sorry I couldn’t help it… Jesus always makes a way of escape to us if we choose to follow His example.  The truth is it is time for us to admit – we choose sin and quite often for that matter and quite often to feed the lusts of the carnal mind/flesh.

So, Jesus was in a flesh body – He was perfect the whole time while in His flesh body because He was in total surrender to the Father.  He had no carnality in Him, therefore no rebellion.  He walked fully in the Spirit because He was triune with the Father and Holy Spirit.

In this sense He was – incorruptible when He faced every temptation.

In a like manner, we are on a similar journey to be like Him.  We do have our moments of dying to self, our sin nature and carnality as we walk in our flesh body here on Earth.  When we are lead and guided by the Holy Spirit which indwells within us we are no longer lead by our carnal desires to manifest in our flesh.

For example:  When we are tempted to do wrong and choose to do life rather than something which is rebellious and carnal, we are walking similar to how Jesus walked – as a Spirit inside a body upon the Earth.

This is a process we are currently in, step by step we are learning to put away all evil in the old creature within us very similar to how a baby learns to walk.  We fall down and get right back up.  Jesus covers us when we make mistakes along the way and we learning how to repent – turn away from sin and do it no more because our hearts are set on Him and a heart set on Him has lost all natural desire for sin itself.  This is called a HEART OF FLESH in the Word.

It is important to note it is not what we DO that makes us righteous, but rather it is a laying down of your own life and submitting to Him fully because of what He already did and He becomes our source of righteousness.


1There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

WE COULD ALMOST STOP HERE AND GET WHAT WE NEED FOR THIS STUDY… If we are IN JESUS we are no longer condemned as long as we do not walk following the carnality of the flesh but rather walk in the flesh being led by the Holy Spirit.

But we will keep going…

For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.

For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh:


That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit.

For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.

Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.


So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.


But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.


10 And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.


11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.


12 Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh.


13 For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live.


14 For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.


15 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

16 The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God:

17 And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.


18 For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

19 For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God.


20 For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who hath subjected the same in hope,

21 Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.

22 For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now.


23 And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.


24 For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?

25 But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.

26 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.


27 And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.

28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.


30 Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.


31 What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

32 He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?

33 Who shall lay anything to the charge of God’s elect? It is God that justifieth.

34 Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.

35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?


36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

It is true evil things do happen to us – rebellious people have caused us much harm, for some of us this has been a pattern our whole lives.  There is beauty in this as well, because we learn from these experiences to not inflict this same pain upon another.

  • Being betrayed by someone you love in a similar way then “perfects” us to not betray others – the Father uses these struggles to prove Himself in our lives.

This is a clear demonstration on how the Lord words all things together for our own good according to His riches in glory.

When you mix two carnally minded people together – it is a major disaster.  This is why if we submit to Jesus and His principals we “cover” those who we are joined with in many ways.  It is how – Love covers a multitude of sins.

Just to sum this up – We need to know the full truth.

Carnality and rebellion is wrong – The physical body when submitted to the Spirit, having the mind of Christ can do great and wondrous things for the Kingdom of Heaven.  I believe Jesus even said — GREATER WORKS YOU SHALL DO.  A piece of that is what we discussed today.

Jesus is perfecting the Body of Christ at this very moment. There is no carnality or rebellion in His Body, so He is ridding us of all sin in order He be the head guiding and leading us of one accord THROUGH HIM.

Right now we are all moving in the same direction, but all on a different path, leading to the same destination.  There is one door = Jesus and one destination = Heaven and soon He will do that complete work, making us of One Accord in Him.

So… We are called according to HIS PURPOSE – The Word of the Day — WE ARE LEARNING HE IS SOVEREIGN OVER ALL THINGS, ESPECIALLY US and it can be painful and beautiful at the same time.

Like a two year old must learn who is sovereign in His home, we too are learning He is sovereign in our Household of Faith.

May the Lord Bless You in His Love,

💗Angela~Marked By Heaven

TIMELY Teaching from Michael~

💗 This is a timely message from a broadcast Michael did in 2014 and when Karin sent it to me,I too felt lead by the Holy Spirit to edit and share it due to the nature of the season we are currently in.  I pray it blesses and encourages you, as well.

Council of Time

Saturday Broadcast with Michael

October 18, 2014


God bless every one of you!  Something is changing, something is certainly changing.

Folks, it’s good to be here with you.

Often on SATURDAYS, I take a long run for miles and miles, it helps me to reflect.  This time when I was running while it should have bothered me, it strengthened me.

I saw many people attempting to run, mountains, mountains stopped them cold. People dwelling with things, laughing, mountains stopped them cold.

Folks, as I saw this – I was lit up with strength internally, in my heart I was saying, no, that was not going to happen.  It was an insight, although it was much more than that, many disheartening things.  It gave me an insight, more than a few than the Body of Christ.  Satan, Beelzebub is not going to win. He won’t win,

Before we start, I need to say a prayer.  I need to pray for something before we start.

Today’s lesson, talk, it’s a little different, it’s important, it’s very important.  I hope that as we go through today’s talk it helps a lot of you.

First we need to pray.  [Michael goes into prayer]

Father in the name of Jesus, the Holy One of Israel.  Lord, we humble ourselves, Father we are your children.  We stand in authority today.  Lord, he is hidden among us, he is remaining unnamed, that we may have no power over him.  Lord, we ask that You join us this Saturday, that You join us right now, give us the Holy Spirit, that we can bind the tongue of Leviathan.  We bind the tongues of Legion, we cast out the strength of resistance, which is held in the spirit of vengeance, which is held in the spirit of anger.  We cast them out, in the Name of the Holy One of Jesus of Nazareth.  We will not fear these things, we will not be dismayed, You will strengthen us with the right hand of Your righteousness.  All that righteousness will increase, that which were increased against us.  They will be ashamed, even the unnamed, the spirits of darkness as nothing.  Even those that strive with us as vessels of iniquity, they will perish.  We will not find them, they will not contend with us as they that are against us they shall perish, we will not find them and they that are against us for You are God, and as You wrote, God will hold the right hand.  Not I will, but thee.  Father, You are with us, We stand humble, we stand in meekness Father, we’re asking forgiveness for anything, that may fight against the Spirit of Truth that is in us.  We too cast those things away from ourselves.  Many are coming, physically, Father we will stand in accordance with Your word, for all to see, for anyone to embrace as we will carry the Gospel and demonstration.

Father give us the Spirit of Truth, hold the tongue of the liar and the thief, he seeks whom he may devour, let him find no place here, we bind Beelzebub in the Name of Jesus.  As You wrote Lord, instrument having teeth through the mountains as the situations of anguish they have placed themselves in front of the children, Your children. Let Your word be true. Let those mountains be dissolved, let them be as chaff.  Release us from this bondage, from these unnamed spirits, we bind them in Your power and we give You all the glory.  We will stand and not faint, nor will we fear, for You are with us, Father we recognize your presence.  Bind all those things.  Let your truth be prevalent in our lives.  Take us over with the Holy Spirit, Lord.  We will be known by our fruit, and our fruit will be as You directed, as You anointed us to yield.  Father these things we ask in the precious Name of Jesus Amen.

Ok folks, these things, even this prayer, I plead that over as many who will agree with it so that these unnamed spirits be cast away,  in the Name of Jesus of Nazareth, the Holy One of Israel.

Make no mistake, he is there, he will not prevail, he will not halt.

It is important he do not operate in this Saturday’s  talk, it’s important that we operate in Spirit and so in your hearts, do not resist the Holy Spirit in these talks that we do have.

Now, we have reached a time of demonstration.

But with demonstration, comes a resistance of darkness that will not prevail.

You are the righteousness of Christ, God did say He would hold your right hand during these times, your enemies will sit in mass confusion. Grab hold of those words and place your souls in agreement by the Lord, Himself.

Satan, he will sit in confusion. All these spirits will sit in confusion. They will not prevail in your lives. Grab hold of truth and truth only.

We know the world has confused great things in history, and so now the Lord is leading us into a place where understanding is paramount.  That understanding is sealed through the Holy Spirit.

These spirits seek that this truth not be known, that your days be confused. This is why we must serve Him. If we believe in Him, if we believe we are grafted into the branch and so is Israel, with servants of the most high, so are we.

We are partakers, joint heirs with Christ. Every heir must know his or her Father. Every heir must know what the Kingdom is, every heir must know the foundations of that Kingdom.

To cast away those lies that the World so eloquently taught.  They have injected lies in every aspect of people’s lives.  These things we have learned will not be from wisdom, but by the Spirit, and the Spirit is true. And so, it is the Spirit of Truth we do welcome, that the lies of the enemy and whoever he may work through, let their hands be bound.

Those spirits, their tongues must be held.  There are so many people who are facing mountains, mountains and mountains, they will not remain, the Lord will deal with them, He will make you a threshing instrument.

You, He will make a threshing instrument.

So you can make those hills as chaff, those mountains and hills are the enemy.


Folks, today we will go back to the beginning of beginnings – There is a lie coming out that is so incredibly strong, that if a person is not rooted, he will question his very existence.

This lie will penetrate every faith, it will penetrate everything! I ‘m going to attempt, with the help of our Lord, to send the word out before this lie hits, so that you can know.  You see, most lies, most falsehoods that are small, they do the biggest things, and they cause the most damage. It’s always the small things of this World, the hidden things that work, if something is known, you can point it out, if something is unknown, it dwells among you.  Those things must come to a halt.  It must come to a halt.

Part of this deceptive lie that is coming out – The working wonders of those spirits that rise from the bottomless pit. They would do so much that if it were possible, even the very ELECT WOULD BE DECEIVED.

To understand the origins of things, is not to be deceived. While that’s still disturbing to me about the very elect.  I can see the truth of it.   You see, this oppression is all over the place.  Yes, we do hide those oppressive things from our brothers and sisters and we deal with it in isolation, but they are still there, I‘ll tell you this, they won’t stay.

It seemed that this vision invoked what I saw and provoked me to pray for my Brothers and Sisters. It only expanded the love I have for a great many people and I’ll do everything that the Lord put within me, to ensure that lie or reminding them of things that are in the Word of God, so we need to talk about two origins.  Two origins of truth, including mankind, how things were structured in truth and the truth of those structures. While it may be simple, in mankind it’s going to release in the future.

A lot of you know about Genesis, God created the Heavens and the Earth, right? God created the stars and the heavens, the universe.  You know He did that for the sake of the Earth.  The water creatures, the birds and so forth.  But at one point, all animals ate birds, not meat you see, they ate birds and every green thing, it was for meat.  There was peace in the land. The confusing part to a great many was who exactly was the serpent in the Garden, I’ve heard many things of who it could be, what it could be.

People say metaphors, people say, it was in a laboratory, I’ve heard so many things.

But when God said, let there be light and there was light, I need to point something out to you, in Genesis when God said, let there be light – That’s not when He created the sun.  You see, the Earth was cloaked in mass darkness, that darkness, ladies and gentlemen, are hidden things, everything was hidden, everything was in chaos, everything was in ruin, in fact, the root word in context – Then He said, let there be light and of course, we know, light is like a light bulb, it illuminates, but it also means made known.  Did you guys know that?  And it separated.

A lot of people get that confused because He said, the evening and the morning were the first day, after that He began creating everything else. Separating the water from the waters. He created the stars and the heavens, the galaxies and so forth.  That means they were for signs and seasons, fixed times, a season is a fixed time. He created the stars also.  Now listen… This is important.  He said He created the lights in the Heavens, they would be for the signs and seasons, but then it adds… He created the stars also.

Do you know what the stars are? ANYBODY?

Another word for stars, from ancient Hebrew writing, are the shiny ones, the illuminated ones, stars, luminaries, that’s very important for people to understand,  The shiny ones, yes…  A lot of people.

The stars also. Shiny ones, Princes, and then He made two great lights, to rule the day and the night.  The sun and the moon. People mix that up, they don’t want to attack it, folks, it’s so absolutely true, you see, after He created all this, then He said, let’s make man in Our Own Image.

But He created everything else, everything was established. He created everything else. This is why the serpent was found in the Garden.

Who created the serpent? God did.  The account of Genesis was an account given to Moses. Even those in those dark leadership roles, understand perfectly, that that account of Genesis is accurate, it’s accurate even to the serpent, even the stars.

Why do they spend so much money, looking for life, you know why?  Because they know Genesis is real.  They just don’t know what their job is, so He creates man, man by the way in the Heavens and the Earth and how they came about.  Of the Heaven and the Earth. How they came about.  Genesis one gives you an overview of what He made.  The important part to remember here, is that He separated the light from the darkness.  It’s important you know what darkness is, darkness is the absence of light.

It was in existence, the earth was cloaked in mass darkness before, but the light penetrated that darkness and God separated the two.  He separated light from darkness, light meaning happiness and joy.

A visible truth, to be made known, He created the light.

Have you noticed that?  He never once said, He created the darkness, because the darkness has always been everywhere. Darkness means no control. No rules, no order, no form. Chaos, that’s what darkness is, but God created the light. And he separated the light from the darkness.  No, it’s not, this is pure Genesis theory, no not theory, Genesis fact.  I don’t do well with theories. Anybody’s theories.

For the truth is right here for us to read.

For those who believe in theories, they’re going to be deceived and we have to remember that.  And yesterday we looked at a Scripture that said Scriptures are perceived spiritually, not logically.  They have never seen, they have no answer for, they think of wisdom within themselves, which in terms equates with foolishness. Even with electronics and advancements, there are no new engineered things, it’s a resurrection of technology.

The beginning.  In fact, the serpent, we know who that serpent is, those same serpents that exist today, I told you the Leadership calls him,  K Sarrat, he’s a great horned dragon. A dimensional being. There are posters of this guy, in places that are not public. He can appear just like someone just knocking at your door- Fiery, flying serpents, from the Bible mentions serpents.  There’s a truth in that. They equate it with Dagon. These are lies, this is why some people can’t understand concepts of the Bible, because they are approaching it logically.

The words of the Bible, you can’t figure out with your logical mind, it has to be given to you spiritually, because if you’re doing it logically, you need proof. And if you need proof, you, yourselves cannot go out there and be like an archeologist.  Things they have deemed truth or not. I’m not going to base the end of my walk on man’s logic that he has invented himself.


