Converted As A Little One ~ Broadcast Transcript from May 17, 2021 with Angela

I was thinking about how so often our words and actions don’t line up…  Its like we have great faith for others, often telling them to shake the dust off and keep walking, only to realize when something of threat comes close to the doors of our own personal lives – we collapse like a lawn chair.  This is really revealing to just how ego-centric we are… Its like when someone else is facing something we are not at a loss for encouragement because what they are going through does not affect our lives that much and if it does, it is minimal.  I told the Lord I don’t want to be like that… You can label it whatever you want, doubleminded, hypocrisy, lack of empathy and compassion, etc…  the label doesn’t matter…  What does matter is that our walk aligns with our talk and that we are very clear on something…  When we boast or proclaim something, testing shall come to purify our words so they match our steps…  Jesus was moved by compassion – He even wept because His heart was so moved by compassion… I know many of you personally are the same way, you already know how to cry when someone else is hurting, that is a beautiful attribute of Jesus within you – a full display of His love actually.

Sometimes when you sit back and observe… You see so many who’s words do not align with walks and you also can reflect on times the same holds true for yourself.  I was thinking how they say the road to hell is paved with good intentions…  Are intentions enough?  I know we would like to think so, but actually, no they are not.  The Word tells us the WORD IS CONFIRMED WITH SIGNS FOLLOWING US.  We’ll read that in a moment, its in Mathew 16.  It seems to me integrity is all but lost these days – it used to be that we held ourselves personally to a higher standard, knowing WHO we are representing in dealing with others – so we need to be asking ourselves if – when we come near to others, do they perceive the Kingdom of Heaven by our interactions with them?  Did Jesus come near to them through us or does our word lack integrity, being void, unfruitful?

Jesus cursed the tree and it withered and died outside the gate because it was not producing His fruit for that very reason – it was just a tree taking up space, as an example to us to be authentic on our journey.  It would be much more worthwhile for the glory of the Lord, to speak less of our faith and dedication and works and just be faithful, dedicated and fruitful.  Boasting on self truly reveals the greatest lack and what we struggle with the most.  Its like we try to overcompensate our lack by constantly trying to convince others we have none and what we speak about the most, reveals our greatest weaknesses.  

A great weakness within many of us right now is when the rubber meets the road – Do we truly have faith to believe what was written – do we even know what was written?  Do we really and whole-heartedly believe our lives are in His hands and NOTHING can separate us from Him, except ourselves of course.  But do we really believe we can surrender it all to Him?  Will we die, in order that He may live, dwell and move within our beings?  We must decrease in order for Him to increase, we must, there is no other way around it. 

The final question is…  Are we still seeking to save our own lives?  And as long as we talk the talk and not walk the walk – we are going to continue to walk in the circles of purification, around and around – missing dwelling in the Promised Land of total surrender and freedom – that our lives are in His capable hands and nothing can harm us any longer, because He always works everything together for our good, as the door keeper permitting and not permitting what is allowed to touch us.

It seems we often say we praise Him in the storm, while avoiding every storm which comes our way – or at least I do that anyway.  I feel like I am walking through a minefield daily, looking down to avoid stepping on the next bomb to go off – to spare myself, time and again…  But the Lord wants us to keep looking to Him, not taking our eyes off Him and to keep walking forward, as He leads, we follow – NO MATTER WHAT.  It is in the “no matter what” times, we fold, isn’t it?  But Jesus called us out of the boat, to walk on water towards Him and we will not sink unless we look down at the storm raging beneath our feet instead of fixating on Him.

When we have unbelief and a hardened heart – we no longer believe Jesus is risen and that it is truly finished…  He completed all things on the cross – death was defeated, no longer having a sting.  Do we get that?  Do we truly believe and walk out – that death has no power, is not to be avoided due to fear, cannot just take you out because it wants to?  Many of us say yes, but walk out a fear of dying and it shows.  Listen, everyone wants to go to Heaven, but no one wants to die to get there – as they say, whoever they are?  But lets be honest, its true, isn’t it?  We still believe, to live is gain.  We still believe, death has a sting to it, don’t we?  I know many people who spend almost every moment of everyday avoiding death…  The Bible calls this seeking to save your own life.  It is likely most of you, like me, realize how silly it is to even try to save your own lives – but we tried, didn’t we?

When the body dies – the Spirit and Soul are born anew and finally free of this prison of death (physical body) which entraps us constantly.  The Lord was showing me times in my life I feared death – and everyone does by the way, regardless of what they say – as a matter of fact, you can often tell what someone fears by how they fixate on it in speech, trying to overcompensate for that fear by convincing others they have none, when they are actually trying to convince themselves – but anyway… The Lord was revealing to me times I fear death, as well and the reasons behind it.  When we do fear death – we will pretend we have some control over it, like we can command death to come or not come – forgetting just who holds the keys to death and life – Jesus.  Jesus took back those keys, remember?  So it is silly to try and steal those keys out of His hands, as if we even could. 

Some reasons we may fear death are:

Our soul knows in truth we are not ready to meet the Lord – like we have too many things undone yet Spiritually so that dying would not be a gain in our lives, but detrimental.  Deep down we know this, whether we want to admit it, our soul knows – so there is a constant battle within fighting and delaying death continually.  We need more time to repent, be cleansed and purged, to be made purified and white so Jesus can harvest us in His time.

Other times, we have too much of the World within us yet – so we cling to it with all our might.  We have not gotten to that place on our journey yet, in which we are in the World, not of it.  During these times we simply have way too much enjoyment or connection to those in the World, forgetting eye has not seen and ear has not heard what great things – better things await us in Heaven.

Something else we do is convince ourselves that we are more important than we really are – like others would collapse without our presence and some even convince themselves they are here to save the lost single-handedly.  We believe we are needed for the Gospel message to be preached and without us personally present, many would be lost – the Word actually says we are to make disciples of all men, but remember the Lord has many vessels He inhabits for His perfect design.  When we do this, we think way higher of ourselves than we ought to.  We have set ourselves up somewhat as little gods, in which the World cannot be saved unless we are in it.  Remember – Jesus is the only way to the Father, we are just used to assist Him in a most precious way.

The Bible tells us many are called but few are chosen…  Those chosen no longer entertain the sting of death.  They have a surrendered life unto the Lord – saying use me Lord for Your glory – without strings attached.  No longer pre-occupied with tiptoeing through the minefield, avoiding every storm like it is the one which will bring you down once and for all.  The chosen see Jesus as the fourth man inside the fire – no longer avoiding every fire.  They realize their names are written in the book of life, eternally and whatever comes their way – life or death, whatever is permitted is in His hands because they are – which is a constant and real struggle I personally deal with, so I really know how difficult this is to hand over to the Lord, but we must do so anyway.

Coronavirus has been a proving ground and an awesome time for us to reflect and take inventory of whether our walks align with our talks.  Its revealed who is scared to death of death, who is boasting on how much control they have over death, who will go to great measures like vaccinations and double masks, just to save their lives and who is not completely surrendered with a hardened heart, not trusting the Lord to rule over the flesh, rather than save it. 

Let’s read a portion of Mathew 16 – this is right after Jesus died and rose again and as I am reading, lets ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to us personally where we fall into this story.  Are we still clinging to control?  Are we avoiding death?  Have we not laid our lives down fully for His usage?  We need Him to show us, especially regarding death where our words do not line up with our actions.  Why?  Because a storm is coming, a time of great testing where Jesus will call the qualified only…  That only those who fear no evil will be able to tread – that those who have decreased will shine.  Will you go into the fire with Jesus?  That is the question…  Will you tend to the sick or still fear the sting of death?  Do we still say yes Lord with our lips, but avoid being sent when it doesn’t align picture perfect in our logical minds?  Most all who claim to be Christ followers will not follow Him into the leper’s den – they are those who I spoke about earlier – they are not moved by compassion, unless they have a guarantee the fire will not burn them.  What if going into the fire for the sake of another would burn you a little?  Would you still go?

Knowing He calls the qualified only – Have you considered being qualified might look differently than you expected?  Here’s an example of a qualification you may not have expected…  Please consider this – You’ve been marked with the seal of God on your forehead, called and the Lord is sending you directly into battle.  Guess where the battlefield is?  A hospital and I know I speak of this often, because it’s a walk I’ve walked.  It is a hospital, laden with sick people who are on the brink of death and in this scenario you are the only messenger within miles of this hospital.  In this hospital are hundreds of dying people, who are passing from this life to the next and you are the only one being called to reach them as their final call to meet Jesus.  Can Jesus move us by compassion enough to enter into the places others fear to tread?  But back to the qualification part…  What if the only qualification required is a vaccine?  Would you go?  You see, when being sent you must lay down every single thing which separates us from saying yes Lord, especially confronting what you fear the most.  Does that make sense?  As Jesus tears down strongholds, anything which is above Him in our minds, must go.  I’m going to be honest here, I don’t know if I would go – I really do not think these scenarios can be fully known until that day we are called and sent.  People often ask me about the vaccine and if I am going to get it or have.   And its like my spirit/heart answers internally before the words come out of my mouth – No and not unless I have to… Its like He already placed what I am to say before I say it… So I’ve been pondering what He means, unless I have too – and this is not to say I have any answers, because I don’t – but I keep wondering if He is calling us to that moment of placing everything on the alter and it may not even be required of us, as He will send the lamb in the bush to be offered up instead – Who is Jesus, He paid it all, already.  So the question is not so much will we get it but are we willing to…  Just how far and wide will we go to be in total and complete surrender to Him?  Or will we still hold back a piece of our lives for ourselves, like we are in control in anyway, form or fashion?

Many of us have already said yes Lord – we will follow You to the end of the Earth, laying our lives down daily, every moment and yet…  We still keep a piece of our lives that we still refuse to hold onto loosely – fearing death, don’t we?  I only used the vaccine because it is a timely area of contention in which everyone seems to have their own opinion about – believers and non-believers, it sure wasn’t meant to offend or suggest what anyone else should or should not do, according to the leading of the Lord.  And like I said – Jesus has already answered for me – I will only get it if I have too…  Because I trust fully in Him, should He require that of me – well, I just don’t know – but I sure won’t let my children get it.  In the meantime, when people ask I tell them I already have immunity – I giggle because that satisfies them every single time – they just don’t know my immunity is Jesus – no matter what comes my way – HE IS THE WAY, THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE within me and you and possibly I do have a natural immunity still as well, only God knows the fullness in truth about this.

Most of you all know, I already had coronavirus and at times still struggle with its effects – but I’ve learned so much through this qualifying process and am very grateful.  I first off needed a big spanking for spouting my prideful mouth off numerous times, discounting and mocking the fear of others who are scared to death of it and I had even gone so far to think they were delusional it was real and all sorts of disgusting beliefs I had.  I make myself sick sometimes when I look back and see how uncompassionate I have been towards humanity, who our Lord loves with all He is.  When the Lord places you within the fire, you attain the loving compassion and strength to encourage others as they go through fire, to pull them out with mercy – not mocking.  It is within the test a testimony is born and the Lord uses each one of us to give glory to Him in our own shortcomings how Jesus saves.  So He used me and now hopefully, many of you will not have to walk out the redemptive discipline of the Lord I received – this pearl I share, may you receive so that it is not required of you.  That is my prayer anyway.  So for now, this is simply a thorn in my flesh – to keep me humble, my heart is one of flesh so I am moved by compassion continually towards those who are suffering in a greater way now than before.  So from that respect, it is a really good thing!  And the rest of the testimony most of you know of that goes with this part – because I already shared it.

Oh I guess I better read the Scripture the Lord wanted me to share today. 

It is in Mark 16, starting in verse 9:

Now when Jesus was risen early the first day of the week, he appeared first to Mary Magdalene, out of whom he had cast seven devils.

10 And she went and told them that had been with him, as they mourned and wept.

11 And they, when they had heard that he was alive, and had been seen of her, believed not.

12 After that he appeared in another form unto two of them, as they walked, and went into the country.

13 And they went and told it unto the residue: neither believed they them.

14 Afterward he appeared unto the eleven as they sat at meat, and upbraided them with their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they believed not them which had seen him after he was risen.