Have you not noticed that the kings and kingdoms of this Earth, have taken over creation in a sense, they have filled the minds with their truth, you know.  True? Why do you think people argue about Scripture, do you know why? Because they can only understand that spirit.  It has to be spiritually discerned, It cannot be logically discerned, and this is why people are going to start falling away and everything else, they thought one thing when the truth is something not perceived with the human mind.

Let’s take a Seraphim for instance.  Those are Angels of God.  Have you ever looked at the description of a Seraphim, if you saw one of those things, you would pass out for fear.  Yet they are from God, they’re not evil.  They’re simply a class of His creation assigned to His work but if you saw one yourself, you would just fall out.  They’ve got glowing eyes.  You wouldn’t equate them with pretty.  But here’s the problem – Did you not know that this world is based on something called vanity?  Beauty is not how you put your makeup on, how chiseled your body looks.  This puts a scale over the eyes of most people because when you say the word beautiful, in the world based upon your eyes, the truth of the Word is discerned spiritually, NOT PHYSICALLY.

These mountains I saw were in front of people, with demons laughing at them, because they’re working from them.  You cannot get rid of a Demonic mountain.

The logic in this world is based from what the demons know and again, the word demon means intelligent. You cannot use Satan’s weapons to fight Satan. You cannot trust your eyes, what you see with these human eyes is a scale within itself.  We judge too much, after the eyes and what we hear. Knowing the spirit, knowing the truth of things.

If we can read the Word discerning it, then we will see it. These things have been all over the earth since before you were born.  It’s time the prophecy that we endure, things are changing, and coming out and see you have to operate in power and in truth and listen to the truth of the LORD.

The Lord’s words are true, the Lord’s words are light and they are a lamp for you! YOU WILL NOT BE IN THE DARKNESS WITH HIS WORDS! You can be plunged into darkness with your own theories, your own logic and everything else, you cannot be plunged into the darkness with the words of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, the Holy One of Israel

But you see, Satan is very cunning.  He gets people away from that and if he gets you away, guess what, you will start looking at those things with the flesh and you’ll begin to judge those things by what you see, by your flesh.

With your human ears, not being sensitive to the Holy Spirit, we know that some things sent by God are absolutely in human terms not beautiful, in fact, they are so not beautiful, that people fall down dead.  Daniel did.  John had a vision and in the vision – How would you like to see 4 living creatures with eyeballs all over it?  That is not beautiful, that looks like an abomination!  And why in the world, of all the things that exist, why in the world, would A SERPENT BE IN THE DARK? Even in that, we’ve taken up the banner of logic to an attempt to understand it. Did you notice that Adam and Eve were not terrified? In fact, they were not terrified of any animal, if a bear came face to face with you, you’d be terrified, wouldn’t you? If a lion came up to you, you’d be terrified, in fact, they were NOT terrified.  Something changed with humanity in the garden, no one pays attention .NO ONE PAYS ATTENTION.  You know why?  Because we’re vain.

Beauty is what you see as beautiful.  What is beautiful and what is not.

Here is what happened to vanity…

We have judged everybody’s looks and everything else. We have looked at television as what is acceptable. And that is how we redeem what is beautiful.  Isn’t that the stupidest thing that anybody could do?  That’s absolutely ludicrous, I call that insanity.  We call one thing beautiful and one thing ugly, based on a poll.  How everybody accepts it. That’s what we do. I need to lose weight, so I can do this.  What about you doing something for yourself, so you can do something for the Lord even more, how about that? We compare ourselves to other people because we were raised in a society of vanity.  And it affects each and every one of us.

The simple truth is this, some people will not go into public because the fear of the public that the public will make fun of how they look.  But that’s how the public is, that’s how we think.

The Lord is saying, remove that, that’s a mountain in your life, that thing right there, is a mountain.

That’s a strong hold, if you can get beyond that, and if you can, because Jesus does not lie.

Dying to the flesh daily is dying to those same things. Dying to vanity, it’s a stronghold in your life, it can change everything that you see. Everything you see will be distorted because of that. It’s a mountain, get rid of it! You need to understand to get rid of it.

You know from the beginning of this thing of COT, I’ve asked people to be 100% themselves, because the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, is a something which is not a phony robot, modeled after things of the world.  To me that’s foolishness, it’s also a mountain, a hindrance, because it hinders your operation. It hinders your service.  You want it straight? If you’re dark, you want to be lighter, if you are too light, you want to be darker. What in the world are we doing?

The problem is most people get caught up on flesh.  I can’t go here . I can’t go there, because of this, you know what happens when it comes to the service of the Lord because when the spirit calls you, it’s never at a convenient time.  If the Lord says, come follow me, you say…  I can’t do that.  You’re just like the guy looking back to their stuff, let me do this first.  That’s what is going to happen, people are going look back to take care of their matters.  Taken over and lost at that time.

I can’t tell you how grievous my heart was to see people in a huge gathering for the sake of Jesus Christ and it was the LAST GATHERING.  I need to take care of this matter, and that matter.  And they were taken over and lost.  I’m seeing now how that’s going to happen.

Because vanity, that small thing, vanity, has crept its way in and people haven’t identified it. Not one of us can say, I don’t have vanity. Not one of us – Not one person in here can say, I do not suffer from having vanity because that would be a lie. That would be a lie. Being presentable is one thing, having vanity is another, because it causes attitudes and everything else…

Comparing yourself to another is impossible, you know why? Because you’re one of a kind. There is nobody like you, you are one of a kind.  But too many people judge after the flesh.

That person’s too short, that one’s too tall, that one’s too round, what are they going to do?  Everyone wants to see an angelic presence.  If one came down to meet them face to face, it’s not going to look like the picture you have in your mind.  Lying spirits will do that, lying spirits will from themselves take any form they desire. That’s why I don’t trust them.

I learned something early, if I had predicted everything that God has presented to me in truth, has NEVER EVER LOOKED LIKE I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO LOOK.

Vanity is a mountain of stronghold. Some people don’t understand how deeply rooted they are in this draconian system.  We have draconian rule- where’s all this stuff coming from? Dragon on people in leadership. On people in leadership.  They wear the dragon.  Leadership, they wear the Dragon. Everybody in leadership wears the image of a dragon. Everybody, they are just sitting there laughing at a great many people.  Because most people have opted to use the weapons of a dragon to fight a dragon.  How can you use the weapons they use?  You can’t do that, how can you use the weapons of your enemy that the enemy designed against the enemy. How can you do that?  It won’t work.

People right now are standing in boldness with the weapons satan has presented them, to use against satan and it’s not going to work. Who taught man war in the first place? Satan and his fallen angels and so we’re going to use weapons of war to do a good thing? Has it ever worked? No, it has not. Not one person can prove that that has ever worked – Yes, I’m quite bold in this because there are too many lies floating around.

I’ve heard people say, without guns, we wouldn’t have won the war to establish America, right, so I said, with so many put in slavery.  This nation is built upon blood the truth be told.  Upon the innocent and it will not stand. God will not be mocked, His words will not.

If the leaders in America were smart, they would recognize something- folks, this Nation was founded on the blood of the innocent, so we need to repent by His word.  But they are not going to do that. That’s why Jesus has to rule and reign for a thousand years, because they are not going to do that. All those that are hoping and wishing, you can hope all day. But facts are facts.  What’s done is done, if a person’s household is not going to repent, it’s going to fall. Why? Because that foundation has blood in it, it’s crying out, that’s why.

If you built anything on the oppression of the innocent, it’s going to fall apart right in front of your face and the righteous will see them perish.  In fact, some of them, they will not even make it.  Because they will be removed, even the demon spirits. The righteous will see their enemy confounded, but then the Lord will remove them because the heart of a righteous person. They hope that everyone can be saved, they aren’t walking around wishing that people be condemned.  And then when it’s all over, you want justice.

You see when you pass from this world you’re no longer hindered by the flesh, you see the absolute truth. The people under the alter they wanted a time of revenge.  Oh, wanting revenge is not bad, and the Lord already said, He was going to do something.  They never once said that, they said, when will you avenge us?  Folks, I’m telling you, the blood all over the Earth is crying out. There are wicked things on this earth.  There’s a true darkness that they cannot see, it’s working in your homes and houses and it’s working in your mind continuously.

What in the world is that all about? Why do we keep the things of the flesh in our hearts, and then perceive the word and even perceive the lies.  Folks, THERE IS NO GOOD THING IN THE FLESH….WHY, would we want to keep it?  To feed the desire of it, that is why.  Some of you want deliverance yet you keep feeding your flesh.  Don’t feed your flesh!  I can tell you right now, as the days get harder and harder many will long for and wish for the past just as the Word interpreted it would be.  Yesterday is finished and does not exist.  Only today exists. Today exists. You determine if the Lord is going to be in that day, with you or not but the flesh is tied to a great many things in the past.  And the things in the future, it has its own sense tied to desires.

Let me explain something, your flesh is just like a reptile, there is no conscious, there is no higher thought, no higher thinking, if you look at a reptile, an alligator when it’s hungry – It just simply goes and takes food. Whatever it instinctively needs, it kills it and takes it, that’s your flesh. It’s always on the prowl, that’s your flesh. It has desires that will never be satisfied. That’s the flesh.

The Lord continually told us, you have flesh, but you are Spirit. Do those things of the Spirit, seek those things of the Spirit, Walk in the Spirit. He told us to subdue, to not succumb but get rid of our flesh.

How many people have decided right now to say, I will right now just get rid of this, of the flesh?   How many people? We have to die to our flesh daily.

FOLKS, IT’S SO VERY IMPORTANT BECAUSE we are on the horizon of something, For something and we have to be truly ready to jump.  That’s like going up in a plane and saying, I ’m ready to jump and you’re going to pull your cord and trash bags are going to fly out,  not a parachute, that takes a thorough, through look into of our Lord, wholeheartedly.

Call this flesh, our motivation which should be far different, it really shouldn’t be.  And all of us are guilty of it, every single last one of us.

Folks I’m going to take a very short break. We’re going to talk about these stars and seasons and signs because they are very important.  One big one is about to hit. It’s time for us to be observant of what’s happening, don’t have your parachute bag full of trash bags, we need to have an actual parachute. That’s the Lord and that’s His blood. But the trash bags, that‘s the logic and the knowledge based in the World right?

A lap top can teach you to be an expert of the systems they built, they know nothing about the Lord, our God and they know nothing about that.  They only know about those things they created and they may only observe His creation. They do like satan, they manipulate what he created.  But they can’t command it but our Father can command it, and that same power works through you,  but if you don’t know the difference, how can you?  To be in His knowledge, you can work the gifts freely to stand in your own wisdom and He resists the proud.  So if He is resisting you, those powers that come from Him are resisting you.  He will resist the proud. I’ll be right back.

Music starts

End of Part One

God Bless you all in Love,

💗Angela ~ Marked By Heaven

Narcissist/Jezebel ~ Codependent/Ahab Bible Study PART 4


In our last portion of our study we talked pretty in depth about the “How’s” of witchcraft through which narcissists accomplish their desired outcome of insuring everyone and everything revolves around them.  We went over the red flags, which serve as warning signs of discernment, depicting just how prevalent this Jezebel Spirit is in the Church today.  This is not to say it is tolerated whatsoever in the One True Church Body of Jesus Christ, but rather comes in falsely in full display demanding, we as believers tolerate its tangled web of deception.

In Revelation 2 we are given a small space in time to repent from tolerating this entity within the Church, just as those who operate out of this dark power source are also granted a time of repentance.  It just goes to prove how long-suffering our Father truly is.  Those who do not repent from tolerating or demonstrating such characteristics will be cast into, “Great tribulation,” the Word says.  Verse 23 in Chapter 2, defines what we are going through at this very moment, in this season we have been granted and truly repentance is such a gift.

As the Lord defeats and destroys the offspring (spiritual fruit) of Jezebel something divine occurs — The Bible says, “All the churches shall know that I am he which searches the reins and hearts.”  It goes on to say that He will give each one of us according to our works.  In other words He once again is specific to reiterate His law of reaping what we have sown.  And of course, once we truly repent, our sins are forgotten and washed away forever, but remember like we have discussed so many times – to sin purposely and knowingly is tempting the Lord our God.  Those who do overcome the narcissist within themselves and the Church, no longer tolerating and passing this detestable fruit onto others they come in contact with, are given a promise which is the Morning Star/Jesus and have power from on high to rule the Nations.

Because the Father is so very merciful, He has set before us a very precious opportunity during this season – an opportunity to “search” the reins and hearts of ourselves.  Which is why I keep reiterating – repentance is a gift.  Before I get to ahead of myself, it is important to me that we all remain of one accord and on the same page.  Just so you know exactly what the Lord is speaking here lets define the word “reins” in reference to what the Lord is actually searching for within us.

REINS in Greek means:  Our emotions, inner most feelings, thoughts, purposes, intentions – basically it is anything and everything which has to do with our SOUL.

I believe the fact, “He searches our hearts” for the most part is understood.  So to keep it simple, the Lord Himself is searching us in totality, through and through and knows us better than we know ourselves.  We have been given an invitation to seek Him through the Holy Spirit, to peer into ourselves in order we be purged of all characteristics which do not reflect the Most Glorious Perfect One – Jesus. 

I must note:  This is NOT A CALL to search the hearts and souls of your brethren or those outside of the Church Body, but rather to SEARCH OURSELVES.  And why?  For the sake of repentance alone.  When we stop tolerating this entity from operating in us, it shall cease to exist.

Okay…. So moving on to the focus of our discussion today on Narcissists.

I really hope you have been with us throughout the course of these studies, because in order to view in depth the narcissist it is important to understand they are fueled by a co-dependent.  Therefore, they see a co-dependent as an easy target.  In Part 2 of the Series we went into great detail about Codependency, so if you missed that portion of the study, I recommend you back and review it so today’s message makes sense to produce good fruit in your life.

  • A Codependent wants to fix everyone and every situation.
  • A Narcissist wants to manipulate and change you in order to gratify their every need and desire.
  • They fuel one another via providing energy to each other similar to a demonic dance.

But for today, keep in mind, everyone has narcissistic tendencies (which is why we are dying to SELF daily) but a true narcissist does not reflect on their own weakness, but rather they prey upon the weaknesses of others in order to feed the brokenness they suffer within as wounds.  Pride masquerades the true broken state they are in themselves.  In order to hide the truth of them, they attempt to reveal the faults of you.  The dysfunction of co-dependents allow and energize the narcissists to be hurtful and vice versa.  BOTH are broken inside.

One last thing before we go into characteristics, types and tactics of a narcissist it is important to note the majority of all research I did throughout this study recommends getting completely out of any relationship you may be in with a narcissist.  For the record, I do not share in that belief, unless of course the Lord is directing you to break all ties or if the relationship is causing you extreme physical or emotional harm.  Like with all matters, please take it to the Lord in prayer and follow His advice.  Time again He has given me strength to overcome, just as He has each one of you the many obstacles we face in this journey of life.

You do not have to tolerate a Narcissist’s behavior to love them, which is why boundaries are of the upmost importance, but we will talk about that a little later along with one of their major tools of manipulation, called:  Gaslighting.

So whether you are suffering from narcissism or under the influence of someone who is, my prayer is that this message today blesses you and releases you from the effects of this sinful way of the flesh.  There is no problem too large for our Lord to solve and no sin too great for Him to wash clean.  He is Lord of Lords and King of Kings, isn’t He?

💗Create within me and those who are reading this study a pure heart Lord.  Open our Spiritual eyes Lord to the truth of us individually and show us what You desire be made known to us in every situation we are in, so You rule and reign in our hearts, lives, relationships and homes.  In Jesus Mighty Name. Amen.

I truly will be so relieved when I can shut the door on this study as it goes against my flesh and is not a topic I enjoy in the least bit, although it has been very enlightening, it is not something I enjoy discussing.  As with all teachings we must search our own hearts first and foremost and then glean the full truth of it and how it can be applied in our lives today.  As we go over Narcissism it will be easy to spot in others, so use your discernment while we purge it from ourselves, as well.

💗We are granted the Morning Star, Who is Jesus, in order we have wisdom and knowledge, which in turn grants us power and dominion.  Jesus abiding inside us, brings daylight into our soul as a light of grace and glory.  Through perfection we attain wisdom, which is a portion of dignity and dominion granted only to a true Child of God.

So without further delay, let’s take a look into Narcissism.

Narcissism is modern day society’s way of defining Jezebel, they are uniform and they are one.  Like I said in previous teachings, but I will say it again – JEZEBEL IS NOT STRICTLY FEMALES, this entity is only referred to in a female sense because it multiplies, birthing it’s negative influence to all who tolerate it in order to be present and influential to weave a tangled web of deceit.

There is no possible way for me to fully share in our given time frame all the characteristics, so I am just going to share as lead by the Holy Spirit and my prayer is it blesses your life in some small way.


  • VULNERABLE NARCISSISTS – These people are generally very sensitive and tend to be quiet or shy by nature, to disguise their chronic feelings of self-hatred and unworthiness. They overcompensate by putting on a grandiose mask, seeking to merge their identities with other idealized people. They have an unshakable need to feel special about themselves and have little genuine regard for the feelings of others. They are primarily motivated by fear of rejection and abandonment and don’t have the capacity to authentically love and care for others. They use emotional manipulation (such as shaming, guilt-tripping and gaslighting) to secure sympathy and attention from others. Their lives are fueled by inferiority complexes, which often stem from childhood mistreatment.
  • INVULNERABLE NARCISSISTS – These people reflect the traditional image of the narcissist and are highly self-confident, cold and lack compassion. Unlike Vulnerable Narcissists, they are thick-skinned and shamelessly seek for power, glory, recognition and pleasure. They often suffer from god complexes, believing themselves to be far superior to everyone else – and they have to make that known and always be right.

Both of these types share similar traits such as; using others to fuel their delusions, blaming others when something goes wrong and criticizing anyone who sees a fault within them.  They lack empathy, faithfulness and crave power and control.  Manipulation is their tool of choice.

Just to note:  Manipulation of any kind is wrong and goes against the Lord’s design.  The reason being, He granted each soul with freewill, if the Lord on High did not infringe upon the wills of another, neither should we.

The Bible tells us to train a child up in the way he should go…  We are not to “Manipulate” them or others to go in any particular direction.  Just as the Father has us in training to rule and reign with Jesus, He is not manipulating us to do so.  A good measurement tool to use is this:

Training is for the benefit of the other person and Manipulation is for the benefit of self.

  • THE AMOROUS NARCISSISTS – Amorous Narcissists measure their self-worth and grandiosity by how many sexual conquests they have under their belt. This type of person is known for using his/her charm to ensnare others with flattery and gifts, but then quickly disposing of them once they become “boring” and when they have met the narcissists needs (often sexual or image/status orientated). Amorous Narcissists are the ultimate relationship con artists, “gold diggers” and “heart-breakers.” At first glance, they appear highly attractive, alluring and amiable, but underneath they are only out to please and satiate their own needs and desires. There is a tactic they use at the beginning of trying to win you over called, “Love bombing.”  This is when they just sweep you off your feet, so to speak with gifts, words of edification, attention, etc…  Then in a moment change, withhold love and withdraw.  When confronted they may say it is just your imagination, etc…  Chances are if you get into a relationship that seems too good to be true – it likely is.  Which is why it is imperative to seek the Lord first in all things, especially to guard your heart.💗
  • THE COMPENSATORY NARCISSISTS – These type of narcissists are driven to compensate for past traumas. They feed love in others by creating larger-than-life illusions of themselves and their achievements, in order to regain power and control over their lives. This type of narcissist usually hunts out emotionally vulnerable people who will serve as the audience to their fabricated stage acts. In reality, this type of narcissist is extremely sensitive to criticism and will rarely apologize for hurting you and even in that, they care more about how you being hurt is affecting their comfort over your own emotional pain they have brought upon you. Emotional abuse and manipulation is a common method of control used by this type.
  • THE ELITIST NARCISSISTS – This breed of person does anything to climb to the “top,” win and completely dominate others. Elitist narcissists are convinced that they are better than everyone else, often due to their achievements or backgrounds (or simply the fact that they were born that way) and have convinced themselves they deserve special treatment, so they stay in a perpetual season of attempting to manipulate and convince others of the same. Their sense of entitlement bleeds into every area of life, from work to the family. They harbor a severely inflated self-image and are skilled self-promoters, braggers and one-uppers. They have a cut-throat need to be the “best” and prove themselves to be intellectually superior all the time and at all costs. They will not listen to any direction or correction from anyone they deem inferior to themselves.
  • THE MALIGNANT NARCISSISTS – The behavior of malignant narcissists often overlaps with that of psychopaths and those with antisocial personality disorders. Malignant narcissists often have no regard or interest in moral vs. immoral behavior, and don’t feel remorse for their actions. This group is characterized by an arrogant and inflated sense of self-worth that delights in “outsmarting” others, purposed to get away with things to the point of being convinced they are above the law and will not get caught. This type of narcissist can often be found in prisons, gangs and drug rehabilitation centers, although many manage to run free in the World today.

We, as humans, have a tendency to focus on who/what we love the most.  Sadly, for narcissists it is self.  Even when generous or remorseful a narcissist will focus on how the situation is of benefit to them.  Remember the profit of their reward is not Jesus, it is recognition to be right.

It is less important to know the types and more crucial we recognize the traits of Narcissism in order we be purged and also discern them in others.  So just like I did with Co-dependency I am going to run through a checklist so to speak, which is not inclusive, to the nature of this spirit at work.  It is important to note we need to overlook labels at times, knowing a Narcissist may weave in and out of each type of narcissism depending on the goal they are trying to accomplish.


Inflated self-perception
Creates drama
Likes to be in the spotlight
Exaggerates their achievements
Requires constant admiration & approval from others
Takes advantage of others
Compulsive liar
Cannot deal with criticism
Gets hurt easily
Extremely jealous
Appears strong on the surface
Desire for power
Difficulty understanding other people’s emotions
Lack empathy
Need for control
Needy behavior
Center of attention
Inauthentic – lacks integrity
Highly Dominant
Attention seeking

All Narcissists change moment by moment depending on the current “Audience,” they are seeking to manipulate or control, so you never quite know who the real person you are dealing with is.  You may think to yourself when you are in an intimate relationship with a narcissist… Wow, so and so is so nice and loving to everyone but me, because once they have attained your admiration and devotion the goal is accomplished and they no longer seek to win you over.  One fuels the other, getting into a vicious cycle of withdrawing and embracing each other in this fashion.

There is a tactic most true narcissists use as a covert operation and it is called GASLIGHTING.  This is a term some of you may possibly be familiar with, and for others this is the first time you are hearing about this form of manipulation and control.

Gaslighting is actually a term given based on an old movie from 1944, in which a husband used various tactics to make his wife start to believe she was crazy.  He did this by messing with her mind, to the point she started to question her own reality.  In a nutshell, Gaslighting is when one person sows seeds of doubt in order to change another’s perception of reality so much that we begin to question our own memory, sanity or reality.  Like with all things, the degrees to which such manipulation can occur varies greatly from just minor changing of events to the extreme.  For example, have you ever gotten into a disagreement with someone and then later they attempt to alter the details of what happened (usually to make themselves look better and you worse) to such an extreme you begin to question yourself?  This would be considered a form of Gaslighting.  It also is a confirmation the enemy is at work, because anytime there is deceit and confusion – he has been given placement to operate.

Keeping in mind our topic today is Narcissists and Narcissists and gaslighting go hand in hand.  I want to briefly cover some signs to ponder, revealing you may be under the influence of this manipulation or even that it is being delivered by your own hand.  To a small degree we have all at one time or another operated in our sin nature, deceiving ourselves by denial, that if I say something didn’t happen, then it didn’t.  Gaslighting occurs when we force our false sense of reality onto another.


  1. Something is “off” about your friend, partner, son, daughter, mother, father, sister, brother, colleagues, boss, or other person in your life … but you can’t quite explain or pinpoint what.
  2. You frequently second-guess your ability to remember the details of past events, leaving you psychologically powerless.
  3. You feel confused and disorientated.
  4. You feel threatened and on-edge around this person, but you don’t know why.
  5. You feel the need to apologize all the time for what you do or who you are.
  6. You never quite feel “good enough” and try to live up to the expectations and demands of others, even if they are unreasonable or harm you in some way.
  7. You feel like there’s something fundamentally wrong with you.
  8. You feel like you’re constantly overreacting or are “too sensitive.”
  9. You feel isolated, hopeless, misunderstood and depressed.
  10. You find it hard to trust your own judgment, and given a choice, you choose to believe the judgment of the manipulator.
  11. You feel scared and as though “something is terribly wrong,” but you don’t know what or why.
  12. You find it hard to make decisions because you distrust yourself.
  13. You feel as though you’re a much weaker version of yourself, and you were much more strong and confident in the past or when this person is not around.
  14. You feel guilty for not feeling happy like you used to.
  15. You’ve become afraid of “speaking up” or expressing yourself, so you stay silent instead.

Now I am sure at one time or another we have all dealt with these feelings periodically, because truthfully, relationships are difficult to maintain, cultivate and grow in order love remains.  The difference between an occasional bump in the relationship road and dealing with a narcissist is that gaslighting which is a way of life for them…  A means to an end and pattern developed into the fabric of all their relationships, past and present.  The saddest aspect of dealing with a narcissist is their inability to reflect internally, so everything is someone else’s fault.  They have a, “You broke it, so you fix it,” approach which kills any form of hope in growing together in love, where we learn together forgiveness and admitting when we are wrong or hurt someone.  Thankfully, we serve a mighty Father and He can do anything so we must never give up on someone.

Jesus told us in Mathew 5, “TO PRAY FOR THOSE WHO DISPITEFULLY USE YOU.”  There has never been a more appropriate time in my life to do just that, than in loving a narcissist.💗

Co-dependents and Narcissists by very nature fuel one another, fanning the dysfunctional flame. Like I said before, if you are not sure – look to the patterns and trends of the relationship in question.  Narcissists are very skilled at what they do.  While you consider their feelings, they do not consider yours and if they do it comes only from a perspective of how you are affecting them.  Until delivered, they truly do not have the capability to consider your well being and only see vulnerability as a weakness.  Quickly, I want to go over a few tactics of “How” they manifest themselves, so I will share some examples of the tools they often use to leave you in a confused state.


  • Discrediting you by making other people think that you’re crazy, irrational or unstable and fueled by emotions.
  • Using a mask of confidence, assertiveness, and/or fake compassion to make you believe that you “have it all wrong” so you begin to doubt yourself and believe their version of past events.
  • Changing the subject. The Gaslighter may divert the topic by asking another question, or making a statement usually directed at your thoughts, e.g. “You’re imagining things—that never happened!”  “No, you’re wrong, you didn’t remember right.”  “Is that another crazy idea you got from your (family member/friend)?”
  • Minimizing.  By diminishing how you feel and what you think, the Gaslighter gains more and more power over you, e.g. “Why are you being so sensitive?” “You don’t need to get angry over a little thing like that!” “I was just joking around, why are you taking things so seriously?”
  • Denial and avoidance by refusing to acknowledge your feelings and thoughts, the Gaslighter causes you to doubt yourself more and more.  For example, “I don’t remember that, you must have dreamed it!” “You’re lying, I never said that.” “I don’t know what you’re talking about, you’re talking in circles.”
  • Twisting and re-framing. When the Gaslighter confidently and subtly twists and re-frames what was said or done in their favor, they can cause you to second-guess yourself—especially when paired with fake compassion, making you feel as though you are “unstable,” “irrational,” or “emotional.”  For example, “I didn’t say that, I said _____” “I didn’t hit you, I just gave you a smack on the head—that’s what all good fathers do.”  “If you remember correctly, I was actually trying to help you.” Or “You don’t have any bruises, so it is not abuse.”
  • Isolating you in which they speak against and attempt to force you to cut ties with those who offer strength, comfort or clarity.

As we pray and seek our Lord Jesus, sometimes He delivers us from toxic relationships and other times He delivers us through them.💗

There is no set law and it is individual and personal depending on what He is calling you to do, obedience is key here as you seek His face and wait patiently for Him to prompt you to act.  Whatever He calls you to do, He qualifies you to overcome and prevail.