15 And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.

16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.

17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.

19 So then after the Lord had spoken unto them, he was received up into heaven, and sat on the right hand of God.

20 And they went forth, and preached every where, the Lord working with them, and confirming the word with signs following. Amen.

Now, unfortunately I cannot teach this truth… I can share it, but it is your choice whether to receive it or not for instruction.  I wish it was something I could just impart within you all – like a deposit of truth, but I cannot.  Just like the disciples who questioned Mary actually seeing Jesus, many do not believe He defeated death and holds all the keys to death and life – so they are still seeking to save their own lives.  It seems we have two ditches here – both doing the same thing…  One ditch has tons of people looking to take a vaccine to save their lives and another ditch has tons of people avoiding a vaccine to save themselves and both are fear based generally speaking.  What if it is neither?  What if the Lord wants us to place ourselves upon the alter like Abraham placed Isaac and then just glance over to the right a little – to put our eyes right upon our Lord Jesus as that lamb who saves so that rather than ourselves being offered up – it is Him?  To just trust and believe, to look upon Him as our way of escape of all things, especially death and the fear of its sting.

It is only the pure in heart who can see God – seeing Him in the midst of every single thing which tries to rule over us.  Everything.  You see Mary believed and was intimately involved with Jesus before He died, so that when He rose again she recognized Him immediately.  All the other disciples were logically questioning Him to a degree that when He arose, they didn’t recognize Him – they still had unbelief with hardened hearts.  I pray that isn’t any of us and I thank the Lord for the trials He sends to purify us so we learn not only to rely on Him but how to rely on Him.  He gives us instruction needed to walk out our callings every day.  When we embrace the how to’s of sharing the Gospel – which is how Jesus walked the Earth, we can instruct many, just as He did and be used as His hands and feet, even to the point of greater things – wow!

I do not know why some are healed and others are not.  It seems I have more questions than answers, but regardless of all the why’s we can believe and have faith in HIM.  We can believe that all things are purposed to give Him glory and really – what else matters?  Is anything really more important than Him getting the glory only He deserves. 

So quite possibly none of this I’ve shared makes sense to you or even made you bristle a bit.  I know I fall so short articulating much of what the Lord has pressed within me to share.  Please hear my heart on this, the cry of my heart truly is this…  Before you boast about just what you will do and not do, please go to the Lord and ask Him what He might require of you.  So many right now are boldly declaring things which they truly do not know what they are saying and it is heart breaking.  The truth is…  We are facing a journey before us we’ve never walked out before and the last thing we should do is lean upon our own understanding with pre-conceived notions.  What we think is happening or how it is happening or what we will be facing – because you all, we really do not know.  Until we are called to walk something out – we don’t know how we will walk out that trial.  We like to think we have greater faith than we have quite often and we like to think our hearts have no hardened areas within them – but we don’t for sure know that, if we are honest.  Only Jesus knows.  Only He knows what it takes to purify us and cleanse us of self.  When we declare something in our own boldness, rest assured we will be tested to insure our actions align with our words.  Like I said, what is coming is going to try the best of us, make no mistake about it.  We may say we will not do this or do that… But we don’t have babies crying for food out of hunger and not eating for five days.  We haven’t lost all ability yet to function here, have we?  We aren’t living in alley’s, without phones and such.  Some people would sell their souls for the internet alone if pushed to the limit.  So this is a wakeup call for us to learn to walk in humility and thankfulness that the Lord doesn’t give us more to handle than we are able with Him.  Please don’t walk this path alone, as if you are stronger than what you are…  You just never know what obstacles the Lord will place into our lives so we no longer become a stumbling block for others and move with Him now as He breaks all pride within us.

Again… I cannot stress this enough…  Please stop saying what you will and will not do – do not tempt the Lord your God that way.  We tempt Him when we make ourselves appear to be stronger than we actually are – it is then through our weakness He possesses our souls while we lean into and abide in Him. 

Because in doing so… we are walking as blind men and women.  Romans 1:22 says it best:

Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools.

One of my greatest fears is we will be caught unaware…  That we will miss God showing up, when He comes in a way we do not recognize, just like the disciples did that we read about in Mark.  It was not so much they did not believe He would appear, it was just that He appeared in a way they did not recognize because it was different than how they imagined He would appear.  Sometimes we get so focused on the darkness we no longer turn towards the light.

Jesus told us to pray we not be led into temptation…  Pride is a sure way of being led into temptation, no doubt.  All of our righteousness – good decisions, things we’ve overcome, the sin we no longer are engaging in, deeds and service are like filthy rags in comparison to the righteousness of Jesus.

Self-righteousness is wrong all the way around.  I used to be so self-righteous it sickens me to think about it.  Anything good within us just simply reflects how dead we are to self – we really have nothing to boast about anymore, we are dead – it is no longer us who lives, but Him who lives within us.  When we rely on our own righteousness we tend to isolate ourselves and can hardly be used by the Lord, creating a frustration within us…  We want to be sent out, but if sent – people reject us because they do not recognize us and no one is healed and made whole – we operate out of our own power, not the Lord’s – its like when those spirits said – Paul I recognize, Jesus I recognize – but who are you?  Let’s read it –

Acts 19-

15 And the evil spirit answered and said, Jesus I know, and Paul I know; but who are ye?

16 And the man in whom the evil spirit was leaped on them, and overcame them, and prevailed against them, so that they fled out of that house naked and wounded.

This is what happens when we isolate ourselves, trying to do things in the Name of Jesus out of our own power rather than His – we are rejected, it pushes wounds within us and hopelessness occurs.  The Lord allows it so that we learn apart from Him we can do nothing and God forbid we start conforming others to ourselves, rather than pointing to Him.  Those who are self-righteous, judge others by their flesh achievements and shortcomings because they themselves think themselves to be more Holy or versed in the ways of the Lord – they proclaim verbally without proclaiming it through demonstration… saying follow after me in my footsteps as an example on how to be and what to do and what to say – rather than pointing to Jesus.  These are the most difficult of people to deal with – they see everyone as unclean, but themselves.  You’ve heard of “being God’s gift to women, right?”…  Well they think they are God’s gift to humanity… lol

Our mouths do not need to boast on ourselves when our life reflects the righteousness of Jesus.  But those who still have beast tendencies of the ego/pride of this life – want to elevate themselves to make up for their lack and remain hidden.  But that’s a whole other story.  The whole point is… Whatever you boast of in this season, will be required of you to be tested in during the next one.  Mark my words, it shall happen and it is good for the saving of our souls – so be mindful of every word right now that crosses your lips – because a day is soon coming in which we give an account for every idle word spoken – unless we’ve humbled ourselves and repented.  Amen?

I know many disregard our part in the salvation process… But remember, the Lord will not go against our own freewill.  Our will is strong, our desire to live is so very strong that it needs broken on every level, leaving no stone unturned.  We have a choice on whether we surrender fully to the Lord Jesus.  By placing our lives into His hands, He will begin to reveal all the ways in which we seek to save our own lives – plucking them out by the roots one by one, thankfully – He has to do this, we wouldn’t even know where to start. 

Okay… Before I go…  I need to share something sort of instructional the Lord is pressing upon me.  If you have your Bibles handy, we are going to read a portion of Mathew 18. Hold on…. Let me put on my “Momma hat and get my fryin pan” because I’m gettin ready to put some of you in time out…. Lololol  You all know that I love you, right?

Listen you all – Please, please stop trying to scare people to death to get them to turn to Jesus.  When we look to Jesus and His ways we will see the perfect example of the most precise and perfect way to lead others and reach those we love.  If Jesus didn’t do it – we shouldn’t either.  Period.  He leads we follow or we are going on our way, leaning on our own understanding – living a fruitless life most often.  The only time Jesus even showed extreme passion was when they were exchanging money in His Father’s house.  Outside of that, He didn’t threaten people to surrender to Him or His ways – He didn’t even give satan the whatfor, did He?

I must admit I am frustrated… I have a deep passion placed within me for the little ones and yes, I am often mocked for it as well, so be it.  I really don’t care – I must be fully surrendered to the Lord alone on how He’s called me.  But anyway, the past week, littles ones (children of the Lord) have been contacting me a lot – crying in tears, scared to death by what people are saying who profess to come in the name of the Lord.  Many right now like satan are transforming themselves into angels of light – but their source is wrong.  How do we know?  We know the source is wrong, when the message does not reflect Jesus’s message and what is said is not aligning with Scripture.  Jesus is not tricky…  He was very clear on WHAT we are to be conscientious about regarding the last days.  IF He thought we would be consumed by something, He warned us in His word and much of what people are warning about has absolutely nothing to do with the Written Word.  When we do this – we are on our own… you realize that right?  When people do this – they can’t back it up in Scripture, unless they twist it to fit.  Which is fine – you be you, Jesus won’t lose one of His own…  However – when dealing with little ones, beware… and proceed with extreme care and caution.

Again…  people are contacting me in tears, fighting with their spouses, having divisions in their homes – this is not of the Lord and the enemy is thrilled he is able to use compromised Christians to accomplish his desire to kill, steal and destroy. 

I was listening to Michael’s sharing of Deuteronomy this morning and finally, I received the greatest of blessing by the Scripture of what the Lord has repeatedly spoken to me in my heart regarding little ones and it couldn’t have been more timely.  I was overjoyed and sooooo very grateful.

I always knew the Lord has commanded us to watch over the “little ones” and every single time we study we discuss at the leading of the Holy Spirit to stop eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil – and here today – like a beaming nourishing light, it was confirmed in the Word of God.  Here it is, it is in Deuteronomy 1:39 –

 39 Moreover your little ones, which ye said should be a prey, and your children, which in that day had no knowledge between good and evil, they shall go in thither, and unto them will I give it, and they shall possess it.

It is plain, simple and easily understood – those who say it is okay for the little ones, children, to be prey are speaking against the Lord’s heart – it also is saying the little ones have no knowledge of good and evil and they are who will enter into the promised land and possess it.  If you read on, you will see that all the others must enter in through the wilderness by way of the Red Sea – through a spiritual battle basically.

I’m going to read it again – and let the written words speak in ways I cannot.

Lastly, let’s read Mathew 18, which further explains the consequence of harming a little one…  And just to clarify for context sake – a little one is a CONVERTED CHILD OF GOD – the pure in heart, not just a child of God – but a CONVERTED ONE.  Converted here means – a change of mind, to turn away from what you once were.  So you can see why it pertains to knowledge of good and evil.  Converted children, the least of these, no longer hunger and thirst for any evil knowledge whatsoever, eating only from the Tree of Life, Jesus.

Let’s read it –

Mathew 18 ~

At the same time came the disciples unto Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?

And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them,

And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.

But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!

Wherefore if thy hand or thy foot offend thee, cut them off, and cast them from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life halt or maimed, rather than having two hands or two feet to be cast into everlasting fire.

And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire.

10 Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.

11 For the Son of man is come to save that which was lost.

Do you see the correlation to the Promised Land in Deuteronomy and the Kingdom of Heaven here in Mathew?  It is the same thing… wow!  Thank You Lord!

The woe comes upon the one who offends a converted little child.  There is not woe upon a hurt child who cries out to the Father in injury…. The woe is upon the one who wounds the child.  And one day, very soon…  Jesus will wipe every tear from our eyes and with fire in His eyes look upon the ones who brought painful offence to those who like a child, were harmless as doves, suffering quite often in silence and never ever repaid evil with evil.

Okay…. Well this is a good place to stop – and I thank you for your time, I just had to share this with you all today.  Please forgive me if I offended anyone, that truly is not my intention whatsoever.  We are all growing in the Lord and loving and learning together.