I want to share a word from Him I received recently which really settled me, as I too face similar situations in my life occasionally.  One day in prayer He told me in my Spirit – “You do not have to agree with someone to love them.”  Prior to that precious word, I had been studying in Amos 3, where it says, unless two be agreed they cannot walk together.  The Lord was showing me it is possible to love someone and not come into agreement with their behaviors, this just goes a step beyond human love.  You can love someone from a distance or close, but above all love Jesus and keep and do His word, just as He commanded.

The number one preeminence of this teaching is that we remain in constant truth.  Not just some of the time, but all of the time.  If we allow ourselves to be sidelined by another’s perception of truth, we start to drift and waiver, questioning ourselves and ultimately questioning God.  My prayer is for all us to fully grow into the divine design of the Lord’s handiwork in our lives.  As He breaks and mends our hearts to place Him and Him alone on the throne of our hearts, void of all idols and no longer seeking the approval of man, we are in a more conditioned state of mind to be used by Him.  After all, we cannot serve two masters for in doing so we will eventually hate one and love the other.  He commands us to love all; Him first, everyone else second.💗

I know this was a lot to ingest this time.  I trust the Lord will reveal to each one of us individually the path He has chosen us to walk, knowing with Him we can and do overcome all things.

Unless I get further direction from the Father, or people request we go deeper into this topic, I will put this to rest only to revisit it as we examine our walks with the Lord.  Like I said a few teachings ago when we began this journey, we could talk for hours and not reach the end of the truth in this matter.  To be honest, I am thankful this assignment is coming to a close, as it is one very close to my heart.

May the Lord Bless You in His Love,


Narcissist/Jezebel & Co-dependent/Ahab Study – Part 2


We are continuing on our journey in Part 2 of the Narcissist –Codependent Bible Study, picking up where we left off, in which we studied 1 & 2 Kings, learning more about Jezebel & Ahab’s entrance, purpose and fate.  Most importantly, we gained clarity why this is important for us today…  Speaking of the Church of Thyatira, who is given but a space and time to repent for being seduced, tolerating and fornicating with Jezebel.  The Word says if they refuse to repent they will receive an additional burden, being cast into the Great Tribulation.  In addition, it is written, these are those who know the depths of satan.  On the flipside, for those of us who overcome and keep doing the works of Jesus until the end, we shall receive power over the nations as Jesus, the Morning Star is granted unto us.  [This is the fullness of Jesus operating in and through us here on the Earth].  In Part 1, we went over the context of these verses found in Revelation 2:18-29, if you missed that portion of the Study I encourage you to go back and review it for the purpose of setting a Biblical foundation.

Shall we get started? 

Today we will are going to touch a little more on the evidence of influence of Jezebel and Ahab intermingled with real life relationships.  Remember I said this Study will take a more life application turn and my goal is to make that turn today.  The truth is we all suffer at the hands of this destructive force in one way or another.  For some of us we have demands placed upon us which are tormenting and unattainable no matter how much we love and lay our lives down for another.  Narcissists continually raise the bar for they are broken vessels too.  As we break free from depending on another to complete us we will bind ever so close to Jesus, the One and Only created King, Who truly can complete us in fullness.  This alone is the sole purpose of this Study, although as we journey there will be much fruit produced in the breaking… It is all about Jesus and being one with Him as He and not another is placed upon the thrones of our hearts.

In our sin nature, the old creature has elements of characteristics of narcissism or rather love of self – vanity and setting oneself up as god…  It was foretold of this long ago by a term called VANITY.  Ecclesiastes, which we have studied recently, tells us ALL IS VANITY.  Vanity battles with Jesus getting the Glory He and only He deserves.  The enemy has tricked us, who are codependent, into believing a fable and here it is… “So and so, just cannot make it without us.”

We have much to repent for and I encourage you as the Holy Spirit reveals your hand in this dysfunction of impure love, just take it to the Lord with a humble heart, which is imperative to the breaking free process.

Are you feeling DESPERATE FOR LOVE FROM ANOTHER?  That is a number one red flag codependency is operating in your life.  This could be a parent, child, significant other, sibling or friend…  Thirsting after anyone, other than Jesus as a life source is a big no no.  Don’t lose hope but rather rejoice because truly it is exciting right now!  The Lord always reveals a truth about us before He releases us from it in order He get the Glory for deliverance and our testimony can encourage another…  We pay it forward this way!  We lay our lives down as a display for just what Jesus can do, even with a hot mess like me and you!  He turns our ashes into beauty and we go from hot mess to beautiful mess, continually in need of a Savior.  As we are honest about ourselves regarding our own shortcomings we will walk as we fully receive, we shall fully give… That is to give HIM and not our self – mixed in with Him when we pour out to others.  It shall be His way, void of self – charity which is pure unconditional love.

In this World there are GIVERS and TAKERS and in JESUS we become a balance of both, healthy and usable for His purpose abiding continually in Him.    I want to remind you there are those who GIVE IN ORDER TO GET.  From the outside they appear to have pure love however, their deeds point back to self and not to Jesus.  They have a giving nature but there are always strings attached such as…  Attention, appreciation with pats on the back, trying to win you over or expecting you to behave in a certain way in exchange for their deeds.  These are those who do not do their deeds in secret in order for the Father to reward them openly.  They want to be seen by others or are manipulating you to give a piece of yourself to act, think or come into agreement with them.  When faced with this situation… Just stay true to yourself and keep your eyes on Jesus because we are not to please man but only our Father in Heaven.

I will say during my research I found most professionals sadly offer no promise of hope for the people with Narcissism and they speak of such trying times for a codependent in recovery, however, I know our Lord and He can do anything so this is not our truth but rather the World’s truth, one we will not accept.  We must keep in mind Narcissism is our sin nature and you will see Codependency is sinful as well.  Anything that separates us from our Lord in any fashion is sinful.  Both tendencies are not our identity in Jesus.  Keeping that in mind, just because we may display a tendency to be one or the other or even a mix of both, it is a whole other ball game to be fully turned over to one or the other.  Granted we are not perfect, but we are being perfected!

Intimate relationships with stubborn, willful people can bring unhappiness to all concerned. Their self-will which has never been surrendered to God will seldom give in to those around them as they are void of compromise, often only considering themselves, lacking compassion for another unless of course they are affected in some way, in which at that point they will turn on the charm – still only giving to get. With unyielding obstinacy they keep demanding their own way and looking for every possible means and method of doing or having what they want. They will not listen to reason; they will not consider the feelings of others; they will not face the potential consequences of their intended actions. They believe that they are right and others are wrong, and they are determined to have everything their way. They obviously know very little of God’s love which “does not seek its own” (1 Cor. 13:5), but have only self-love which insists on its own rights and demands its own way. Those who live with or are connected to people like this eventually find themselves emotionally drained at the end of a tireless road from trying to please the “Unpleasable.” Does this sound familiar?  There is only one answer to the question in dealing with these people and that is through the grace of our Lord.  Remember, everything is purposeful and profitable for the perfecting of the Saints so we must war against wallowing in the mud of claiming victimization.  It is likely if we are in this situation we opened a door to the dysfunction due to some residue of past hurts with a desire to be wanted or needed and that is okay because what God brings you to, He will bring you through.  We often are seeking a quick work while He seeks us to demonstrate to us His will inside a process, in order we attain tools to assist another.

Moving on…

Of course, Ahab was just as self-willed as Jezebel, but with a different temperament. For one thing, he had willfully entered a marriage that was politically convenient, but contrary to every word from God. Sound familiar?  Weak, indecisive people who waiver like Ahab often want their own way just as much as headstrong, domineering people like Jezebel, but they react differently when they do not get it.  Remember the Lord said a double minded man is unstable in all his ways?  I guess you could say they both are very childish in nature. We have discussed this before and how there is a difference in being “Childlike” versus “Childish.”  Scripture tells us to be childlike and put away childish ways.

During conflict, the forceful ones rant and rave, strike out at those who stand in their way, throw fits and destroy things, the weak ones sulk and pout and fret like spoiled children. They may refuse to get out of bed and even refuse to eat. They just want to feel sorry for themselves and let everybody know how bad things are for them, they also display many physical ailments. All we really succeed in doing is letting people know how self-centered and immature we are when we react of our own will, rather than the respond via the Holy Spirit.

Self-will of either variety, the violent kind or the touchy irritable kind, can ruin a relationships.  Both are wrong because they say – “I am right and you are wrong.” The trouble often starts when someone infringes upon our rights and we feel dishonored.  It usually starts with a breakdown in communication and sadly continues on until there is a breakdown in the demonstration of love. Instead of letting the love and graciousness of Jesus Christ control us, our sinful natures take over and we go into our rage routine or sulk syndrome, whichever it is with us and it slowly but surely eats away at our relationship. And that inflexible self-will which has never been broken and yielded to God, may ultimately lead to much greater problems if not put into submission. It is at that point we will search to fulfill that need either by Jesus, Who is truly the only One Who can complete us, or get the need met elsewhere, which opens doors that are often more difficult to close later.

Awhile ago I spoke about the three phases of Adultery for this reason.  They were, Emotional, Physical and Spiritual.  Now we can see how it is all interlocked and woven together to bring us down.  If we step one foot out of the Father’s will, we invite the enemy in and he often will sift us as wheat by our own submission to him.

God wants to break our sinful, stubborn wills. He wants to conquer them with His love. The first step to victory is simply to admit that continually demanding our own way is disobedience to God’s Word, and therefore sin. Talk to the Lord about your struggles, openly and honestly. Tell Him frankly that you would rather have your own way than be unselfish and considerate of others, but acknowledge that it is contrary to His Word. Ask him to help you. Then by an act of your will, determine to do the loving thing. That step of faith will open the channel of God’s power to demonstrate in your life. He will not only enable you to carry through with your decision to act in love, but He will give you genuine delight in doing His will.  What He has poured into us, we will pour out to others as a display of Him and not self.

Let’s revisit Ahab and his vegetable garden for a moment. Jezebel found Ahab sulking in his bed and said to him, “How is it that your spirit is so sullen that you are not eating food?” (1 Kgs. 21:5). So he explained to her how Naboth refused to let him have his vegetable garden. She replied, “Do you now reign over Israel?” (1 Kgs. 21:7). In modern terms, that might sound more like, “What are you, a man or a mouse? Speak up! Don’t you know that you are the King. You can take anything you want.” With her demonic influence, Jezebel could not seem to understand that even the King in Israel was subject to the laws of God.

We discover how thoroughly this weak and wicked man was dominated by his overbearing wife when she said, “Arise, eat bread, and let your heart be joyful; I will give you the vineyard of Naboth the Jezreelite” (1 Kgs. 21:7). She planned to commit a hideous crime; she was going to pay two false witnesses to testify that they heard Naboth blaspheme God and the King, so that both he and his sons would be stoned to death and the King would be free to lay claim to his land (2 Kgs. 9:26). She was going to teach Ahab her philosophy of life: “Take what you want and destroy anyone who stands in your way.” And Ahab did not have the courage to stand up to her.

A man will do strange things when he is taunted and ridiculed by his wife and a wife needs to know she is safe from all harm, emotional and physical, if she is to give her heart over completely to a man.  In both cases trust is of the upmost of importance.  Men crave respect and women crave attentive compassion. Some men need to be encouraged and reminded to be sure, but not to do evil! A godly woman will challenge her partner to listen to God and live for Him, not encourage him to sin and definitely not to submit to her will, but the Lord’s alone.  Men often fail because they are not loving their partners in a way they desire to be loved in gentleness, but rather how they are convinced the woman needs love.  Lol…  Sa la vie…  Isn’t this the Genesis of it all anyway? 💗

I do not want to fixate on just male/female here in this series because it expands much farther than one simple relationship which is in trouble.  As we glean understanding on what it means to be co-dependent and the why’s of it and where it came from, we will see it is vast and wide and not your fault traditionally.

What is Codependency?  On a broad sense it is when we become dependent on anything or anyone else, including self to have fulfillment in this Earth.  Codependency is laced with idolatry and vice versa.  That may go against your flesh and seem harsh but hear me out on this.  When we are operating out of a place of this stronghold, we often will crave to be needed and search out the Earth to find just that one who can validate us that we are worthy to be something of importance to just someone, which is an insatiable flesh desire.  Sadly, it is commonly all done under the guise of love and the Gospel, but it is unhealthy…  I call it the doormat syndrome. 

Jesus was not a doormat by any stretch of the imagination, so it is faulty thinking on our parts when we lay our lives down for another to gratify a need within us.  Jesus laid His life down for us to conquer death, not to meet some need He had lack of to be filled.  Remember when Jesus told Pilot – “You have no authority over Me other than that which is granted to you by My Father in Heaven”?  Jesus had authority to lay His life down and pick it back up again.  We on the other hand, may lay our lives down only to be trampled on over and over, defeated rather than defeating and conquering death in the footsteps of our Savior.  Jesus said HIS BURDEN IS EASY AND HIS YOKE IS LIGHT… Unfortunately, our burdens are heavy in which we cannot be the light.  But all of that is about to change – Praise the Lord!

My prayer is that we begin to see ourselves in the true identity we have in Jesus.  We are more than all the evil words spoken over us time and again.  The Lord is calling us to be sober minded, no longer a slave to the sins of the flesh and a huge part of this breaking free is letting go of all that has been spoken over us, which does not align with the Word of God Himself.  Co-dependency is synonymous with a sense of “Unworthiness.” We are told to pray to be worthy to stand before the Lord one day and as long as we believe we are unworthy, we cannot fully receive all He did on the cross for us.  I thank Him so intently for changing our mindset in truth.

Before we do a rundown of a list of characteristics of a co-dependent nature it is important you understand this is not your fault.  The majority of us with these tendencies were groomed from a very young age to be this way to the point it has become our norm.  The Lord is setting before us an open door no man can shut to freedom and in walking through it, the real you will be revealed to you, just as you were created in His image you will see Him in yourself, letting go of all graven images not profitable for the Kingdom.  Like I said, this is not your fault.  As we let Him do His perfect work in removing the idols from our hearts, it is both painful and beautiful at the same time.  His desire is to indwell us whole-heartedly, replacing that which we view as losses become our gain in Him.  He removes our heart of stone, replacing it with a heart of flesh, His heart begins pulsating through us in which we truly are sanctified and set apart.

I want to remind us that Codependency fuels Narcissism and vice versa.  They are a very unholy alliance so to speak.

Let’s talk a little more about Codependency...