It is my prayer that we all be instant in season and out of it – that we be salt and light at the leading of the Lord in all our interactions with others.  I pray the Lord breaks our hearts for what breaks His and that we consider His ways in all we say, do and think before we speak and share.  And that above all else, we lay our lives and wills down for the sake of love Himself so that everything we do is encompassed with a touch of Him, because God is love and in Him are no shadows of darkness, only light.  May He alone be our example we follow.  Amen.

Are You Truly A Bride? Broadcast Transcript from April 28, 2021 with Angela ~

Good Afternoon Blessings Beloved – thank you for joining me today on this ROF Ministries Broadcast.  Yayyyy, I am so very, very excited about our talk today and about those to come!  As a matter of fact I am so very excited to talk about THE BRIDE OF JESUS, I can hardly contain myself.  My heart is full of joy to overflowing, I am probably going to gush a lot!  I sure pray you are uplifted with the hope of Jesus’s appearing from this day forward and that He stirs within you much loving peace to just hold on and keep looking to Him, the one who your soul loves.

Let’s hit the ground running, I can’t wait any longer!

Why are we even doing this study and why does it even matter?  And also, feeling so low most of the time I thought – for sure being the Bride was about furthest from my grasp and yet, after all these years – there is a constant in my life of yearning, longing for and awaiting Jesus’s return and embrace.  He put this in us – and we cannot explain it, define it (although I am going to try) let alone qualify for it…  And every single time I even try to make myself ready, I fall on my face like a toddler learning to walk and I’ve never really gotten the fact, I am loved just because – I am loved.  Some of you are the same as me.  So in all this…  I am gonna share a pearl – the main requirement to being appointed as the Bride – like all things is much simpler than humans tell you, is this…  THE BRIDE IS IN LOVE WITH JESUS.  Whew – now we can get somewhere, can’t we?  Did you hear the most important part?  IN LOVE, not loves Jesus, but is IN LOVE WITH HIM.  Many believe it is the same thing, but it isn’t.  You can love many people, but only a special one are you IN LOVE with and sadly many have not ever experienced this high level of love which supercedes the flesh and lusts and loving someone for what they can do for you – narcissistic love – focuses on yourself, not the other person.  These people even in their time of giving – give to get something beneficial to them.

When you are IN LOVE with Jesus – you have chosen the better part – HIM, just HIM…  Not because He feeds you, nurtures you, protects or guides… IN LOVE replicates intimacy – and HIS BRIDE has an exchange of love with Him – His Bride reciprocates His love and SHARES IN IT…  Here’s the pearl – as the Bride – Jesus can actually partake in and receive love from You…  And that is the element reserved only for a select few – HIS BRIDE.  Jesus loves all, yet, He does not share in love with all… 

You remember how upset the disciples got when Mary was sitting at His feet anointing His body with oil because they wanted to sell the oil for profit and thought she was wasting oil?  Same concept…  Mary represents the BRIDE WHO IS IN LOVE with Jesus and HE RECEIVED LOVE FROM HER…  the disciples represent those who love Jesus, they are very caught up in works, deeds, etc… 

Today’s subtitle is —  ARE YOU TRULY A BRIDE?

If you are a Bride – during this season you are mocked and scoffed a lot.  You also are longing for and loving His appearing – which just happens to be mostly WHY you are mocked and scoffed by those who are caught up in signs and theories, or those simply not ready or prefer He has delayed FOR ANY REASON whatsoever, Those with this spirit of accusation mostly have a mind of carnality focused on the World too much (like the disciples were – they think logically, not Spiritually), it is obvious they are not IN LOVE with Jesus – although they say they love Him and the saddest and worst part is – we are mocked and scoffed not because we believe He is returning – most often they do too – but because we LONG FOR it. 

So for those of you who are truly IN LOVE with Jesus and the pain of being separated from Him most days causes your heart to ache for more of Him, I dedicate this Bride study to each one of you – as I consecrate all the pearls I will share unto the Glory of One – our Bridegroom, Jesus, the love of our life and for which we lay down every ounce of ourselves for the betrothal to Him and what awaits us when that day of consummation fully arrives. 

Those who have this spirit of accusation pointed towards us are found in 2 Peter 3, which I will read in a bit, but first lets clarify what manner they come in to rail against us.  This spirit mocks by saying Jesus is not coming soon, often saying you are foolish for longing for His return and in essence without saying it – they are saying, “Where is He?”  If you remember Jesus upon raising from the tomb appeared only to females and His own disciples mocked and questioned these females in such a way – the same is happening to us now.  Please note – they don’t deny His coming – they mock the promise which comes with it by mocking those of us longing for it.  Again, they do not mock His coming – but the promise it brings to those who are earnestly awaiting and longing for what that day brings.

Let’s read it by the Written Word – 2 Peter 3

This second epistle, beloved, I now write unto you; in both which I stir up your pure minds by way of remembrance:

That ye may be mindful of the words which were spoken before by the holy prophets, and of the commandment of us the apostles of the Lord and Saviour:

Knowing this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers, walking after their own lusts,

And saying, Where is the promise of his coming? for since the fathers fell asleep, all things continue as they were from the beginning of the creation.

  • Pure minds
  • Mindful
  • Last days
  • Scoffers who walk after their own lusts – desires, not Jesus as their focused desire
  • Say – where is the PROMISE of His coming
  • It happened then and is happening now

For this they willingly are ignorant of, that by the word of God the heavens were of old, and the earth standing out of the water and in the water:

Whereby the world that then was, being overflowed with water, perished:

But the heavens and the earth, which are now, by the same word are kept in store, reserved unto fire against the day of judgment and perdition of ungodly men.

  • Those who do not hold to the promise of His coming are WILLFULLY doing so ignorantly, asleep, not able to discern, ungodly – just as in the Days of Noah

But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.

The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

  • Due to the Lord’s beautiful heart of compassion, He is longsuffering to delay His coming so all these will repent.

10 But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night; in the which the heavens shall pass away with a great noise, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat, the earth also and the works that are therein shall be burned up.

11 Seeing then that all these things shall be dissolved, what manner of persons ought ye to be in all holy conversation and godliness,

12 Looking for and hasting unto the coming of the day of God, wherein the heavens being on fire shall be dissolved, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat?

  • LOOKING FOR AND HASTING (earnestly desire) unto the coming day of the Lord – Did you hear that?  What manner are we supposed to operate in?  What conversations are holy and we are to be having?  Regarding Jesus’s return, looking for it always, including speaking of it…

13 Nevertheless we, according to his promise, look for new heavens and a new earth, wherein dwelleth righteousness.

  • I don’t know about you – but I cannot wait until the new heaven and new earth where only righteousness exists

14 Wherefore, beloved, seeing that ye look for such things, be diligent that ye may be found of him in peace, without spot, and blameless.

  • Those who look for His return are diligent – found in Him, without spot and blameless

15 And account that the longsuffering of our Lord is salvation; even as our beloved brother Paul also according to the wisdom given unto him hath written unto you;

16 As also in all his epistles, speaking in them of these things; in which are some things hard to be understood, which they that are unlearned and unstable wrest, as they do also the other scriptures, unto their own destruction.

  • These words are hard to understand by logic – only the spiritual knows that which is revealed spiritually the clarity of the word. 

17 Ye therefore, beloved, seeing ye know these things before, beware lest ye also, being led away with the error of the wicked, fall from your own steadfastness.

  • Beloved – Bride – you have been given pearls of wisdom spiritually to this truth but beware to heed to and entertain the error (practices/beliefs) of the wicked or you too may fall away and not remain steadfast in looking for and earnestly desiring the Day of the Lord.

18 But grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever. Amen.

  • Increase in your knowledge about Jesus – (tree of life – not knowledge of good and evil) – more confirmation on what He has had us on this particular journey lately.

This teaching is so much more about our personal and intimate relationship with Jesus than anything else, so that we may grow and deepen our love for Him – it is getting harder to endure the scoffers, but the Promise of His coming is so strengthening, isn’t it?  We are not here to point out what flaws others have – that is not the purpose of our study – but rather let His words embrace you, hold you tight and tell you – He’s got you, beloved.

You know, I am mocked a lot, made fun of and all sorts of things – especially when I say I am homesick for Jesus – I’ve been laughed at for even believing I am betrothed to Him, now I am starting to just laugh with them at myself – Why?  Because I know something they don’t…  I also know if they are not earnestly desiring His return from a love of the heart – He likely is not coming for them…  So if you are like me – you’ve got a secret, a secret and promise of the heart between you and Jesus, hold that closely, lest it be used against you – and never forget this, its something I encourage my own soul with every time this happens to me –

Revelation 3 – I’ll read it all to get the context because I don’t like taking Scripture out of context, then I will share my pearl of the message…

I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.

Behold, I will make them of the synagogue of Satan, which say they are Jews, and are not, but do lie; behold, I will make them to come and worship before thy feet, and to know that I have loved thee.

10 Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I also will keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon all the world, to try them that dwell upon the earth.

11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.

  • Resembles some of us so much – seems like we are losing strength by the day and everything is falling apart around us – yet – we’ve kept His word in our hearts and not denied Jesus’s Name when mocked
  • Obviously the attacks are coming from within the brethren in this passage, not from without the church – so it is those we fellowship with
  • If we keep patient with Jesus and continue to wait He will make sure we are kept from the hour of temptation coming upon everyone else
  • BUT HERE IS MY FAVORITE PART – the part I cling to constantly… over and over again…  All those who lied to us and about us…  Guess what?  THEY WILL KNOW JESUS HAS LOVED US all along… Every single time someone betrays me, abuses me, curses me, lies to me or hurts me – I lovingly look unto my Beloved, to Jesus and think… One day, that person is going to know JESUS LOVES ME and if He loves, I don’t need anyone else’s love to make it through this life or the one to come.  Just His.

I never seek vengeance – I just am not like that – it has nothing to do with me, its all Him residing within me – the only type of vengeance so to speak I do have within me is that all those who hurt me realize on that day – JESUS LOVED ME when they didn’t.  That’s all.

So I have a heart test for us all – Holy Spirit please enlighten us to how You know us better than we know ourselves.  Please help us search our hearts and see ourselves in truth, giving us the gift of repentance and preparation in that should Jesus return sooner than we think we are ready of the heart – pure and seeking Him above all else in the World, including people, places, power or things.  Amen.

The heart test – keeping it real with the Lord and mainly ourselves…

If you knew Jesus was coming tomorrow evening – is there anything whatsoever you would have to do to be ready?  And if the answer is yes, you are not ready for His coming and for many of you – you are pleading with Him to delay His coming in an unrighteous way.  Okay… breathe, you all still love me?  That was harsh wasn’t it – please forgive me, sometimes I do not like delivering that sort of message.  It will only get better from here – I promise.

Now…  Before you start making a laundry list of do’s and don’ts…  which is not what the Lord means by being ready – let me re-phrase that question…  Are you sooooo IN LOVE with Jesus that you not only can barely await another day without His return, but earnestly desire it that NOTHING would stand in the way of you running towards Your Bridegroom at His appearing? 

You see… when we think of readiness… we immediately go to performance don’t we?  A checklist of how worthy or unworthy are – but THE BRIDE IS IN LOVE with JESUS…  She is covered by His love, ugh…. You have to see this – it is a matter of the heart, not performance.  I know this is hard to grasp but we’ve never been loved like that, have we?

Which is why…. Jesus is a jealous lover… He knows only His love can satisfy the wayward soul, the problem is, we don’t know it quite often.

So this is an awesome place to stop for today – I don’t expect a lot of participants in the Bride study, maybe we will be pleasantly surprised – realizing there is only a remnant, but for those who truly are in love with Jesus or seeking to fall in love with Him, I promise you will be loved on in so many ways throughout our Bridal study.

You all… Please don’t try to awaken love before its time, in yourself and especially others.  Let’s leave those details for Jesus, our Beloved, Who perfectly knows how to embrace the hearts of His own.  He’s got this, just like He’s got us, He’s got all His own and He has an appointed plan and purpose for all of us, in His own will and timing.

I’m really excited and so looking forward to walking this journey of love with each of you.  I pray you have a joyful Jesus day today and know just how much He loves you and so do I.