Sometimes the Lord has to shake us awake, which is exactly what He did to me, prompting me to even begin exploring and now sharing my testimony of breaking free.  I am in a process and you too are being invited into a process, should you accept His offering.  A precious Sister in the Lord told me one day, “To stop internalizing man’s faulty impression of me.”  So now in turn I am saying the same to you.  The truth is only the Lord Himself knows the intentions of our hearts.  This is reserved for Him and Him alone.  It is true we may “Perceive,” another’s heart, but to truly know the intentions is not given over to man just yet, lest we judge before the time.  It would appear some hearts are hell bent on sin and others are purposed to not sin, knowing we all fall short and do sin – it is the intention the Father considers as He tries the reins of our hearts.

Whatever happened to me?  Have you all asked yourself that question?  I often think I am surely not as this person or that person describes me as… So, they have a faulty impression of me, they are viewing me through a veil of flesh – their own and therefore, they label me something I am not, same goes for you.  What is of the upmost importance here is that we begin to view ourselves not through the eyes of others, but rather through the eyes of Jesus.  Seeking Him and only Him for validation.  It is in this acceptance we turn a major corner to life everlasting.

We often wake up to find ourselves locked into a relationship which started out free loving and in turn was a facade all along.  We entered into this relationship for the sake of love, only to find we were the ones weighed in the balance found wanting.  At some point, we realize the situation needs to change and yet the other person sees we are the only one who needs to change and they are fine.  In this case there is a strong feeling of love pulling us to the person and because rejection is so familiar to us, we cling to that which is unhealthy out of fear.  When we have from a young age been trained to CARE FOR other’s needs rather than BE NURTURED AND CARED FOR, a part from that space in our hearts are void of love itself.  We basically become loved starved and a bad love becomes better than no love at all.  I have good news – Jesus came to set the captives (us) free!  He is calling us to overcome the love demands locking us in, so we can walk fully in Him in freedom.

I have compiled a list in which you may see yourself or a loved one in, through all or just a few of these points.  This is not a totality, but rather a guide to check our hearts against, seek the Lord and pray over for revelation of truth within us.  He is calling us to not only be gentle as a dove, but blossom into wisdom too.  I for one have been way to trusting and foolish in my childish ways, it is time to put those childish tendencies to rest.

Are you Codependent?

  • Caretaking: Codependents may:
    • think and feel responsible for other people for other people’s feelings, actions, choices, wants, needs, well-being, lack of well-being, and ultimate destiny.
    • feel anxiety, pity, and guilt when other people have a problem.
    • feel compelled almost forced to help that person solve the problem, such as offering unwanted advice, giving a rapid-fire series of suggestions, or fixing feelings.
    • feel angry when their help isn’t effective while continually anticipating other people’s needs.
    • wonder why others don’t do the same for them – the gap of reciprocating
    • find themselves saying yes when they mean no, doing things they don’t really want to be doing, doing more than their fair share of the work, and doing things other people are capable of doing for themselves.
    • tell themselves what they want and need is not important.
    • try to please others
    • find it easier to feel and express anger about injustices done to others, rather than injustices done to themselves.
    • feel satisfied when giving – need to be needed
    • feel insecure and guilty when somebody gives to them – based in competition.
    • find themselves drawn to needy people and needy people are drawn to them (Spiritual)
    • feel bored, empty, and worthless if they don’t have a crisis in their lives, a problem to solve, or someone to help.
    • abandon their routine to respond to or do something for somebody else – reacting not responding via the Holy Spirit
    • overcommit themselves often feeling chaotic in a hurry and pressured.
    • believe deep inside other people are somehow responsible for them.
    • blame others for the situation they are in or they way they feel
    • believe other people are making them crazy, angry, unappreciated and used
  • Low Self-Worth: Codependents tend to:
    • come from troubled, repressed, or dysfunctional families.
    • deny their family was troubled, repressed, or dysfunctional.
    • blame themselves for everything and have negative thoughts such as what they feel, think, look like or act like is wrong
    • get angry, defensive, self-righteous, and indignant when others blame and criticize them
    • get depressed from a lack of compliments (stroke deprivation) or reject compliments all together
    • feel different than the rest of the world, isolated – surrounding self by those who are safe and agreeable, avoiding confrontation at all costs
    • feel guilty about spending money on themselves or doing unnecessary or fun things for themselves.
    • feel rejection or that they are never good enough, take things personally, victim mentality
    • have been victims of sexual, physical, or emotional abuse, neglect, abandonment, or alcoholism – often grew up as a child caring for a parent or siblings
    • tell themselves they can’t do anything right, overly cautious to not allow self to make a mistake
    • wonder why they have a tough time making decisions – constantly look to others for advice
    • expect themselves and others to do everything perfectly.
    • wonder why they can’t get anything done to their satisfaction, often think I should have done this or that, carry much guilt and are ashamed of who they are feeling if anyone knew the real them they would be rejected
    • try to help other people live their lives instead of facing the fear of themselves
    • artificial feelings of self-worth from helping others – taking on the burdens of others as their own
    • wish good things would happen to them and yet believe only good things happen to other people not them
    • wish other people would like and love them while believing other people could never possibly love or like them so they try to prove they are worthy of another’s love – because of this they settle for being needed in place of being loved.
    • believe other people couldn’t possibly like and love them.
  • Repression: Many Codependents:
    • push their thoughts and feelings out of their awareness because of fear and guilt.
    • become afraid to let themselves be who they are.
    • appear rigid and controlled.
  • Obsession: Codependents tend to:
    • feel terribly anxious about problems and people being highly focused on Worldly events often seeking to be the first to know what is going on to validate self-importance
    • worry about the silliest things – obsessive to the point of controlling every detail
    • think and talk a lot about other people to the point of losing sleep
    • never find answers but always seeking knowledge
    • try to catch people in acts of misbehavior or continually checking on someone
    • feel unable to quit talking, thinking, and worrying about other people or problems to where all their energy is focused on problems
    • abandon their routine because they are so upset about somebody or something and often cannot get everything done on their list
  • Controlling: Many Codependents:
    • have lived through events and with people that were out of control, causing the codependents sorrow and disappointment and often anger inside
    • become afraid to let other people be who they are and allow events to happen naturally.
    • Refuse to see or deal with their fear of loss of control.
    • think they know best how things should turn out and how people should behave.
    • try to control events and people through helplessness, guilt, coercion, threats, advice-giving, manipulation, or domination and eventually fail in their efforts or provoke people’s anger, rubbing others the wrong way because you know best
  • Denial: Codependents tend to:
    • ignore problems or pretend they aren’t happening or minimize problems to cope
    • tell themselves things will be better tomorrow in order to not face the issue at hand, always kicking issues down the road to deal with
    • stay busy so they don’t have to think about things.
    • get confused in the chaos they create are depressed and frequently sick
    • go to doctors and get tranquilizers or use alcohol or drugs to medicate away life to relax
    • became workaholics to perform
    • spend money compulsively.
    • overeat.
    • pretend those things aren’t happening, either.
    • Compulsive to watch problems get worse.
    • believe lies.
    • lie to themselves.
    • wonder why they feel like they’re going crazy.
  • Dependency: Many Codependents:
    • don’t feel happy, content, or peaceful with themselves.
    • look for happiness outside themselves to fulfill the void within
    • latch onto whoever or whatever they think can provide happiness, seeking pleasure from others
    • feel terribly threatened by the loss of anything or person they think provides their happiness.
    • didn’t feel love and approval from their parents.
    • believe other people can’t or don’t love them.
    • desperately seek love and approval, often from those who are incapable of loving them
    • believe other people are never there for them, equating love with pain
    • feel they need people more than they want them.
    • try to prove they’re good enough to be loved.
    • don’t take time to see if other people are good for them.
    • worry whether other people love or like them.
    • don’t take time to figure out if they love or like other people so get entangled in negative relationships
    • center their lives around other people and worry they will be abandoned by them
    • look to relationships to provide all their good feelings.
    • lose interest in their own lives when they love someone ignoring others
    • don’t believe they can take care of themselves while caring for other people continually
    • stay in relationships that don’t work or are bad for them, tolerating abuse or unfaithfulness because they are unworthy to receive healthy forms of love
    • feel trapped in relationships unable to break free and once they leave they seek another relationship right away that is often the same bad pattern
    • wonder if they will ever find love or be loved
    • Idolize others and have certain people they will never say NO to, lack of boundries
  • Poor Communication: Codependents frequently:
    • Blame, threaten, coerce, beg, bribe or advise others
    • don’t say what they mean and don’t mean what they say, lack of follow through
    • don’t take themselves seriously or feel others take them seriously or they go the complete opposite and take themselves too seriously having a lack of joy
    • ask for what they want and need indirectly–sighing, for example
    • find it difficult to get to the point and not sure what the point is
    • gauge their words carefully to achieve a desired effect.
    • try to say what they think will please people or provoke others
    • try to say what they hope will make people do what they want them to do.
    • eliminate the word “no” from their vocabulary
    • talk too much, don’t let others get a word in and monopolize the conversation
    • talk about other people.
    • avoid talking about themselves, their problems, feelings, and thoughts.
    • say everything is their fault or that nothing is their fault
    • wait to express their opinions until they know other people’s opinions because they believe their opinion does not matter
    • lie to protect and cover up for people they love.
    • lie to protect themselves.
    • have a difficult time expressing their emotions honestly, openly, and appropriately or refuse to assert themselves
    • think most of what they have to say is unimportant and frequently apologize for bothering someone
    • begin to talk in cynical, self-degrading, or hostile ways.
  • Weak Boundaries: Codependents frequently:
    • say they won’t tolerate certain behaviors from other people but yet they do
    • gradually increase their tolerance until they can tolerate and do things they said they never would.
    • let others hurt them and keep letting themselves being hurt by the same person the same way and wonder why they hurt so badly.
    • complain, blame, and try to control while they continue to stand there.
    • finally get angry and over react
    • become totally intolerant.
  • Lack Of Trust: Codependents:
    • don’t trust themselves, their feelings, decisions, other people while at the same time they trust people they shouldn’t
    • think God has abandoned them and often lose faith and trust in God – blaming Him for their own doing and open doors they shouldn’t
  • Anger: Many Codependents:
    • feel very scared, hurt, and angry and surround themselves by people who are the same
    • are afraid of their own anger or afraid of other’s anger and blame others when they are angry
    • think people will go away if anger enters the picture and are afraid they cause anger in others or punish people when they get angry with them
    • feel controlled by other people’s anger while they repress their own anger
    • cry a lot, get depressed, overeat, get sick, do mean and nasty things to get even, act hostile, or have violent temper outbursts wondering if they will ever be free of anger
    • have been shamed for feeling angry and place guilt on themselves for getting angry
    • feel increasing amounts of anger, resentment, and bitterness.
    • feel safer with their anger than with hurt feelings.
  • Sex Problems: Some Codependents:
    • are caretakers in the bedroom or refuse it altogether because of anger
    • have sex when they don’t want to but prefer to be held, nurtured and loved since it is void outside the bedroom
    • try to have sex when they’re angry or hurt to fulfill a void
    • are afraid of losing control so do not enjoy sex
    • have a difficult time asking for what they need in bed.
    • withdraw emotionally from their partner or feel repulsed by sex
    • force themselves to have sex, anyway out of obligation to meet another’s needs
    • reduce sex to a technical act minimizing that which God created to be pure
    • wonder why they don’t enjoy sex or have lost interest altogether
    • make up reasons to abstain rather than taking ownership and setting a boundary
    • wish their sex partner would die, go away, or sense the codependent’s feelings.
    • have strong sexual fantasies about other people, have an emotional or physical affair
    • seek porn as an outlet to avoid intimacy
  • Miscellaneous: Codependents tend to:
    • be extremely responsible or irresponsible lacking balance
    • become martyrs, sacrificing their happiness and that of others for causes that don’t require sacrifice.
    • find it difficult to feel close to people to have fun or be spontaneous
    • have an overall passive response to codependency–crying, hurt, helplessness.
    • have and overall aggressive response to codependency–violence, anger, dominance.
    • combine passive and aggressive responses going to and fro
    • Indecisive or emotionless
    • laugh when they feel like crying.
    • stay loyal to their compulsions and people even when it hurts.
    • be ashamed about family, personal, or relationship problems.
    • be confused about the nature of the problem so keep it hidden
    • cover up, lie, and protect the problem.
    • not seek help because they tell themselves the problem isn’t bad enough, or they aren’t important enough.
    • wish the problem would go away on it’s own
  • Progressive: In the later stages of Codependency, Codependents may:
    • feel lethargic, withdrawn or depressed
    • experience a complete loss of daily routine and structure.
    • abuse or neglect their children and other responsibilities.
    • feel hopeless.
    • begin to plan their escape from a relationship they feel trapped in.
    • think about suicide.
    • become violent.
    • become seriously emotionally, mentally, or physically ill.
    • experience an eating disorder (over- or under eating).
    • become addicted to alcohol and other drugs.

My goodness that is a long list.  I am so thankful for Jesus right now…  Aren’t you?  I thank Him for holding up a mirror to our brokenness so we can be truly set free.  Whether you saw yourself in just one of the characteristics I described or in every single one of them, He is offering us to drink of Him, where life everlasting is found.  In doing so, just like the woman at the well who had a divine appointment that day, we have one set before us this day.  Chances are most of us at one time or another has looked for love in all the wrong places.  Yesterday is gone and today is the Day of Salvation.  Before we pray, lets understand these characteristics do not define us and who we are, unless we embrace them rather than Jesus.  Once we ask Him to really come into us and dwell in our hearts He will.  We must repent for our willful sins and childish ways.  We are all products of our environments up until a point when He says, “It is finished.”  Today lets be finished of all these past hurts and pain, leaving it all at the cross, so we truly go and sin no more.💗


Let’s pray💗

Heavenly Father we thank You for delivering us from all evil.  We pray Your Kingdom come and Your will be done in our lives from this day forward.  We confess with our hearts for that which we do to sin against You and how we have given ourselves to others in ways that are not in one accord with Your will in our lives.  Forgive us Lord for guarding our sin, denying it or protecting that which is not aligned with Your word for the sake of looking as one who can save another or even to the point of saving ourselves.  We lay it all down before You Lord never to pick this faulty expression of love up again.  We thank You for the indwelling of Your precious Son and Holy Spirit Who finished all at the Cross in order for us to walk freely as Your children of Light.  Help us Lord to point only to Him and thank You for showing us mercy when we try to save another in His place.  Lord we submit to that which You have planned for us and ask You to close doors which are not of You, to open doors for ministry that are assigned by You and to give us wisdom to know the difference.  Infuse our relationships Lord God with Your love and divine order so pure love exists in ways unimaginable.  We are sorry Father for times we have manipulated, gotten angry or frustrated with the ones you set on our path to set healthy boundaries with for the sake of pure love.  We have so tainted what love actually is we need Your eyes to see the truth in each relationship we have so we are manifesting Your light and not self.  We are trusting You to give us strength to endure all things in Jesus for the Glory of His Name.  Help us to make our yes mean yes and our no mean no.  We are all broken vessels Lord, but if it be Your will mend us and make us whole so we can serve You to the fullest.  We break every soul tie in Jesus Name that is outside of Your courts and bind that unholy alliance only to loose it in Heaven.  And for that which is Holy in Your sight Lord we bind in Heaven and loose it here on Earth in our own lives.  Thank You Lord for creating within us a pure heart.  We humbly ask all this in the Name of Jesus. Amen and Amen.  Let the redeemed of the Lord say so.