Wrapping Up The Beast Study ~Broadcast Transcript from April 22, 2021 with Angela

Wrapping Up The Beast Study – 4-22-21

Good Morning and God Bless each of you Beloved.  Thank you for joining me today and this ROF Ministries broadcast.  What surreal times we live in, its sort of hard to grasp all that the Lord is doing lately, knowing His spirit is being poured out on all flesh.  It’s like He has had me laser focused on one thing the past few weeks – Himself.  I know it is somewhat irritating to others who are around me and in all this I really wonder if spiritually speaking He is sweeping some of us away into the bridal chamber of intimacy and love?  There is sort of this disconnect, naturally and supernaturally, beyond our control happening, in which anything or anyone outside of Him can no longer find placement in our lives and it feels sort of weird right now on every level.  I guess I wasn’t quite shown “how” Jesus would do this, only believing He would.  So where do we go from here?  Just only to keep surrendering to His leading, the still small voice in the mix of all the others…  the voice which leads us out of the captivity of the sinful World and the events – I call them voices of whirlwinds, which try to keep us running to and fro… to just sit, rest in Him and be still. 

These days it is almost as if you are looking upon yourself from an outside view – I hear the theories, the temptations, the voices and such – but am removed from the influence of it all.  My heart has been captured by One, Jesus… and equaled to Him, nothing else really matters.  This is where mixture is purified from within us and He alone becomes the One our soul longs for – nothing else satisfies any longer and we turn the page of searching all things to only seeking Him – all the wells have dried up but His, all the fruit from the many speaking trees are not tasteful any longer and we find ourselves finding the one in which our soul loves… Jesus.

It is written in Exodus 20:3 that we are to have no other gods before Him.  Well, people talk a lot about this it seems, but… few if any talk about having the god of self before Him – which is the precursor to many woes.  When we have the god of self above our Lord on high, we often walk around with a complaint in our hearts that comes out of our mouths, we perceive that all our lives we have been a victim and we are pre-occupied with what other’s opinions are of us.  I just told on myself and my own beastly flesh nature of my old man, didn’t I?  You see once the Lord opens your eyes to the truth of you – He then begins delivering us from the old creature ways – but He doesn’t deliver us until He reveals whatever that struggle is to us first and then once we surrender and cooperate with Him – He changes us from the inside out.  Then… we begin to see that same beast dna characteristic in others and it can get quite overwhelming at times.  The very sin nature we are all born into is – ego, self-importance, a striving to prove we matter.  The New Creature knows they already matter to the Lord – with Him being first, the old creature desires to be worshiped and admired by others is a dead end in every way.  So the Lord doesn’t permit that to grow within us.  We decrease, He increases.

Many of us have been looking for placement, only to find our only place is hidden in Him.  As the Bride continues to make herself ready through total surrender it is only He who sits upon the throne of our hearts.  Our hearts are an alter and once purified, He takes His position within…  Words can never express my expectancy of sharing about the Bride, let alone how my heart flutters at the thought of the reality of it all.  I warn you now…. I may gush a bit, especially about the topic of romance… I also am severely lacking to give words in the natural what only can be realized within the heart of the Spirit – everything we are going to read and study is a matter of the heart and I come up short in so many ways to speak that which I know within, but I will do my best and I pray the Holy Spirit be my guide and open the eyes and ears of your heart to receive.

IF you have answered the call which has gone out, awakened and finding yourself already IN LOVE with Jesus, then this study will give you much expectancy and excitement with increasing desire.  And if you are seeking Him with your whole heart, not quite IN LOVE with Him yet, but you want to be – it will fuel the fire already placed within you.  But, if you are still entangled with the World too much or what is going on inside it – you likely will find this study boring and going against your mind and flesh nature.  I hope you will still listen and be open to the wooing of Jesus by His pure love anyway.

Last time we talked…. I spoke on the Beast DNA – I also want to reiterate I spoke on the Spiritual Mark of the Beast upon the hearts of many, something each one of us is born into and a course to overcome…  The reason the Lord pressed me to speak on that is because it is rarely, if ever discussed – most who discuss the beast do so from a physical stance – but the real mark, starts first in the heart – upon the alter of the heart – we must ask, who is on the throne?  The throne of our hearts who are believers must reserve that place for Jesus alone – Only He can complete us in such a precious way – although we try to fill that void with many lovers and lusts and even self, most often or knowledge or whatever the case maybe, it’s a process of purification we must walk out individually, then corporately as Jesus Himself will form and bind His bride together as one.

So before we actually begin talking about the BRIDE DNA – the characteristics and seal… I want to say thank you for your questions – I love your questions and how we are all growing together!  I have to say there were way more questions about the Beast DNA that we discussed than any other topic we’ve covered so far – which is good, its very good – that means the Lord Jesus is opening our eyes to His truth, not man’s truth.  He is stirring up questions within you all based on His Word, rather than just swallowing what you’ve been told.

I will say again…. I know nothing personally and anything I do know is in His word and given by Him without presumption or reading between the lines or adding of mixture/conspiracies and such.  I must say this again… all that He showed me takes a spiritual understanding, it will confound the wise because it is simple, so simple a child can understand.  For this reason it may come across boring to those who are seeking a sign or an elaborate thrill of conspiracy and there are many right now trying to lure Jesus followers away by enticing them in a sketchy way…  But rest assured, if we hold tight to Jesus, remembering He will not lose one of His own – we will find peace and comfort within the storm. 

Since you did have questions and good ones too – I need to clarify a couple things before we study about the Bride, so everything is put to rest and we walk forward as one in truth.

  • Again, we were talking spiritually – not looking for outward things in the natural or signs – we had a call to repent from all the ways the beast has touched and entangled our hearts so we may turn from it, never to go back or look back at his ways/doings.
  • The reason the heart is so entwined with the beast is because worship always starts in the heart – what you love you worship and uphold and we learned the other day our greatest fall is similar to lucifer’s when self is on the throne of our hearts.  When we become lovers of self, we then set ourselves up as gods… just as in the fall and throughout the Bible.  It is the fruit offered by lucifer to have our eyes opened to good and evil for the sake of knowledge and leaven always puffs one up and if not cleansed from the leaven of self, we will be ruined.
  • We discussed 6 being the number of man – I just want to remind us how we are created in God’s image, the word says “our” image – the trinity… but if we do not have the anointed covering of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit – which serves as a protected and complete bubble around us – the opposite of that is 666 – the marking of a man/beast.  To keep it simple – you are either a man/beast – old creature or a new creature in Jesus, having the seal of God.  It is important to note man was created on the 6th day… so it all fits, spiritually for those with ears to hear and eyes to see.
  • Sadly many in the church are looking for outward signs and marking, oblivious to the beginning of it being internal only to manifest outwardly. 
  • I cannot reemphasize this enough – the mark is both spiritual and physical.  If you are looking only for the physical you will miss the spiritual altogether and remain or miss the inward signs to repent of altogether.  Which is the scariest part to me and grieves me in ways you cannot imagine.  Take the vaccine for example – not all those who have taken the vaccine are doomed eternally, but if you neglect to see the spiritual you may declare one is set to perish who is actually marked for salvation.  The vaccine is not the mark of the beast although it is allowed as a plumbline for us to measure ourselves by in testing – not measure others.  Just how far will we go to save our own lives – again, ego/beast nature to save self above all else.
  • Everything our Father does is complete – Nebuchadnezzar is a perfect example of what not to follow in place of our Lord – he was a Babylonian ruler who made a statue presumably of himself, containing representations of all the nations (here’s the physical) and required all bow down and worship this statue upon command, but Shadrack, Mesciek and Abednego (who were government leaders during that time) would not bow down to worship any other god.  They ended up in the fire, but Jesus was in there with them.  So see – if you only take things in the context of natural, you will miss the spiritual side altogether – the richness of the account is not found in the natural side of events, but the fullness is gleaned by the spiritual revelations of looking into the fire – not observing the idol made, which is natural. 
  • Babylonian rule is both natural and spiritual and prevalent today.  Just as the mark of the beast is both physical and spiritual and babble… well, that’s serpent speech. 
  • When people are tormented – it is both physically and spiritually – we understand that right?  If the enemy can keep you occupied with natural, you will miss the spiritual fullness being conveyed.

Seems like today is just a day to tie up some loose ends from the Beast DNA broadcast so that when we move forward onto the Bride – which is much more enjoyable to discuss, we are settled in spirit, mind in heart in unity by the Holy Spirit.

  • How are we as gentiles grafted into the branch?  Anyone know?  Its spiritually, right?  I mean we aren’t actually mingling physically and living in Israel, attending synagogues and practicing Jews are we?  The Word is written for both Jew and Gentile, it is the same…  But we must understand – when reading the Word – what happens to Israel in the natural, happens to the Gentiles Spiritually.  Therefore, keep in mind… Israel will likely display a natural mark, while we are more likely to display a spiritual one.  And this is not to say both will not be evident, but rather by observance – the natural eye, it is likely to appear first inwardly in such a way and then the demonstration appears by the natural eye.
  • We know Jesus comes bringing a sword doesn’t He?  We also know about the sword of the spirit, being doubled edged…  We are to die to self daily (wounded by the sword) in order to live eternally… hence, the meaning it is doubled edged.

The beast had a wound by a sword, but did live…  that’s Jesus, Jesus delivered that death blow to the enemy a very long time ago.  Jesus reigns over all evil, it is under His feet and guess what?  It is finished.  We now can enter into eternal life, death has no sting…. The Kingdom of God is at hand – we can walk it out spiritually each day, while we wait for it to be a way of life naturally. 

Again, the death blow to the beast having rule and dominion was delivered by Jesus.  And when He comes again we shall it be witness to it in the natural, when all things spiritual manifest for every eye to see Jesus and every tongue confess and knee bow to Him and finally realize Jesus is Lord.

  • Are you all starting to realize a good portion of the Book of Revelation has already been accomplished?  That Jesus’s preeminence and presence from the beginning of time is revealed at the end of the Book?   And that we are just now beginning to see it unfold before our very eyes by the Spirit through physical manifestation?  We are right now in that war because the dragon is making war with us – the remnant of the seed of Jesus because we do keep the commandments of our Lord and have the testimony of Jesus – which is in Rev 12:17
  • Take mystery Babylon for example – its in Rev 17, that is the harlot church – comprised of Natural and Spiritual souls, living and walking Earth at this moment – they are tares, goats, lukewarm, all the things mentioned as abominations in the seven churches in Rev 2 & 3… I just feel like at times numbers are such a distraction for us – like we try to number everything and get lost in how many of this and how many of that and lining up nations and all sorts of weird things. 
  • Strange gods are anyone placed above our Father – that’s all and most often like I said, it is self – but we see a lot these days of idolatry – where we place man above the Lord in many ways, we trust men too much – get burned over and over again, until the lesson is learned, of course.
  •  Remember the beast marking makes you magnify yourself, its ego and why lucifer fell…  others fall with him in such a way and is even something we’ve done in the past, but Jesus is our way of escape and is always there in our time of need when rescue is our only hope.
  •  When we see the abomination of desolation standing in the Holy place, when read by the spirit we will understand – Mathew 24:15  The holy place is referencing us spiritually and Israel naturally – We are the Temple built without walls by human hands and I am not saying there will not be a temple built in Israel – what I am saying is that we best keep our eyes pure to see God, realizing if we are waiting and watching for a temple in Israel to be built, as if the Lord has delayed His coming, he quite possibly will come quickly when we do not expect Him to do so and we will be caught unaware and unprepared.  Not one more thing is required to happen for Jesus to return, so we must be ready at all times.
  • The abomination of desolation is idolatry and a worship which is forbidden upon those who reject God to be glorified above all things on Earth and in Heaven.  It seems more and more people are glorifying everything but God to a greater degree than I can ever remember.
  • 2 Thessalonians 2:3-4 explains this perfectly – let no man deceive you… it goes into the falling away from the truth which happens before the man of sin is revealed in our lives as god, he causes people to oppose themselves and exalt themselves above God in their lives so that HE OR SHE AS GOD SITS IN THE TEMPLE OF GOD SHOWING HIMSELF THAT HE IS GOD.  Who/where is the temple of God – you!  Who can make us an abomination and desolate? Lucifer… when we set his chracteristics/dna up inside us on the throne where Jesus is purposed to be – you become whatever you seek and worship.  Will this manifest in the natural, of course – but never believe you are somewhat removed from being grafted into the branch spiritually.  Remember – the mystery of iniquity is already at work… not simply to come at a later date.
  • It is important we realize we must receive a love for the truth or else we will search for a lie and fall for it – once that happens people are given over to that lie and placed into delusion for having pleasure in unrighteousness – those who seek unrighteousness and knowledge and such more than the truth, Jesus, Who is the way, the truth and life…  are right now swimming in delusional conspiracies.  Have you noticed this just started to ramp up the past 7 years or so? 
  • Remember… the Saints are not appointed to suffer through that time of great tribulation and during our Bride study so much about this will unfold by the scriptures.  The Word tells of a time of great tribulation that’s coming, it also speaks of many being cast into great tribulation who are entangled with Jezebel via fornication and idolatry – which is spiritual and natural by the way –  but Jesus tells us when we keep His word with patience, not letting anyone take our crown – which is the Gospel testimony of Jesus – we shall be kept from that hour of temptation coming upon the whole world.  Just be confident when you keep your eyes fixated on only Jesus He will insure we shall stand firm all the way through until the end, no matter what comes our way.
  • It is written we shall not eat of the tree of knowledge, having our eyes opened to good and evil, yet we have and do – but, do we see its fruit as pleasant and crave it or desire it?  Why do we not just let go of being as god, inviting Him to come in and abide within us?  It just seems like we have so many more questions than answers…  it is my prayer we repent and turn away from seeking man for answers, believing that the word which proceeds from God is how our souls are sustained and nourished for eternal life – one day all else shall pass away, but not His word and through Jesus His word abides within us, but it is our choice whether it remains or not.
  • I pray soon and very soon we repent from glorifying evil, prospering in any way from evil or elevating evil, believing it is in charge or gives us elevation of knowledge to puff up or helps us to walk this Earth by just knowing its deep secrets.  As we begin to understand the Father created evil and He still is in command over it – we are in a protective bubble, just like Job had a hedge placed around him – evil cannot touch us unless the Father permits or we invite it in…  Which how so many are drifting off the straight and narrow path these days, the falling away… is swift and quick in this season. 
  • Always hold close to your heart – as it is written in Mathew 24, unless the days of end shall be shortened for our sakes – the elect – or none would have been saved – or in other words, all would have fallen away…  that’s surely a sobering thought.
  • The Lord goes to measures beyond we know or can even imagine to preserve, save and keep His own…  He leaves the 99 to go after that one who is lost in darkness, alone in danger of being destroyed, especially by wolves.  Jesus does this and why?  Because only He truly knows who is and is not His.
  • All He spoke to us in His word stands firm and unchanged – what He warned us of is important just as it is written – but all this conspiracy knowledge stuff, well… If Jesus didn’t warn us about it – then it obviously is not worth its weight in gold.  What we do need to lay to our heart are the life giving words of our Lord and what we should not be entertaining are vain imaginations – those signs not spoken of in the Word because in doing so… if we are not corrupted by them, at the very least we could be so hard pressed to see the sign, we miss the coming and abiding of Jesus in our lives daily and His arrival in the future.
  • Revelation 7:13-17 speaks clearly about those who COME OUT OF GREAT TRIBULATION… whether that be spiritual, natural or both – only the Lord knows the full truth – but it is my personal belief it is both.  I know on more than one occasion He has delivered me out of great tribulation of both kinds…  But one day, in which only the Father knows the timing of… in a grand procession unlike any in history….  One final and complete time, the Bride will have made herself ready fully, washing her robes in receiving fully all that was accomplished on the cross by Jesus, her Beloved – which is so much more than just the forgiveness of sins. 

Let’s read it real quick…

Revelation 7

13 And one of the elders answered, saying unto me, What are these which are arrayed in white robes? and whence came they?

14 And I said unto him, Sir, thou knowest. And he said to me, These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb.

15 Therefore are they before the throne of God, and serve him day and night in his temple: and he that sitteth on the throne shall dwell among them.

16 They shall hunger no more, neither thirst anymore; neither shall the sun light on them, nor any heat.

17 For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.


So this is a perfect place to end, thank You Lord… as a Segway into our next couple talks anyway about THE BRIDE, her DNA and falling so deeply in love with Jesus the bridegroom you are absolutely not only longing for His appearing – you are lovesick, so that we never stray from Him again.

If you all want to meditate within the confines of the Word, over the next few days, read and be embraced of the Song of Solomon, which depicts just a little bit how IN LOVE Jesus is with His Bride – for many of you I am speaking of YOU…  And the Spirit and the Bride say come… We have not yet had the wedding feast, so thankfully there is still time – especially for those of us who have a tendency at times to be that runaway Bride.

Let’s pray ~~~

Heavenly and merciful Father, we just bow before You, overwhelmed by even the thought of being submerged into Your presence for all of eternity.  Thank You Father for giving us to Your precious Son Jesus, our bridegroom, the most precious one of all, who our soul longs for every moment of everyday.  We trust in Your timing Father, please have mercy upon our impatience and for pressing to pass from this life to the next too quickly.  Help us Lord to welcome You to lead, while we follow.  It is our prayer we not run ahead of You or lag behind- thank You for keeping us continually on the straight and narrow path which leads to life everlasting.

Our souls cry out to You Jesus, in this longing to be one with You forever and ever.  As the days come to a close, please hold us tightly in Your loving embrace.  Forgive us for when we take our eyes off of You my Lord, as our Holy prize.  Help us to surrender to all of Your guided ways, which are perfect.  Stir within us a longing for Your word and guide us as we seek to know more of You. 

Thank You Lord for holding us close in Your arms of safety and guarding us against all the wiles of the enemy.  Help us to continually show love to one another in the surrendering of self.

In Jesus’s Mighty Name we pray.  Amen.

One Body, Many Parts ~ Broadcast Transcript April 14, 2021 with Angela

ONE BODY, MANY PARTS – April 14, 2021

Good Morning Blessings Beloved and thank you for joining me today on this ROF Ministries broadcast.  What an honor it is to gather today for the glory of our Lord Jesus, finally.

Today we are going to go over just a few topics which are relevant to our growth in Him and especially for the cohesiveness of His Body – that’s us you all!  During these tumultuous days, which are removing every spot and wrinkle, we have a choice to either keep our eyes securely fixated on Him or throw in the towel, which sadly many are doing.  There is no greater time in our lives that it has been more necessary to lean upon Jesus, our rock and redeemer and only source of life itself.

I simply cannot tell you how overwhelmed I have been and humbled too by the love you all have shown me during this health trial.  Many of you have lavished your love upon me in ways I never could have imagined… And the beautiful flowers you sent – wow…. I’m not sure who orchestrated them, but I have a good idea – but on the card they wrote “wrapping you in our love…” ROF Family and I cried and I cried… Because that is what I say to you all, all the time and you said it to back to me – that is a moment I will cherish forever and never forget.

You know Jesus is really with us in the fire – and He often arrives through many of His own… I already told Him – yes, please use me at Your will for Your glory alone – so all things are purposed.  And the day of my surgery and even before HE WAS THERE dwelling within so many of His own… I don’t want to bore you all to death – but do you want to hear all the different ways He showed up?  I would be happy to share my testimony if you can put up with me for awhile. 


I’ve been so blessed to have this time to spend with the Lord Jesus in quiet while healing and regaining my strength… I realize many are afraid of the dark, but with Him, His words bring all things together for our good and uses trials to purge all darkness from within us so we learn to rely on Him solely.  The truth is – we are darkness until the light comes in, evil things do happen to us at times but honestly, the greatest darkness we wrestle with is within us, not without – and this is the greatest scheme of the enemy – to convince us darkness is all around us – mainly through people, instead of us seeing it is within – that it needs purged and repentance is the only way to go full throttle into the Kingdom.  The enemy wants us to say “we have no sin…” so that we continue to keep it, rather than going to sin no more.  How does light enter in?  When we are broken…  As brokenness produces an unmatched intimacy with Jesus, so that we call out to Him in our time of need.

He laid something upon my heart to share today about checking others walks, while ignoring our own – to honestly see if we are being authentic – we sometimes refuse to embrace how each member is purposed in His kingdom to use as HE WILLS, not our wills, but HIS.  All this relates to my testimony and how JESUS SHOWED up the day of my surgery and before, through MANY VESSELS – vessels in scrubs, in which denomination did not matter because to me they all looked the same and through them out He flowed in my time of need.  Oh I could talk so much more about this – so we all could see spiritually past the strange garments we all still wear at times…. Like denominations, clicks, clubs, doctrines and deeds – honestly, when it is Jesus purposed none of that even matters anymore.  It is my prayer we listen to His leading so that the breaking is not as severe in order we see beyond the flesh… Because when we are narrow-minded in our hearts, we are going to miss Him when He appears in a different way or vessel than what we expected.  Would you join hands and pray with a Catholic who loves Jesus?  I did… And in the midst of the four of us we shared a commonality – His Name is Jesus… I realize I needed the surgery to purge out of my body what could poison it – but this journey exposed within me so much deeper to the soul that needed purged and I am forever grateful to the Lord He chose me to walk with Him through this fire.  Right now a word for His child is… We walk by spirit and not at the leading of our flesh, while He is teaching us to see by the spirit beyond our flesh and others so that it is purposed our spirit be willing while our flesh is weak.  Weakened flesh is a good thing and a God thing right now, it is very, very good indeed.

The other night the Lord was opening my eyes to much more in His word about the Bride of Christ – it amazes me how you can study the same alive and active word, having deeper and increased knowledge to grow in His truth.  I began in the Book of Revelation, reading from the last chapter, forward…  And all He kept guiding me to was about THE BRIDE of Christ, specifically the DNA of the Bride carrying His DNA- which is another reason individualized flesh is being weakened for the marking and sealing of Him.  I hope to share some of that with you all next time we gather together.

Today I just want to discuss a little about the cohesiveness found in Jesus’s Body (His members – us) and just go over a few hindrances that keep us separated as His Body, instead of molding us as one, with each other and most importantly with Jesus.  When Jesus looks down to gather each of His own – it is those who inwardly are seeking Him with all that they are – the strange garments, the flesh, how men gather are not indicative to who He chooses.  He will pull from the streets, the rehab centers, chatrooms, Catholic Churches and all churches, even prisons – Can we hear this truth?  Can we go over ourselves enough to see by the spirit verses the flesh – which is why only He can gather His own, we cannot form the Body of Christ – only He can.

Before we get started I am going to read some portions of a LayLay ramble…  lol…  She sent it timely as a confirmation since I had already been studying the many parts before I received her anointed input.  I call these LayLay rambles, as– that’s what we call them because she has happy fingers and once she starts typing we just never know when she is gonna stop.  Lol

LayLay’s email – you’ll get the jest of it all as I read

Okay – I hope you all could follow most of that – The whole point is – a body is not a complete body without all the parts, equally flowing together as one – that Jesus is the only head and anybody missing a few parts cannot be whole – so all are required to accomplish the Lord’s will on Earth.  This is why the enemy is fighting so hard to make sure we are not a cohesive body on Earth – he pits one person against another as much as he possiblly can as he knows something we seem to forget – divided we fall.  Let’s not be an agent of satan anymore, okay?  Let’s embrace the different and diverse callings of all who… Are after God’s own heart.  Ugh…I pray you all can hear my heart in this because once we all see it, exponential growth and assignments will manifest.