So that is all for now on the discussion of Codependency, however, later in the series we will revisit this topic as we go deeper still into the fueling exchange done by Codependents and Narcissists so we can explore setting boundaries with others, which is the Genesis of a healthy relationship .  In Part 3 of this series, we meet we will begin to uncover narcissism and the characteristics that they carry, stirring up much pain and regret, because they themselves suffer much pain and regret.

 God Bless you in His Love,

💗Angela ~ Marked By Heaven

Narcissist/Jezebel & Co-dependent/Ahab Study – Part 1

💗What a journey this has been, containing many months of breaking, until recently not even knowing the why’s of what I was walking out and yet continually seeking Jesus for understanding, covering and guidance.

My prayer and desire is that you be comforted with the same words and truth, by which I was comforted, in order to continue comforting others, by which you are comforted.

The main focus of this series of study is going to be receiving Godly instruction and truth in reference to Narcissist/Jezebel ~ Codependent/Ahab.  Some of you likely are  thinking you know about this already, however, I challenge you to pray and open your hearts to receive what I am going to be sharing, because truthfully not too long ago I was sitting in your seat right now.

I can guarantee you 100% every last one of you have dealt with or are dealing with and maybe even have exhibited traits resembling a narcissist or codependent, no matter how young or old you are.  It wasn’t until recently did the Holy Spirit reveal to me how they are tied into oppression/possession or basically being influenced by a spirit of Jezebel or Ahab.  The truth is, until something is revealed – How can you repent of such a thing?  You cannot…  And this is where my journey began.  I was sick to death of being controlled, manipulated, pressed upon, drained, being told how I felt or should feel, which negated my God-given gift to have an opinion, being self-labeled as a “Giver,” basically I was drained, having nothing left to give.  The list could go on and on – which we will explore more in depth later… But for now, let’s just say the Lord did not want me DEPENDENT or rather CO-DEPENDENT anymore on anyone but HIM.

One day He gave me a Scripture which shook me up a little, it was Galatians 1:10 –

For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ.

I saw the fault in my ways in this…  I saw how I often try to PERSUADE MEN and I also saw how often I seek to have the APPROVAL OF MEN.  It was on that day I began my journey to freedom and I let Him lead me all the way – into total freedom and Who He sets free is free indeed.  Looking back now I can see how this Co-dependency (Worldly term) was woven into the fabric of my soul from a very young age – like a web too far reaching and too complex for any man to deliver me from.  It was me and it was our Lord Jesus.  This was His doing, that none should boast in that He solely would get the Glory He so deserves.  All He required of me was to let go of all I had been told, taught, shown, etc… By man (because it is all vanity – but that is a whole other story within a story) Speaking of which, the driving force behind Rituals is vanity the Lord showed me.  On a side note, if people saw what I saw – You would never demand or persuade anyone ever to worship, take communion, give an offering or be delivered again – which is vile to the Father and stinks in His nostrils, and is a primary reason why Jesus is coming back to set in place and teach His own His true feasts.

Did you know it says in Mark 14:25 that Jesus will never drink of the fruit of the vine until that DAY WHEN HE SHALL DRINK IT IN THE NEW KINGDOM?  I digress…. I am just saying that we do so much out of vanity convinced it is according to what the Lord would have us do. Forgive me for the rabbit trail…

Back to the study at hand~

My journey started when I was so broken inside I relentlessly called out to my Lord to help me, not to mention all the others I called upon and so graciously tried to help me and loved me through it.  The pain did not go away until I began to get the understanding of why it was there in the first place.  Sooooo, I was comforted by the Lord, gained His wisdom in order to comfort another and periodically, since only He can actually change a heart, we will pray together for Him to do a mighty complete work in your life as well.

There are two types of creation.  Obedient children and disobedient children.

The disobedient children have chosen the way of Cain, to walk according to their own ways in succinct rebellion, having their conscience seared with a hot iron, no longer feeling the pull to repent.  Simply put, they may speak of Jesus but refuse to live a life laid down in submission – not loving Him enough to do as He says.

Today I am talking to those who truly desire to walk according to the precepts of Jesus in full submission to His will, His ways, reflecting the character of Him.  I am a firm believer that we cannot lay down something until it is revealed, once revealed the Lord will give us grace to overcome all things.  Obedient children receive the Lord’s conviction in their hearts which is power to repent – to actually go and sin no more.

So there I was… He had showed me a truth about me and yet I had no knowledge to back up the characteristics I was displaying and the forces coming at me by the hand of others who attempted to mold me into something I was not and yet their demands made me feel as if I was drowning – no matter how hard I poured into them, nothing changed.  I knew that day, I was the one who needed to change.  When we change it forges a change in those close to us.  Amazing how God works all things together for the good this way.

I began to research all I could about the characteristics of the Worldly term – Co-dependent, which we will go over.  This whole process has been so Holy Spirit lead I find it difficult to articulate all He was doing with Earthly words.  While in the process of this discovery I had an amazing revelation…  Co-dependents feed off of Narcissists and in turn Narcissists glean fuel from a Co-dependent.  This will become much more clear to you when we get further into our Study.   That day as I was standing in the kitchen, the Lord spoke to me in my Spirit saying He laid out an example for me in the Bible…  Jezebel and Ahab.  It was at that moment I had that which I needed to share with others – Scriptural proof of this insistent Spiritual entanglement.  As we move forward we will explore more about this entanglement and the strong presence of Jezebel/Narcissists today.

It is so important of a truth that it is even mentioned in the Book of Revelation, being something the Church of Thyatira must overcome in the last days.

Revelation 2:18-29

 18 And unto the angel of the church in Thyatira write; These things saith the Son of God, who hath his eyes like unto a flame of fire, and his feet are like fine brass;

19 I know thy works, and charity, and service, and faith, and thy patience, and thy works; and the last to be more than the first.

20 Notwithstanding I have a few things against thee, because thou sufferest that woman Jezebel, which calleth herself a prophetess, to teach and to seduce my servants to commit fornication, and to eat things sacrificed unto idols.

21 And I gave her space to repent of her fornication; and she repented not.

22 Behold, I will cast her into a bed, and them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds.

23 And I will kill her children with death; and all the churches shall know that I am he which searcheth the reins and hearts: and I will give unto every one of you according to your works.

24 But unto you I say, and unto the rest in Thyatira, as many as have not this doctrine, and which have not known the depths of Satan, as they speak; I will put upon you none other burden.

25 But that which ye have already hold fast till I come.

26 And he that overcometh, and keepeth my works unto the end, to him will I give power over the nations:

27 And he shall rule them with a rod of iron; as the vessels of a potter shall they be broken to shivers: even as I received of my Father.

28 And I will give him the morning star.

29 He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.

Jezebel is a demonic force at work in the World today.  This influence is honestly more than any of us can handle alone and actually it would be detrimental to even attempt such a feat.  There is one way and one way only to defeat this foe, whether you are suffering from such tendencies yourself or under its influence and that is to NOT KNOW THE DEPTHS OF SATAN’S SPEECH, HOLD FAST TO JESUS UNTIL HE COMES AND TO KEEP DOING THE WORKS OF OUR LORD UNTIL THE END.  I believe this is the exact time we are living in prophetically right now… Those under her influence (mind you, this is INSIDE the Church) have a small space in time to repent.

The first mention of Jezebel/Ahab in the 1 Kings when Elijah faced this demonic force.  LET’S GET ONE THING STRAIGHT RIGHT AWAY – JEZEBEL DOES NOT ONLY REFER TO WOMEN.  This false truth itself was born out of the Spirit of Jezebel to remain hidden.  The only reason this entity is referred to as a female is because it multiplies and grows wherever it is allowed to function.  Please do not tolerate her operating – if you hear someone speak the false doctrine of only women can operate likened to a Jezebel Spirit – expose it as such – a lie.  I would encourage you to read 1 and 2 Kings in full via the Holy Spirit to glean full understanding of the scope of the destruction birthed out of such darkness.  For the sake of time I am just going to paraphrase what is found in Scripture.

Beforehand, I want to go over the fruits of this evil Spirit’s labor mentioned in Galatians 5:19-21 – which are:  ADULTRY, FORNICATION, UNCLEANNESS, LASCIVIOUSNESS, IDOLATRY, WITCHCRAFT, HATRED, VARIANCE, EMULATIONS, WRATH, STRIFE, SEDITIONS, HERESIES, ENVY, MURDER, DRUNKENESS, REVELLINGS – which in doing ANY OF THESE THINGS you will not inherit the Kingdom of God.  Mainly because we cannot serve two masters, the Word says we will love one and hate the other.  Committing such acts makes one so entwined deeply with Satan, his is the Kingdom one serves during that time.  Thankfully, our Father is so merciful there is granted a space to repent.  I often wonder when that space in time will be up?  That day and hour only He knows, which is why we are to work out our salvation daily with fear and trembling.  Praise God.

Back to 1 & 2 Kings, only because it is so important to see the truth in how Jezebel and Ahab fuel and feed one another.  After we lay the Biblical foundation we will get into more life application resources and tools which apply to us each and every day.  When we do this, trust me, you are going to be amazed at how much this falsehood has touched you throughout your life and likely still does today.

Like with anything… Once your eyes have been opened you become so much more aware of the subtly of the ways the enemy seeks to destroy and you see just how he has used you and others to accomplish his will.  We can be so ever grateful for the gift of repentance in this fashion for it truly is a gift.  Now that I am more aware I can cast this chain off of me, no longer serving his kingdom.  However, having such wisdom at times does bring with it a burden so to speak because I find myself seeing it beguiling and influencing many others.  Knowing it is not my job to point out what another is stuck in, but rather point to the One Who does save – Our Lord Jesus, as I said earlier this truly is a deliverance which is intimate between Him and the individual.

Let’s take a look at the Queen of Narcissism and the King Co-dependent spoken of in Scripture, that being – Jezebel and Ahab. 

King David had been absent from the scene of Hebrew history for about 135 years when this story opens. His great kingdom, enlarged and more richly endowed by his son Solomon, had been fractured into two weakened fragments. The southern kingdom of Judah was being ruled by his descendants, while the northern kingdom of Israel suffered under a succession of wicked men at the helm.

Ahab is introduced to the pages of Scripture with these shocking words: “And Ahab the son of Omri did evil in the sight of the Lord more than all who were before him” (1 Kgs. 16:30). He had the dubious distinction of being the most wicked king who reigned over Israel up until his day. “He married Jezebel the daughter of Ethbaal king of the Sidonians, and went to serve Baal and worshiped him” (1 Kgs. 16:31).

“Sidonians” were people on the Mediterranean coast who occupied the great cities of Tyre and Sidon. With the ever-present menace of Syria and the growing threat of Assyria, Ahab decided that he needed an alliance with this neighboring nation, so he made a treaty with the king of Phoenicia and sealed it by marrying his daughter. That is how Jezebel happened to move to Samaria, the capital of Israel, and there is only one way to describe it — a whirlwind hit Israel.

The king of Phoenicia was not only the political leader of his people, he was also the high priest of their religion, as his name Ethbaal implies. Jezebel had grown up steeped in the worship of Baal and his female consort, Astarte. Baal was considered to be the god of the land. He owned it, they said, and he controlled its weather and the increase of its crops and cattle. Jezebel’s mother was considered to be the mother-goddess of fertility. So idols of both her parents stood side by side in their temples and were worshiped by priests and temple prostitutes with lewd dances and sacred orgies.  In times of crisis such as famine, they slashed themselves and even sacrificed their children to appease the gods and implore their help.

Jezebel was fanatical about her religion. The worship of Jehovah must have seemed dull and commonplace by comparison, and she was determined to change it. She was a headstrong, self-willed, domineering woman, and with a moral weakling for a husband, she had little trouble getting her way. She brought 450 prophets of Baal and 400 prophets of her mother and housed them in the palace, and fed them in royal style. Their duties were to promote the worship of Baal throughout the land.

Not satisfied to establish her religion in Israel, Jezebel sought to stamp out every remnant of Jehovah worship and to kill every true prophet of God. She had to have things completely her way, and she almost succeeded. Some prophets survived by compromising their convictions and turning into “yes” men for Ahab. Another group of 100 were hidden in a cave and fed secretly by a Godly servant of Ahab named Obadiah. But Elijah was the only one courageous enough to stand up openly against Jezebel’s wickedness. God gave him a great victory when he called down fire from heaven upon Mount Carmel. The prophets of Baal were slain and it looked as though the nation would turn back to God. But Jezebel was not finished with her sinister work. She swore in her rage that she would kill Elijah, and he ran for his life, collapsed in the wilderness and pleaded with God to let him die. It was the lowest point in the Godly prophet’s great career. And Baal worship lived on, dragging the nation to new depths of degradation. This stubborn, headstrong, self-willed wife of Ahab brought disruption and distress to Israel for years to come.