One of his tactics right now is this and I am gonna tell on him bigtime:  Our flesh is irritated by the flesh of others within the body.  And when this happens we often point fingers and accuse.  How so?  I am happy you asked…. Since we do not know for sure who is and is not after God’s heart in truth – we will, out of our flesh, look around, search for and only embrace those who in the flesh are seeking the Lord just as we do.  “Works” are just that – manifestations of our servanthood unto Jesus and His Kingdom.  And works are just as unique and diverse as we are – when we remove the competition and envy and flesh altogether, with eyes opened we will tolerate (which is greatly needed) and eventually embrace those who might me commanded as a light on a stand in a place you have not been orchestrated to go before – like hospitals or a different church or a prison. 

Just because someone is serving Him on assignment differently than us, does not mean they are doomed…  Jesus told us that those who are not against us are for us – He spoke this right after the disciples were complaining at how others were serving Him.  So we are going to read it…  Some of you right now have spouses and children assigned and growing differently than you – you may have even deemed them a tare while the Lord has marked them as wheat.  I pray this word brings you comfort and peace.


The Lord says to not judge before the time and this is partly why… We do not know the measurement of truth to which one has been given at any moment of time or the purpose of why and who they’ve been sent to and sadly we have so many people who are doing their very best to follow Jesus and serve Him and yet, just because they are not “following along with us doing the same works” – like we just read we try to hinder their work.  Yikes – I don’t want that to be me, do you?  Right now we could be walking with one who outwardly appears very holy and religious, while inside they are not even barely seeking the Lord – so we must be very hesitant to declare just who is and is not seeking the Lord, let alone saved or not.

Are we hindering the work of others who do not follow along with us?  That is the question.

So we must ask ourselves do we discount all the other people who are serving Jesus as another part – remember He often places light in the midst of darkness – because their part looks in contrast to us in the natural?

Why have we targeted those who are not against us as though they are, labeling them lost and fools and worse yet, enemies – when in actuality they are not the ones who seek to destroy us and yet as we lift ourselves up we imagine those who are not with us are also against us?  Honestly, most people fall into particular fellowship not based on truth – but rather love… they collect together where love is present, where they feel accepted and loved – because God is love, He draws them together in this most precious way.  In addition, they rarely will leave a place where love prevails, even if the gathering is not perfect, not always on target – because that place feels like “home” to them.  It is our pride that seeks to point out the faults of others and if not controlled by the Spirit, we will condemn ourselves.  We like to put weight to and measure sins and shortcomings in others by what we have overcome.  It is causing division within the Body and not Godly order…  and I am not sure if you can see it or not, but it is trickling down into the World because we have not shut the door to the enemy’s working amongst us.  To the Father all sin is sin and equaled… By the Father’s plan, you will have Pentecostals who end up in hell and some Catholics who don’t.  Does this make sense – we all see through a glass dimly at the moment.

Here’s a sobering thought… The Lord often sends me out as a messenger of love and I run in many circles…  Did you know that many of the very ones that some of you condemn, never speak harshly about you and did you know quite often they will come and ask me why you hate them so much?  As the eyes of our hearts are opened to see as Jesus sees through the eyes of love… Guess what?  We not only see and discern those who come in the name of the Lord, but begin to bless, not curse them, as well.  A few of us have been disciplined and beaten with many stripes over this meat of the Word, it is my prayer that most of you will receive this word as food for your souls and avoid the rod of chastisement altogether.  The Body of Christ has no enmity within it – please consider this, if you have enmity with someone who does say Jesus is Lord, let’s say you’ve labeled them your enemy – trying to force them out of the Body… Is it possible you are the one on the outside, not them?  Because when we do this, we form into the enemy of many, rather into the form of Jesus, who judged no man.  The Father’s discipline is poured out upon His children equal to His love – it is the same and once adopted we stop running away from His discipline but to it, knowing we need it daily to keep us safe from ourselves as we are surrounded by temptations on every side.

Christianity today seems to be some sort of club you belong to, while being a Christ follower you embrace the truth you belong to Jesus, unified as His family.  All these denominations and clubs which fellowship together, vainly imagine they alone hold the fullness of truth – because it is their own perceived truth.  And worse yet, if you no longer walk with them – they imagine you fell away from the truth, so it is all vanity centric, not Jesus centered.  IT IS POSSIBLE TO BE LED ELSEWHERE TO PROCLAIM THE GOSPEL AND STILL BE IN OBEDIENCE AND WALKING WITH JESUS.  Do I need to say that again?  Can our spiritual minds be expanded enough to understand that the Body of Christ has many members to it and when Jesus is the head, He directs each member on where to go and what to do as that which is perfectly anointed for His will to be accomplished here on Earth and it is the carnal mind which rages war against all things spiritual – so in essence the battle is not with one another, it is within our own self.

For me personally, I avoid exclusionary fellowship of any kind…  I just can’t breathe when the Holy Spirit is quenched in such a way.  When we see the light burning within all gatherings we tend to embrace and cling to that which is good – rather than looking for faults within each one.  The truth is – all still hold a sense of faultiness within, as we are being purified as His Bride – none are above another, none.  And with that, there is not one gathering yet which contains the fullness.  The church is not perfected yet as it is still made up of imperfect people. 

So take Catholics for example – because they are easy targets at the moment for threatened Protestants and they also are very exclusionary…  in a sense they reap what they’ve sown in many ways…  I am continually hearing inaccurate accusations and hearsays which at times are slanderous in nature about Catholics.  I realize most are just passing along gossip they’ve heard along the way and ignorant from experience themselves to rightly divide the truth – the Word calls this judging those things you do not understand.  I can always tell when someone is speaking out of self and not experience regarding Catholics when fear is present.  Catholics in general are not against us like we are them.  Did you know this?  Or do you just know what you’ve been told?  Many of you are scared to death of the Pope – and I also pity the people who elevate this man in such a way – those for him and against him elevate him to be some higher power than he is – whether for the good or evil, even the Pope is under the subjection of our Sovereign Father.  Look around, have we joined a mob who is railing against anyone?  If so, we must separate before the woe comes.

So please do not do what I did… please do not assume they are your enemy due to hearsay when in fact many could very well be your brother or sister.  Weren’t we too walking blindly at one time?  So why have we forgotten how far we too have fallen?  Hearing these accusations sometimes makes me weep internally and I pray and pray some more.  One day if the Lord directs, I am going to share my testimony about this and possibly the burden will cease.  I am not going to speak by knowledge, but rather experience.  Therefore, maybe it will assist us to recognize and sort out lies and hearsays laden with accusations and what is truth.  Sadly, lately most of what is being shared is not the full truth.  If the Lord permits, I will address all those concerns to the best of my ability, such as forgiveness of sins in relation to confessing to a Priest – because I have yet to hear anyone speak the pure truth on this topic.  I will also share how only the Holy Spirit can take the credit for ending my season of being Catholic to just simply being a follower or Jesus.  Today, what I resented for a long time, I am now grateful for – or else I too may join in against those who love Jesus just like I do and I would be too fearful to venture as light into darkness.  You do realize some Catholics love Jesus right and that with all the faults many of them have – no one I’ve met so far in my life carry the characteristics of Jesus in laying down His life as many I’ve met along my journey within the Catholic church have and do.  I realize this isn’t too popular with most of you and I am only using the Catholic church as my example because it is one I am familiar with – however, this same division is going on in almost every area of fellowship– all I am asking is that you just consider with me for a moment that the enemy wants you blinded to any goodness of all other parts, so that all you observe is darkness within others and remain fearful while bidding division.

All I can share is my own witness and experience – but it is real, up close and personal, not read in a book or hearsay – it is by my own personal account, what I have witnessed and heard with my own ears when questioning everything.  I just feel so weird even talking about this – I mean truly, in my younger days I questioned and challenged Father Geyhra so much that he lovingly with all the patience of anyone I’ve ever met labeled me a haunyack… He called me a bright light, full of joy in mercy.  I never had a father really at that point and he was never inappropriate, while displaying our Father in Heaven’s love to me, even when unruly.  Oh my, did I press him a lot – and he would explain and explain and I would say why?  I have many stories if you care to hear them… and if not, that is okay too.  I’ve never been one to just swallow what I am told, no matter who is saying it –I wasn’t like that 30 years ago and I am not like that now.  I see mixture by the Spirit in everything and everyone, including myself – so at this point unless someone is truly AGAINST US… we should not label them an enemy, but instead be praying for and believing for the best for them so their eyes are opened.  How do we know the Lord is not directing someone else to do something not so ordinary to produce the extraordinary for His Kingdom?  I just know that sort of scrutiny is way past my pay grade. 

We go through these fires to purge us from what we did in rebellion so that we can go back into the fire and pull others from it.  So all of this is purposed and planned and one day we will see the why’s of it all.  I know some who were witches, real witches, casting spells and boom Jesus got ahold of them and today they suffer with other witches with great loving compassion to pull them from the fire of witchcraft.  We see this in almost every sin nature area around us…  drug addicts, alcoholics, prostitutes, thieves, murderers, liars, those in rebellion, Catholics, divorced, it is endless…  Do we really think this very day the Father is turning His back on them with railing accusations?  Really?  So why are we? 

Mother Theresa said – If you judge someone you cannot love them

You catch many more flies with sugar than vinegar.  I shudder to think of the day I am made aware of all the missed opportunities I had to love others as Jesus loves them and the times I chose a stone rather than lend a hand to lift another up.  I hope this doesn’t sound like I know it all, because actually it is a confession that I don’t and didn’t know near as much as I thought I did…

And I will add… If you do not love someone, don’t try to mold them into your own image, but rather always point them in the direction of Jesus, while planting seeds of love.  Keep in mind it is the Father Who gives the increase (of His Son) within the different parts of His Body and it is in His timing, not ours that matters.

I realize all this is due to coming from a place of lack within ourselves.  We often feel so less than others, it makes us feel better to point out how we are above, have the truth in, been awakened to something and such that another has not been yet.  To look down upon another, elevates self – doesn’t it? 

I cry when people cast down others so openly, thinking to myself, every single person who heard you – will not come to you to hear about Jesus now.  What if you were their only hope?  What if they just stumbled upon you with a seeking heart and you laid such a heavy burden upon them, they turn away from the truth altogether?  We’ve got many casting stones openly at one another, yet none are worthy to do so, as we all deserve to be stoned.  My flesh wants to rise up and cast stones at those slinging them at others, especially when I know some of their shortcomings, but I don’t dare do so.  I have to put my flesh down immediately in those cases or I separate myself for a bit to get back centered on the Lord so I am able to fend off the temptation, letting our Lord handle His own. 

The Lord instructed us to do unto to others how we ourselves desire others to do unto us.  So before preaching the Gospel, remember when you too were in that fallen state – placing yourself in the shoes of another and consider what would have drawn you to Jesus, rather than pushed you away.  That is your testimony, the wisdom oil within you that you need to draw all unto Him.  Your experience has taught you what works and what does not work in leading others to Him.  It is my prayer we not hinder anyone who is seeking to know Him, just because we already found Him.  Only Jesus really knows who’s hearts are for and against Him – our main job is to insure ours are against no one.

The Bride of Christ has His DNA… which is Jesus’s characteristics.  Today is a call to repent for times we carried the DNA of man and man’s ways which do not reflect the responses Jesus had to others.  How He approached them – loved them, showed them mercy.  Especially pertaining to His enemies… those who were against Him, He did not drag them through the mud – but continually offered loving light to heal them.

Again, I just want to say thank you for all the prayers, love and support you have shown me during this health obstacle – I’ve been very humbled and overwhelmed by the outpouring of Jesus’s love and kindness through each of you. 

Overcoming Suffering with Angela~ transcript from broadcast March 19, 2021


Good Morning Blessings Beloved – thank you for joining me today on ROF Ministries broadcast.  I surely pray you all are holding tight to Jesus, what a trial it has been lately, thankfully He is our strength and security in this upside down World. 

I so appreciate you all, very much and thank you for understanding, praying for and supporting me while I was pulled away recently due to some health issues.  I truly missed you all so very much and it was frustrating to me at times if I’m honest.  Sickness is a strange thing and it purifies our souls in so many ways.  I call it when the Lord directs you to “sit down.” 

As the love of many is growing colder, so goes humanity it would seem.  Thankfully, Jesus always pulls us through.  I have somewhat been in “observing” mode…  Spending time with the Lord and watching – so today I have some instructional pearls to share for our growth in Him.  We are not alone in these trials, the Father is working all things which seem a hindrance to us to grow us in our faith and trust in Him, while at the same time purifying us from all reliance and trust in man and man’s ways.  I am constantly asked why bad things happen to seemingly loving people and I even wonder that myself – I have no answer to the little details, except to say the Lord is using it for our good, somehow, someway in His miraculous ways He is using the pressing to fortify the vessel – us, insuring we keep fixated on Him.

The past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me and many of you, as well.  I do not like being sick, it hinders – it places guilt and all sorts of things.  Talk about being a gazingstock and the object of much rebuke and ridicule – just get sick nowadays.  The church people act like you are weak in your faith and the Worldly people point at you as a leper.  It’s a lose-lose situation…  Which carries much shame and when you add in the guilt piece, it can be very overwhelming.  So I’ve spent a lot of time seeking the Lord to open my Spiritual eyes to just a glimpse of the why’s I am going through this fiery trial and all He would give me is…  “Compassion…”  He was showing me without suffering in the flesh like I have been, I would walk without the deepest of wells of compassion.  To comfort another, you must have authentic compassion with sincere empathy – He told me compassion is what infuses the oil with the finest of fragrance….  Healing oil applied without the aroma of compassion is based on rote – it requires experience to be the hands and feet of Jesus.  One would think, after what myself and many of you have gone through physically the past couple of years, our compassion would be great – I guess He is teaching us patience along with all the rest of it.  I still feel compelled to apologize for my absence, sometimes the guilt is so overwhelming I cannot breathe.  I’ve managed to keep up on emails, the prison ministry and making sure kids are wearing clean clothes and food on the table and that is about it.  On particular days, breathing itself has been an accomplishment.  So I just want to thank you for your patience, your prayers and especially your compassionate love during this time.  I will say through it all – I’ve been very blessed by the presence of the Lord and hearing His voice and when I am able, I make notes, many notes.  It is a burden because I always want to share them and yet cannot.  But, that’s okay too – in His time, I will share.  Several of you have been holding me up and assisting me in every way and I cannot thank you enough – I am always encouraged, giving glory to the Lord and honor to you because I know right now unless He lays me on your heart, I’m not within it…

Ironically it seems we often feel like a misfit no matter what and then Jesus pulls us closer and we divinely fit perfectly with Him – so all that we go through is purposed and planned.  Many of us are ridding ourselves of expectations on others and most importantly ourselves, while becoming even more reliant on the Lord.

Speaking of the beauty of brokenness, HeatherFeather wrote a most beautiful poem, that I printed off to read to you all.  I have read it numerous times for encouragement – and as you will see it surely is Holy Spirit inspired.  I am going to read it now and I pray it blesses you like it has me so many times.  It is called SEEDS by HeatherFeather.


Isn’t that just beautiful?  Such a description which mirrors most of our journeys as well.  Thank you Heather for sharing your pearls of love today so that we are encouraged by the Lord.

During this time in seclusion the Lord kept pressing into me about passing everything through the gauge of the Holy Spirit and His written word, showing me how humans (including me) have a tendency to rely on their own understanding to the point many are calling evil, good and good, evil these days.  He showed me how this grieves the Holy Spirit so very much and that we are vessels which contain the Holy Spirit and when the Spirit is grieved, so are we.  There are times we are grieved and cannot find placement for it, so we look to the World as if it has power to grieve us.  The Lord told me to return to the simplicity of the Word.  Keep it simple, test all things – those who are wise in their own eyes are filled with mixture right now and it is much more productive to be simplistic in our faith at the moment.  Because a grand fall is coming soon.  Resisting evil looks much different by the Spirit than what man instructs it to be, I am finding out.  My heart is continually broken and grieved lately and anyone who is contentious about or towards anyone else, makes me weep.  There are many parts of the Body of Christ, it is my prayer they embrace one another rather than seek to destroy. 

What we seek within another, or rather those who gather together – we will find.  If we look to the light, we will see a flicker of a flame who is also seeking the Lord and when His wind blows it will grow.  But, if we seek to find darkness within those who might worship or gather in a different way than us – it is darkness we will find.  The Lord gave me a word… “seekers” which is the same as One who is after His own heart – Seekers do not cut off the ears of those who outwardly serve Him differently, but instead see the purity of treasure in what it means to simply seek the Lord, knowing we all fall short.  And to witness this back and forth, places a drain on the sensitive at heart, no doubt, causing a “grieving” internally to occur – because the Holy Spirit is so very grieved by such activities.  It just seems like many of us at the moment of suffering in some unique way.

Did you know Jesus asked the Father to be released from drinking of the cup of suffering, stating that He didn’t want His will to be done, only the Father’s?  This is in Mathew 26:39 & Luke 22:42

That’s really hard to imagine, isn’t it?  There are two cups mentioned in the Bible – The cup of suffering and the cup of wrath…  It just seems to me, to what little I am understanding lately is that we either drink of one or will be appointed to drink of the other…  but that is for another day’s discussion.

I need to show you something in Mark 10:32-45 and its pretty amazing.

  • I love their honesty…  we desire that whatever we ask you to do, that you will do it…  Aren’t we like that a lot when we talk to the Lord?  Whether we to admit or not, we at times have done the same haven’t we?
  • He asked them – what would you like me to do for you?  Grant us at once (no patience) that one of us be on your right hand and one to your left so we are glorified.  Jesus told them they did not know what they were asking for…  He knew what He was getting ready to drink of – the cup of suffering and He also referred to the severe immersion that He would be overwhelmed by.
  • He did tell them they too would drink of this cup, be immersed and overwhelmed – but only the Father could decide who was on His left and right as it is for those to whom it has been prepared – which is also referring to the sheep and goats, not sure if you caught that or not.
  • Jesus wanted them and us to understand there is no glory without suffering and that if He Himself could not escape it, neither can we.  He is always to be the prime example we follow – He is a good Shepherd, qualified and trusted to lead us by His still small voice. 
  • The other ten disciples heard this conversation Jesus was having with James and John and they got very indignant (showing anger, believing you are treated unfairly, offensive, insulting, showing strong displeasure) and they would not stop cutting up that Jesus pulled James and John aside to Himself.
  • He explains to them that most want to dominate others – except for them and they are not appointed to rule over others, but to serve them – Jesus called it rendering service to others and giving His life as a ransom to many.
  • We share in that same cup with Jesus…  I noticed in this teaching that only 2 out of 12 disciples were willing to drink of the cup of suffering that Jesus drank of.  Today, I believe it is less than that.  Oh sure many talk a good talk… but don’t walk it out, not at all and end up resisting sufferings as if it is the enemy instead of it being an opportunity to be used as a vessel to give God glory.
  • There is a huge difference at suffering due to our own bad choices and suffering innocently at the hands of another.  What really counts with the Lord is when we are innocent and yet crushed, persecuted, betrayed and broken at the hands of the not so innocent.  The Bible calls this shedding of innocent blood and our blood in this case will be on the hands of the one who caused us pain so we can relax now, forgive, release and bless – while trusting the Father to deal with them and hopefully bring them too into the saving knowledge of the truth, just as He did us.

Romans 8 is incredible – I cannot read the whole chapter today – you just have to read it sometime soon though.  I am just going to read verses 14-18 – it totally blew me away in the Spirit!

  • Something beautiful about suffering as it’s an open door to being constantly led by God’s spirit
  • The Father’s spirit is constantly bearing joint testimony with our human spirit that we are NUMBER ONE HIS CHILDREN AND HEIRS OF GOD HIMSELF but get this…
  • And it ends with our suffering with Him so that WE ARE GLORIFIED TOGETHER WITH HIM…  Hence, on His right or left – I added that part in btw…  which is another reference to sheep in which Jesus is their Shepherd or having the ways of goats.
  • This passage concludes with the sufferings of our present season cannot compare to the glory which is about to be revealed upon us.  Wow…  So in each trial, we surely need to hold onto this promise in the Lord’s word. Amen? 
  • Again – we drink of Jesus’s cup of suffering now – We are glorified together in HIM through the process.

He said we should let our light shine before all men…  Consider that light as the fruit of overcoming a disaster – WE overcome with HIM and together we are glorified!  When someone asks – we point to Jesus every single time.  His children, the brethren never ever boast on their own accomplishments – we always point to HIM, knowing apart from HIM we can do nothing.  So if you gotta boast – boast on JESUS!  Yayyy

SUFFEREINGS GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT IS:  It takes what you know about Jesus and turns it into knowing Him – our transformation is of the mind – going from knowing about Him to knowing Him and when we know Him we no longer resist how He is growing us or cast it away like a devil.

I hear so many people throwing out the word “victorious”…  and victory too….  But in what?  I mean don’t you have to be in a fight to have victory?  How could one claim they are victorious and yet – deny they have anything whatsoever to overcome?  I get tired of people saying, nothing bothers me – when the truth is, everything bothers them – and if it didn’t, then why speak it in the first place?  I mean who goes around saying nothing bothers them unless they are bothered to begin with?  Lololol

So without a trial or fight – how could we be victorious with anything?

Without hurdles how could be deemed an overcomer?

Without sin how would we become sinless in nature – sin less = sinless – going from a not care attitude or even denying you have any in the first place to transitioning as a new creature of which when you do sin you have a conscientious heart which desires not to sin in order to be favorable in their Father’s eyes.  When sinless you simply sin less than you used too – because you feel bad when you do sin.  Please do not discount the fear of the Lord placed within you – it is a most precious and valuable asset that most do not possess.  It’s a very high and treasured gift, so we must treat it as such.  Before our conscience was seared, we did not feel the suffering pain of sin to the point we could even go and sin no more – but now we do – what a gift repentance truly is, thank You Lord for the opportunity granted upon us to say I am truly sorry and mean it inside the heart.

Without sickness, how could healing miracles be performed?

Without pieces of us all over the place, how would we be made whole?

Religious people will say – clean yourself up and come to Jesus – but Jesus says, come to me, I will clean you up.  Our shortcomings is His glory just waiting to spring forth and bloom within us – as long as we keep seeking Him as James and John, with a pliable and willing heart – if we agree to drink from His cup of sufferings now and glory together with Jesus today – we will not drink of His cup of wrath which is to come, thankfully.

By now, since we’ve been together for quite some time…  We’ve grown so much we are definitely complaining within our hearts way less than we used to – yes, I know many try to hide the complaint by a religious false face – the outside is not what matters here – it is more if we have a complaint in the heart and believe me, I’ve had many – another reason for us to be grateful for the correction of the Lord.  What is beautiful about this is we now can “catch” ourselves in the act, which is a crucial part in going and sinning no more.

I was thinking about “the Word…”  You know, the written word which is to be our guide and how imperative it is to our lives these days once applied.  We do have a part to play in all this – sort of like you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make them drink.  The Holy Spirit is continually drawing us into the Word of the Lord – Jesus was the word in flesh walking and mingling – but do we heed to this drawing?  The Word contains authority, but do we submit to its ways and teachings in order we be changed.  So many people these days, even those who are leaders take the Word and conform it to themselves – which is dead wrong.  The Word should be conforming us to it – we are not to take the Word and alter it in any way for comforts sake – it is alive and active, searing and marking – transforming us into the image of Jesus so that we too are manifesting the Word in our flesh – which is a piece to how He is raising our flesh up to be incorruptible – which is in the Word btw, so don’t get your feathers ruffled lolol.  God’s House, of which we abide within is the Household of Faith and only those who seek to live a surrendered life will have one and obedience is everything – I mean everything.  Obedience is not even that hard, not when you have a heart after God’s own heart.  The gift of prophecy is the testimony of Jesus it says in the Word, but so many are prophesying vain imaginations of signs and wonders out of their souls, which is wickedness beyond compare as this trickery is coming from within the natural church and many ears desire to be tickled in such a way, so it is not only tolerated – but encouraged and embraced.  We as leaders and followers of Jesus have a lot of clinkers which still need to be purged from the cobwebs in our minds which are ego centric in nature.  Somehow the enemy has laid a stone and we’ve dashed our foot on it believing our way is the only way – No, Jesus’s way is the only way to the Father, but… There are many ways to Jesus, actually the way to Him is as unique as you are… ahhhh… Now we are getting somewhere…  Can you all swallow that?  If it’s a struggle to reconcile that, let me know and we will talk about it, some of you got it immediately.  One way to the Father = through Jesus, many ways to Jesus – which is our personal and individualized intimate relationship with Him and its special – so special and unique to Him and you.