Jezebel often manipulated her husband Ahab using his weakened state she enforced upon him as yes another tactic of control, often taunting him that he was weak. Sadly, these two were self-willed to the end. I guess you could say – she used all sorts of manipulation possible to get her husband to accomplish her dirty work without getting any blood on her own hands. Elijah met Ahab in the vineyard and pronounced God’s judgment on both him and his wife for their wicked deeds. King Jahosaphat was visiting and asked Ahab “Is there not yet a prophet of the Lord here, that we may inquire of him?” (1 Kgs. 22:7). And Ahab replied, “There is yet one man by whom we may inquire of the Lord, but I hate him, because he does not prophesy good concerning me, but evil. He is Micaiah son of Imlah” (1 Kgs. 22:8). So Micaiah was called, and although he knew his life was in danger, he spoke what God told him. Israel would be scattered on the mountains like sheep without a shepherd (1 Kgs. 22:17). As we might expect, Ahab rejected Micaiah’s prophecy and had him cast into prison. He was going to have what he wanted and do what he pleased, regardless of God’s will.

But it didn’t work out quite like he planned. Ahab knew the Syrians would be after him personally, so he removed his royal garments and disguised himself as a regular soldier. “Now a certain man drew his bow at random and struck the king of Israel in a joint of the armor” (1 Kgs. 22:34). That soldier did not know he was shooting at the king, but his arrow penetrated the narrow slit between the pieces of Ahab’s armor. Very few bowmen would have been that accurate. It was obvious that God was guiding that arrow, and Ahab’s self-will ended in his untimely death.

Jezebel outlived him by almost fourteen years. Jehu, the captain of Israel’s army, was to be the instrument of divine discipline in her case. After slaying King Jehoram, the son of Ahab, he rode to Jezreel. Scripture says, “When Jehu came to Jezreel, Jezebel heard of it, and she painted her eyes and adorned her head, and looked out the window” (2 Kgs. 9:30). She knew what was about to happen, but she was going to die like a queen, arrogant, self-willed and unrepentant to the end. She shouted abuses at Jehu from her upstairs window, but at Jehu’s command, several of her servants threw her down, “And some of her blood was sprinkled on the wall and on the horses, and he trampled her under foot” (2 Kgs. 9:33). It was a violent death, but it illustrated again the seriousness of sinful self-will in opposition to God.  Jezebel and Ahab had two sons and one daughter and unfortunately, these same curses were carried out continually, generation to generation so their influence lived on, even to this day.

God only knows how many generations will be affected by our sinful self-will, our insistence on having things our way instead of God’s. This shocking story ought to provide the incentive we need to put off every remnant of self-will and yield ourselves fully to do the will of God.  This is simply a brief overview to the recollection of such evil operations.  Like I said, I encourage you to read 1 and 2 Kings to fully grasp the truth in Spirit.

Next time we are going to glean wisdom from this Old Testament demonstration while pulling it into the here and now so it is applicable in our lives today as a useful tool to walk in full display of Jesus on Earth, as a true witness to Him above all else.  In the upcoming broadcasts we are going to deeply cover the characteristics of both Narcissists and Codependents, specifically how they weave and feed one another and learn to be free in Jesus – not for a moment or a day, but set free forever, in order we are complete in Him, having our identity in Jesus and Him alone.  The fruit of this freedom is we shall truly walk in love towards all, loving Him first, being of One Accord with Him and one another for the Glory of His Name.

In Part 2 of this Bible Study we will begin to explore CO-DEPENDENCY and how it influences us and seduces us to tolerate the operation of Jezebel operating in our own lives through NARCISSISTS.

God Bless you in His Love,

💗Angela~Marked By Heaven

Found wanting – Coming face to face with the Father’s Will

💗No ear tickling today – trust me, I am still feeling the bruises of conviction in this one.  I don’t know why the Lord keeps laying these hard to receive messages on my heart lately.  The only thing I can imagine is that I have had this unfeigned delusional thinking of what holiness actually is and was so absorbed with being holy I was overlooking the only One Who is Holy to a point I was deceiving myself.

No matter who we are, where we have come from or where we are headed, the simple truth remains at some point in time we have been found “Wanting…”  We have been fearfully and wonderfully made and a piece to that design has been missing, hidden and left vacant for a very special purpose.

All our lives we have had situations that have come up that we never would have chosen or even some that we actually did chose that ended up being bad for us.  I often say I have – “Looked for love in all the wrong places.”  And if honest, many of you can relate.  Did you know that others can touch your heart, but only God can fill it?  With that being said – We have a void only HE can fill and that too is very purposed.

The truth is none of us are totally complete yet, although we are in a process to wholeness, we are not whole – not yet, but that time is surely right around the corner.  Which is nice and all… But what about today?  We know hope deferred makes the heart sick… And we look forward to THAT DAY, but in all reality we have to live IN TODAY, not the promises of tomorrow.  Actually, tomorrow is not promised to anyone.

I share with you all in the fact I have had one dream after another not filled, promises broken time and again, leaving my heart shattered into a million pieces.  There were actually times not so long ago that my heart actually hurt physically due to the actions of another.  Physically in pain – not sure if any of you have experienced that sort of pain or not, but if you haven’t… I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy.

Jesus does bind up the wounds of the broken hearted.  But are wounds purposed?  I say yes and I also will share why I say yes to that question.  It seemed like every single time I was in heart break pain and reached out to someone quite often all they did is rebuke the pain or seeping of the issue – never addressing or edifying the pain I was actually going through.  And this is true for pain inflicted upon us by another or our own selves – I have been in pain from both.   We often have such deep seated pain we will go to extremes to self-comfort and “Feel” better.   I, myself, have been there done this – have the t-shirt to prove it!  In coming full circle now I am beginning to realize all those times I actually was undergoing being, “Weighed in the balance, only to be found wanting…”  But wanting what?  Who?  Why did this happen to me?  And so on as the question flood me like a river in a sea of regret…

If, what the Lord says is true and I beyond a shadow of a doubt believe His word… Then I know in truth He shall supply all our needs – mine and yours – according to His riches in Glory.  Who’s glory?  His!  The healing often [emotional or physical] does not come or is released but not received due to our Faith.  This is not to say we do not have Faith to believe Jesus is Lord and Savior, but oftentimes do not feel worthy to receive of Him fully in a particular area to be made whole and complete.

So just who is the block to the healing is it me or is it not granted?  I am seeing wholeness not received is on my end and not the Lord’s.

But back to these wounds.  I do not like to talk about them because the wounds may be gone now but how many in the Church treated me as unclean for even having them in the first place has a residue which keeps me guarded.  I often wondered why they assumed they had FAITH to be healed themselves and yet I could see their wounds, but they could only see mine and not their own.  I really never shared what I saw, but I did pull away and closed up to them because I do have Faith in my Lord – just like you all do.  To assume someone does not have Faith can be very hurtful and push others away, a lesson I learned long ago.

When our Lord does something it is TOTAL AND PERMANENT.  I wasn’t ready to only give Him glory yet, is a piece of why man’s ways or my own did not work, plus many other variables in which I won’t share them all right here and right now.  But if we are honest, we may be CONVINCED the healing took place and even brag about it, but deep inside we know all that was for show… Because there were those two missing elements:  TOTAL and PERMANENT.  I often wonder why no one comes back to say… I guess I wasn’t healed after all, pride I suppose plays a major part in us not admitting when we were wrong.  Just like repent means to never do again – When God heals, that ailment never comes again.  Can you see now how often we have glorified self in the healing rather than Him?

Wounds turn into scars when healed and scars do not hurt, they are simply a reminder of what He did for us with His saving grace.  Jesus kept His scars as a demonstration of death defeated and will even show them to others one day saying, “My friends did this to Me.”  In a similar way we can relate – we have scars from wounds that Jesus healed and our friends did them to us, but in turn HE FILLED us with His love removing the pain done by another.  In such a fashion our scars become the very testimony of HIM, just as His scars testify to the Father…. So very beautiful, indeed.

Anyway…  My purpose is not to even share that much about healing today, just feeling lead to expose a piece that is missing within even me, that is purposed and planned out already.💗

Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego were in the fire and I love how they proclaimed – EVEN IF… EVEN IF they were not delivered, they would not bow down to another God.  EVEN IF…  Can you imagine?  The Lord showed me how it took them more faith to get into a fire NOT KNOWING if their deliverance would come than it would have if they got right in, knowing they would not get burned.  Let that sink in a minute…  In many ways, this resembles us.  We are in the fire right now in various areas of our lives – but listen to me – Your faith is mighty, because when others would have turned from Him a long time ago or avoided being purified all together – YOU didn’t.  Every day you are saying…. EVEN IF… You will not turn away from Him.  Some of you have heard me say how sometimes, the Lord delivers you from the fire and sometimes it is THROUGH the fire you are deliveredEven if… Takes a stronger Faith and grows intimacy with Him.  His children never resist the fire, knowing intimacy and trust is gained through fire.

Daniel 5:27 says… You have been weighed in the balance and found wanting.

  • WANTING in Hebrew means:  Deficient, lacking, to be without, to come up short
  • BALANCE in Hebrew means:  To be obedient, to hear the Lord in prayer, to perceive

As I began to study and seek the Lord on this Scripture He lead me to… I was so in awe at how perfect His plan is and began to gain understanding of why it is such a timely word for us today.

Our Nation is WANTING, the Church Body is WANTING and even you and I are WANTING.  But WANTING WHAT?  Do we even know?  Is it just that next fix that we desire and want, just to get by and make it another day?  Or are we WANTING something greater, more permanent, totally fulfilling and complete?  Unless we lay down all those “False comforts” that are not everlasting or sometimes He Himself strips them away… We will not stop seeking outside sources to fulfill only what ONE can – that being, the Lord.

By now I believe we can all admit we are lacking in some area of our lives and we have been to:  Doctors, Preachers, Brothers/Sisters in the Lord, watched every Youtube we could get our eyes on, listened to every sermon out there pertaining to this ache in our hearts, sent emails and responded to emails, prayed alone, prayed with another and prayed in a group.  If awards were given out for “Seeking”… we would have a gold medal!

Do you all know why prayers are hindered?  Like with all things – let’s go to the Word and find out.

In 1 Peter 3:7-12 it tells us why many prayers are hindered:

Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered.

Finally, be ye all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brethren, be pitiful, be courteous:

Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing: but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing.

10 For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guile:

11 Let him eschew (refrain from) evil, and do good; let him seek peace, and ensue it.

12 For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers: but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil.

Psalm 34 basically says the same thing:

 13 Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile.

14 Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.

16 The face of the Lord is against them that do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.

17 The righteous cry, and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles.

18 The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all.

20 He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken.

21 Evil shall slay the wicked: and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate.

22 The Lord redeemeth the soul of his servants: and none of them that trust in him shall be desolate.

So we find here in these passages, once again, that before we go to the Father and request anything, which is basically what a prayer is…  We must first make sure our hearts are pure, by really seeking to see if our intentions are righteous before Him.  Vengeance, shame, anger, ego, frustration, unconfessed sin and the like will hinder our prayers.

Today we are going to the Book of Daniel where the Word gives account to what happens when one is weighed in the balance only to be found wanting.

The story unfolds in Daniel Chapter 5 where King Belshazzar was throwing a huge feast/party but the exact verse we are referencing today is verse 27:  Thou art weighed in the balances and art found wanting.

What happened that night was a party not like any other, because a large hand appeared for every eye to see that delivered a most personal message to King Belshazzar – it was a sure word, a command really encased around a rebuke – it is practically one of the sternest demonstrations of sowing and reaping in the Bible and what happens when one stays in rebellion regardless of their assumed position, with the Lord on High.  The days of his kingdom had been numbered, all which he treasured above the Lord would be taken from him, a prophecy was given and that night he died – at the command of the Father.

Just as he was weighed in the balances, we too will be weighed in the eternal balances of God.  So today as we go over why this king was found wanting, I pray we will check our own hearts and ask the Holy Spirit to show us in ways we also sit in a place of wanting and in lack, should we too be weighed in the balance today.  This is an opportunity to be humbly repentant and fully delivered and healed and most importantly FILLED BY HIM.

This King had three charges against him by the Lord.

First – He dishonored God’s vessels (vs. 2) He did this by exalting himself and dishonoring God by dishonoring His chosen vessels.  So if we do not honor the vessels the Lord has sent to us we too would be found wanting.  God’s people are His vessels and what we do unto them we actually do unto Him.  If we do not put other people’s interests before our own, when our actions are motivated by what is best for us rather than another.  Some other ways in which we may dishonor the brethren would be by not imparting grace with our words, actions or forgiveness.  We are told this actually grieves the Holy Spirit in Ephesians 4:30.  Husbands dishonor the Lord when they do not treat their wives with an understanding heart and in a delicate way that honors them.  This is not to say you have to understand your wife, but rather you gently entreat them with kindness out of your heart.  The same is true for all the brethren, one to another as we have been qualified to love others more than ourselves.

So if we were to stand before our Maker today and be weighed in the balance – we must ask ourselves…  Would we be found wanting in this area by dishonoring any of His vessels?  If so, we must humble ourselves quickly and HONOR GOD by honoring one another in brotherly love.  Every word we speak and every action we take it is good to ask ourselves – How would I feel if so and so was doing or saying that to me or about me?  Those with empathy and compassion consider such things regularly and naturally in every interaction with others.

Second – After that, this King was drunk and set up a standard for others to be in drunkenness and not only that – he also praised other gods of gold, silver, bronze, iron, wood and stone – praising and giving place to things that had no power over God’s power – representing them as if they did.  In doing so he discounted the Sovereignty of the Father as being the only one who saves, sustains life and controls everyone’s steps.  Before we quickly brush this off as if we would not also be found wanting in this area let’s consider a few examples.  Although, we may not put up a graven image in the natural – do we participate in such abominations in our hearts?  Paul tells us in Colossians 3:5 that we are to put to death anything fleshly like sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire and covetousness – calling them all idols.  When we have a deep yearning to possess something or make it ours, it permeates our minds and becomes an idol in nature.  This is also true when we want something another person already has… This could be a job, a placement, a partner, things or even a ministry.  This OBJECT will in turn become our main focus and becomes an idol because God is the One Who should permeate our minds, not anyone or anything else.  If there is something in our lives and we just can’t seem to be content without it – it is an idol.  The Lord Alone should be our joy, peace and happiness.  Just like this king – and like we have discussed recently anything that is an idol creates us to no longer remain sober – we become drunk or rather overtaken/obsessed with whatever that thing is for pleasure in unrighteousness.  Like I said the other day – that thing itself may not be unholy but if it replaces the Lord in our lives – we become unholy in our intentions towards it.  Be sober, now is certainly the wrong time to be in drunkenness of any sort. On another note – how often do we undermine the sovereignty of our Father with evil reports of what man or the enemy is doing here on Earth?  The Father is on His Throne COMMANDING all things, both good and evil, nothing gets by Him – He never sleeps or is shutout from what is going on – He sees all things, knows all things and is attentive continually.

Third – The next wanting King Belshazzar had in his life was he was worshipping the god of self.  He had set himself up as his own god – to the point he was delusional thinking he could do it all on his own.  When this happens we begin to serve self, feeding our own appetites rather than serve God.  Just as 2 Timothy 3:4 states, we become lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God.  As a result, this King was feasting when he should have been watching, which placed him a most dangerous position with the Lord.  When we are so focused on anything above the Lord – no matter what it is – we are in disobedience only to be easily snared into thinking we are doing God’s service.  Pride always comes before a fall and in this case it certainly did, to the point of death.  I pray that not be the case for any of us.  Even Peter fell into this holier than thou temptation when he boasted how he would die with Jesus… Jesus replied to him with a warning, “Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.”  We all know how that ended… He actually denied Jesus three times.  I cringe sometimes when I hear others repeating in Peter’s footsteps, knowing what may fall upon them due to religious pride.  Actually, the Lord reminded me of that very thing because I used to do a lot – a whole lot.  What was I thinking?  To boldly declare my faith like I am so great thing He created that could never ever be lead astray?  Lord have mercy, I am thinking of how I used to be and so grateful for the Father’s discipline because He loves me.  Anyway – We should only boast on the Lord. Period.  You all know this already, to go against this command is a choice and comes with it consequences which I am very much aware of first hand or I wouldn’t dare speak about it.  Let’s just leave it with – if we are watching self or others we cannot be watching for the Lord Jesus, Who is soon to return and no one knows the day or hour.  And on a side note – remember it was Peter who cut the ear off of the soldier who the Lord appointed to arrest Jesus then Jesus Himself put it back on.  Again, out of trying to do the right thing – Peter was in willful disobedience and pride to the point of standing in the way of what was surely ordained by the Father to come to pass.

To finish up the rest of our study we will go right into the Scriptures starting in Daniel 5 vs 17 which is Daniel’s interpretation to what the hand wrote on the wall for all to see.

17 Then Daniel answered and said before the king, Let thy gifts be to thyself, and give thy rewards to another; yet I will read the writing unto the king, and make known to him the interpretation.

18 O thou king, the most high God gave Nebuchadnezzar thy father a kingdom, and majesty, and glory, and honour:

            God granted Belshazzar’s Father this kingdom he now was ruling over

19 And for the majesty that he gave him, all people, nations, and languages, trembled and feared before him: whom he would he slew; and whom he would he kept alive; and whom he would he set up; and whom he would he put down.

20 But when his heart was lifted up, and his mind hardened in pride, he was deposed from his kingly throne, and they took his glory from him:

            Because of pride he lost it all

21 And he was driven from the sons of men; and his heart was made like the beasts, and his dwelling was with the wild asses: they fed him with grass like oxen, and his body was wet with the dew of heaven; till he knew that the most high God ruled in the kingdom of men, and that he appointeth over it whomsoever he will.

            He was removed from his place UNTIL he was humbled in knowing the MOST HIGH RULED in all Kingdoms of men and HE ALONE PUTS RULERS IN NATIONS AND REMOVES THEM.

22 And thou his son, O Belshazzar, hast not humbled thine heart, though thou knewest all this;

            Belshazzar should have learned from his father’s mistakes

23 But hast lifted up thyself against the Lord of heaven; and they have brought the vessels of his house before thee, and thou, and thy lords, thy wives, and thy concubines, have drunk wine in them; and thou hast praised the gods of silver, and gold, of brass, iron, wood, and stone, which see not, nor hear, nor know: and the God in whose hand thy breath is, and whose are all thy ways, hast thou not glorified:

            Lifting ourselves up above the Lord for any reason at all is a very serious offense.

24 Then was the part of the hand sent from him; and this writing was written.

25 And this is the writing that was written, Mene, Mene, Tekel, Upharsin.

26 This is the interpretation of the thing: Mene; God hath numbered thy kingdom, and finished it.

27 Tekel; Thou art weighed in the balances, and art found wanting.

28 Peres; Thy kingdom is divided, and given to the Medes and Persians.

            Pride will cause a fall, of a person and anything that is under his/her care as the Lord wills.  The Lord first will divide it and then give it over to someone else.

29 Then commanded Belshazzar, and they clothed Daniel with scarlet, and put a chain of gold about his neck, and made a proclamation concerning him, that he should be the third ruler in the kingdom.

            Before Belshazzar was even slain the Lord laid the charge upon him to proclaim Daniel to be the third ruler in the kingdom.

30 In that night was Belshazzar the king of the Chaldeans slain.

Does the one created have anything to say to the One Who created it?  I am beginning to think nothing but praise and adoration should come out of my mouth.  How about you?

Romans 9

14 What shall we say then? Is there unrighteousness with God? God forbid.

15 For he saith to Moses, I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.

16 So then it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy.

17 For the scripture saith unto Pharaoh, Even for this same purpose have I raised thee up, that I might shew my power in thee, and that my name might be declared throughout all the earth.

18 Therefore hath he mercy on whom he will have mercy, and whom he will he hardeneth.

19 Thou wilt say then unto me, Why doth he yet find fault? For who hath resisted his will?

20 Nay but, O man, who art thou that repliest against God? Shall the thing formed say to him that formed it, Why hast thou made me thus?

21 Hath not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour?

22 What if God, willing to shew his wrath, and to make his power known, endured with much longsuffering the vessels of wrath fitted to destruction:

23 And that he might make known the riches of his glory on the vessels of mercy, which he had afore prepared unto glory,

24 Even us, whom he hath called, not of the Jews only, but also of the Gentiles?

25 As he saith also in Osee, I will call them my people, which were not my people; and her beloved, which was not beloved.

26 And it shall come to pass, that in the place where it was said unto them, Ye are not my people; there shall they be called the children of the living God.

27 Esaias also crieth concerning Israel, Though the number of the children of Israel be as the sand of the sea, a remnant shall be saved:

28 For he will finish the work, and cut it short in righteousness: because a short work will the Lord make upon the earth.

29 And as Esaias said before, Except the Lord of Sabaoth had left us a seed, we had been as Sodoma, and been made like unto Gomorrha.

30 What shall we say then? That the Gentiles, which followed not after righteousness, have attained to righteousness, even the righteousness which is of faith.

31 But Israel, which followed after the law of righteousness, hath not attained to the law of righteousness.

32 Wherefore? Because they sought it not by faith, but as it were by the works of the law. For they stumbled at that stumblingstone;

33 As it is written, Behold, I lay in Sion a stumblingstone and rock of offence: and whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed.

So who are really to comment on anything really regarding another soul?  Do we really have anything to say or that we should say?  To me it is becoming ever so obvious it is a matter of the heart, not deeds, not words, teachings or preaching.

And we know there is only One Who truly knows the intentions of another’s heart… It is our Lord.

Many are being weighed in this balance each and every moment of everyday…  But what is being weighed?  The flesh (sin nature) or the heart?  Just as David was a man after God’s own heart, so should we be.  A heart filled with the love of God can and does overcome a multitude of sins – their own mainly, but other’s as well. When we truly have the full understanding that all are left wanting, to some degree we no longer do the measuring or judge before the time, as all fall short; But rather let Him do what He is purposed to do – measure and fill each vessel according to His purpose and will.

Throughout this heart convicting study I found a few life altering truths –

  • Oftentimes my will does not align with the Father’s will, as I cannot see in fullness as He does. In times of desperation my flesh gets in the way and I really cannot see.  Therefore, there is no better time than when I am feeling lost, desperate or even hopeless to just be still and know that He is God and to fight the urge to do anything really.
  • We all are created WANTING – which is purposed. The key is to discover the Lord, Who is the only One who can complete us and make us whole in Him.  Until we fully grasp this truth, we may run to and fro, sometimes our whole lives search to fill the void within that only He can fill.
  • All of His creation has this void and He uses it to draw the lost unto Him – to gather them together under His wing.
  • To dishonor God’s vessels is to dishonor Him
  • The Father is not in lack, although we are in many ways. He is not limited on His provision and supply for us.
  • The Father is Sovereign. He is Master over the Heaven and the Earth, nothing gets by Him and anytime we are frantic, worried or in turmoil – we are not resting in His peace.

I pray this study has blessed you, like it did me as it helped me to correct my thoughts, settling many heartaches with acceptance that they too are purposed.

Every single loss drives us directly into His arms.  How amazing is that?

He is working everything out for our good, His promises endure forever and He truly will not lose one of His own…. Not you and not even a mess like me.💗

May the Lord Bless You in His Love,

💗Angela~Marked By Heaven


Escaping INTO Him


Luke 21 ~


And they asked him, saying, Master, but when shall these things be? and what sign will there be when these things shall come to pass?

And he said, Take heed that ye be not deceived: for many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and the time draweth near: go ye not therefore after them.

PLEASE NOTE:  Jesus said many will come IN HIS NAME SAYING HE IS LORD but that we should not be deceived that just because they say He is Lord – does not necessarily mean HE IS LORD IN THEIR LIVES.

But when ye shall hear of wars and commotions, be not terrified: for these things must first come to pass; but the end is not by and by.

10 Then said he unto them, Nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom:

Kingdom rising up against Kingdom is actually DARK vs. LIGHT

11 And great earthquakes shall be in divers places, and famines, and pestilences; and fearful sights and great signs shall there be from heaven.

All these SIGNS originate in Heaven by the command of the Father.

12 But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name’s sake.

13 And it shall turn to you for a testimony.

14 Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer:

15 For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist.

16 And ye shall be betrayed both by parents, and brethren, and kinsfolks, and friends; and some of you shall they cause to be put to death.

17 And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake.

18 But there shall not an hair of your head perish.

19 In your patience possess ye your souls.

20 And when ye shall see Jerusalem compassed with armies, then know that the desolation thereof is nigh.

21 Then let them which are in Judaea flee to the mountains; and let them which are in the midst of it depart out; and let not them that are in the countries enter thereinto.

22 For these be the days of vengeance, that all things which are written may be fulfilled.

23 But woe unto them that are with child, and to them that give suck, in those days! for there shall be great distress in the land, and wrath upon this people.

24 And they shall fall by the edge of the sword, and shall be led away captive into all nations: and Jerusalem shall be trodden down of the Gentiles, until the times of the Gentiles be fulfilled.

25 And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars; and upon the earth distress of nations, with perplexity; the sea and the waves roaring;

26 Men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.

27 And then shall they see the Son of man coming in a cloud with power and great glory.

28 And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads; for your redemption draweth nigh.

29 And he spake to them a parable; Behold the fig tree, and all the trees;

30 When they now shoot forth, ye see and know of your own selves that summer is now nigh at hand.

Summer is actually HARVEST TIME in which FRUIT IS READY AND RIPE

31 So likewise ye, when ye see these things come to pass, know ye that the kingdom of God is nigh at hand.

32 Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass away, till all be fulfilled.

33 Heaven and earth shall pass away: but my words shall not pass away.

34 And take heed to yourselves, lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting, and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that day come upon you unawares.

35 For as a snare shall it come on all them that dwell on the face of the whole earth.

36 Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man.

In Greek these words have a deeper meaning:

WATCH – Don’t sleep, be attentive and ready, curious – formed from the word Alpha (beginning) – the first letter of the alphabet, Jesus says I am the Alpha and Omega…


AND PRAY –   To want, desire, long for, make supplications

  • Individually and collectively

THAT YOU MAY BE ACCOUNTED WORTHY – Deem entirely deserving, to meet your reward

Base word:  To lead, move, to or depart

TO ESCAPE – To flee out of, seek safety in flight, to escape safety out of danger, to vanish

ALL – each, every, any, all, the whole, everyone, all things, everything – collectively/individually

THESE THINGS – these things hereafter

THAT SHALL – At the part of doing or suffering something

COME TO PASS – events which are coming to pass/happening, to be made or finished through a miracle, to arise in history or come on the stage, be kept or married

TO STAND –  To make to stand, be put in place in the midst of others, to make firm, to be kept intact in the Kingdom, to escape into safety, to sustain the force of anything

BEFORE – Before, in the presence of


Therefore, the Verse ~

Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man.

When transcribed in Greek this Scripture would actually hold a much richer meaning, as follows:

Be vigilant and awake, curious from the beginning.  Why? So individually and collectively you desire, long for and make supplications for a particular result.  May you be deemed entirely deserving to meet your reward and depart so you can flee out of, seek safety in flight and escape in safety out of danger and vanish from all the things which are coming hereafter.  There are sufferings which will come to pass, however you will be made and finished through a miracle, kept and married.  You will be made to stand, put in place in the midst of others, made firm and kept intact in the Kingdom of Heaven.  You shall escape into safety and sustain the force of anything before such events in the presence of Jesus, Himself.💗

What a promise to us, the Remnant.  Thank You Lord Jesus.

He is surely making us ready to stand before Him without spot or blemish.  Each day He is purifying our hearts as in Psalm 51:10 says.  Who shall be worthy to stand before Him in that day?  Only those with a purified heart.💗

Therefore, it is not a shameful truth to believe what is written about those who have made their selves ready BEFORE the time, in order that WHEN the time does come into fruition, we will be WORTHY TO ESCAPE ALL THINGS COMING UPON THE EARTH.

Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing.

2 Timothy 4:8

The truth is not all LOVE HIS APPEARING, let alone look for it or desire it to come to pass.  Only a reserved few can share in the intimacy of this truth.  The Lord has not opened everyone’s eyes yet to the precious pearl many of us share, but He surely will do all things according to His purposed timing.  There is a Remnant out there who simply wants to be ONE WITH HIM and are not looking to escape anything but this flesh body, the veil which is currently in tact as a constant reminder of the separation that comes with the journey in this life.  Thankfully, the fruit of this longing is on that day – we shall escape into HIM. 💗