We really need to stop measuring others salvation upon are they measuring up to us.  We have clans and clicks and if someone is not within ours – we often look down upon them and deem them unsaved, Lord help us – we don’t know who is and is not possessing a heart after God’s own heart.  Many are goin around bashing other church leaders and followers who are just “different” and stuff and I just cringe – not for the leaders so much, but for those who are doing this…because for us in our limited sight are not fully awakened yet to the mystery of how our Father uses particular vessels to work all things together for the good and according to His purpose – its everywhere really – but we will talk way more about that next time knowing we need to be more focused on our own walks than others.  There are so many parts to His Body and each of us who seek Jesus will eventually arrive in His timing.  This is the barrier to why the glory of the Lord is not rising but is diminishing upon the Earth.  I was talking to the Lord the other day about His glory – and us, being containers of His glory, which should be on full display for all the inhabitants of the Earth.  Jesus said He will not share His glory with another – glory is minimized because we desire to share in His glory for our own benefit, not only His.  It is time to get real now – to observe ourselves personally and intimately about the truth of us and less about the truth of others because one day – each one of us will come face to face with Jesus alone, look into His eyes and the truth of whether we knew Him or not will be undeniable.  We will have no defense attorney that day to plead our case of – but I gathered with so and so.  So more about GLORY – The Holy Spirit really convicted me to the truth I do not even know what that familiar term that I hear all the time means.  How can you speak of something you know not fully of – is what He said to me.  I bowed my heart before Him and let Him instruct me.  Glory in Greek means:  respect, honor and majesty – and once He did this to and for me I was humbled in tears and repentance – I am nothing, worthless really and without Him I was on death row, so I pleaded for forgiveness for the times I sought to be respected, honored and be treated highly with favor in anyway.  He began to show me all those things come naturally in a supernatural way AFTER I am cleansed from the desire to attain it, many actually lust after it – but remember it is HIS GLORY that overshadows our own.  It is then and only then we fear the Lord with wisdom to be that vessel. 

So I shared all that to say this…  Is suffering purposeful?  Is the flesh in pain used in a mighty way to save us eternally?  All the time.  Sadly, we often only have compassion and empathy for another if we too have suffered in the same way already ourselves and another piece of that is – we condemn those who sin differently than we have or do.  And to take this a little step further – we grant mercy upon those who struggle in the same ways as us, while withholding it from those who need it the most.

It is my prayer that this little bit of sharing I did today encourages and uplifts you to be joyful in your sufferings which glorify the Lord on High – our King Jesus.  So that when the pressing comes we not run from it, pretend it isn’t happening so we look strong and untouchable or deny it is His way.  Remember, we are not to boast on self, but only on the Lord.  It is time to remove the false face of “I got this…”  To be an overcomer in truth, there must be obstacles on our paths to refine us in order we point to Jesus in truth, not just because it is popular.  Remember, He said we must know Him to avoid weeping and gnashing of teeth – I find it ironic He allows us to be in situations where we do weep and gnash our teeth during the process now to avoid spending eternity doing so.  God is just so perfectly good all the time, isn’t He?  He is the completed Author and Finisher of our faith and all that is required is a heart that is seeking Him…  and it is just that easy and it is just that hard…


The Whole Truth ~ Broadcast Transcript from February 2, 2020 with Angela

We are going to test ourselves, by the Word to see just how much flesh still remains within us.  We need to remove all doubt, “yeah buts” today – because today is a meat day!

What a topic we have today…  the Law.  I can’t really say this is something I have thought a whole lot about, knowing it can be cumbersome to even consider.  Then the Lord reminded me the other day how His law is to be fulfilled, is not abrasive or confining – just instructional in nature.  It is men who like to lay upon us heavy burdens by adding to the Law originally designed by the Lord and gifted to us as some simple guidelines for His children to imitate and follow.  As a new creature, we should not even need to be commanded to fulfill what was established so long ago – because our hearts have changed from being set on evil to being set on good.  People make up their own laws, try to enforce them of themselves and in turn make you follow what they deem as relevant.  Chances are when anyone does that, they are not even keeping the own laws they’ve established.  Knowing Jesus did not abolish His Father’s law, but fulfilled them – that is our expectation as well, to the best of our ability through a surrendered life.  However, Jesus did come to abolish the laws set forth by man throughout the ages, because Jesus knew everything man did was a reflection of His heart.  This created quite the stir in Jesus’s day and continues to be a dividing line even today.

I’ve observed something lately…  It seems like when we don’t want to receive the message of the fullness of the Gospel, we often seek to kill the messenger appointed to deliver it.  That must also be why many people shy away from reading the Word, parts of it is appealing to them and parts of it is just too convicting.  Sadly, that is how doctrines of man is formed – any doctrine based on mixture is a doctrine man developed to make the word go down more smoothly, so that it is readily and widely accepted by many.  If the righteous way is so very narrow few find it, while the broad way is more increased with numbers – shouldn’t we be more focused on God’s doctrine rather than man’s? 

I was thinking about how the word “bible” is not even in the Word of God – and how man, whoever it was even gave his own label to Scripture.  Does that seem like an oxymoron to you?  That the word Bible is not even in our Bible?  So strange… I don’t know why, I just felt led to point that out.

Just in case anyone is not convinced the laws and commandments of our Father are not relevant today, we are going to read out of Psalms.

You know, when we dilute the Gospel so others will receive it, we also dilute the power behind God’s Word going out to perform inwardly and transform the lives of others.  We may think we are doing them a favor, but in truth, we are limiting just what work the Lord can do in another’s life.  So when we are delivering our words, we get nervous – because they are ours.  But when delivering God’s words to others, it is in Him that word activates, piercing the heart – ours and theirs, so we both grow, so really we are off the hook to give the increase – we deliver and the Lord does all the rest.  That surely takes a yoke off of us doesn’t it?  Thank you Lord.

Before we get too deep into today’s message, let’s read just a bit out of Psalm 119, which conveys to us the importance of obedience, as children to our Father in Heaven.

Psalm 119 ~

149 Hear my voice according unto thy lovingkindness: O Lord, quicken me according to thy judgment.

150 They draw nigh that follow after mischief: they are far from thy law.

151 Thou art near, O Lord; and all thy commandments are truth.

152 Concerning thy testimonies, I have known of old that thou hast founded them forever.

153 Consider mine affliction, and deliver me: for I do not forget thy law.

154 Plead my cause, and deliver me: quicken me according to thy word.

155 Salvation is far from the wicked: for they seek not thy statutes.

156 Great are thy tender mercies, O Lord: quicken me according to thy judgments.

157 Many are my persecutors and mine enemies; yet do I not decline from thy testimonies.

158 I beheld the transgressors, and was grieved; because they kept not thy word.

159 Consider how I love thy precepts: quicken me, O Lord, according to thy lovingkindness.

160 Thy word is true from the beginning: and every one of thy righteous judgments endureth forever.

161 Princes have persecuted me without a cause: but my heart standeth in awe of thy word.

162 I rejoice at thy word, as one that findeth great spoil.

163 I hate and abhor lying: but thy law do I love.

164 Seven times a day do I praise thee because of thy righteous judgements.

165 Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them.

166 Lord, I have hoped for thy salvation, and done thy commandments.

167 My soul hath kept thy testimonies; and I love them exceedingly.

168 I have kept thy precepts and thy testimonies: for all my ways are before thee.

169 Let my cry come near before thee, O Lord: give me understanding according to thy word.

170 Let my supplication come before thee: deliver me according to thy word.

171 My lips shall utter praise, when thou hast taught me thy statutes.

172 My tongue shall speak of thy word: for all thy commandments are righteousness.

173 Let thine hand help me; for I have chosen thy precepts.

174 I have longed for thy salvation, O Lord; and thy law is my delight.

175 Let my soul live, and it shall praise thee; and let thy judgments help me.

176 I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek thy servant; for I do not forget thy commandments.

Honestly, it has been my experience that the only time I am offended by the Lord’s Law, commands and instruction is when I am set to rebel against it in some way or uphold another who is doing so.  As we grow in our spiritual walks, we start to see how much we need our Father’s touch to remain obedient and pleasing in His sight and when our hearts are set on Him fully – we in turn embrace His word fully and it is no longer a stumbling block of offense, but seek more knowledge of it so things go well in our lives.  We go through these stages where the Law is somewhat to be broken, in our immature state – like a teenager first driving a car, incessantly has within them to go just a few miles over the speed limit, like they can’t help themselves or when given a curfew – they will try to negotiate a later time, never coming home a minute early and usually 3 minutes late…  It is the rebellion within us which is so strong – we too get offended by the Laws and precepts given for our benefit and not destruction.  Reading this Psalm surely gives us understanding why the Lord’s favor was upon David, a man after God’s own heart – it was not that he didn’t break the Law, but rather he desired to obey it more than anything else, which is precious in the Lord’s sight.  Obviously, David had sin and yet had no rebellion – which is truly something we need to study in the near future.  Sin is covered by the Blood of Jesus through His everlasting mercies, new every morning on a soul who cries out to Him for help to overcome.  Rebellion is not covered by His blood and those in it live at His mercy continually.  Wow – that’s a real wake up call, right?

Speaking the truth in love does not mean to compromise what the Lord already inspired by the Holy Spirit to be written and it also does not mean to tickle someone’s ears, making them feel comfortable.  We do a great disservice to others and the Lord when we just seek to save a soul and not come along beside the person and the Holy Spirit believing and encouraging them for a transformed life.  I think we believe as long as a soul confesses Jesus is Lord, we’ve done our part – but actually the opposite is true, the real work begins during the purifying after one calls out to Jesus.  Didn’t He tell us many will say Lord, Lord… and He will tell them, depart from Me I never knew you.  So how do we learn of Jesus?  We read about Him and His ways, we pray and seek His face, we have this deep longing within us to feel His embrace and to never be separate of Him.  It is through trials where intimacy is sealed, it is in trials we realize just how bad we need a Savior and soon we will find the one who our soul longs for… Jesus. 

Mathew 5 – I just cannot seem to escape the Beatitudes lately, like they are continually chasing me – following me around everywhere I go and if I forget to think upon them – He sends another reminder – it is getting kind of silly at this point…  lol…  Maybe I am losing it?  All I know is if I go a few days and do not meditate on them… Here they came again, chasing me down and He grows me deeper into them.  This time it was just one verse – Blessed are the poor in Spirit for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven – well, I am poor in many ways, not just spirit, but anyway… lol

It’s no mystery I am poor in Spirit and a lot…  Still waiting to see the Kingdom of Heaven though.  Now some people with ego would take great offense to being told they are poor in Spirit, not me – I already know it… lol…  But when He started speaking to me by His words about this even more, it is like my spiritual eyes were opened a little more and my roots – arms – grasped a little deeper into Him.  And I really do not mean to harp on this… but hopefully, it strengthens you as well in case you need it as much as I do.

To be POOR in Spirit is so simple – it is just that… poor in Spirit – meaning:  helpless, empty of self, sort of not knowing what to do anymore, bankrupt and by the Greek definition it is:  reduced to begging, destitute of wealth, influence, position & honor, afflicted, lowly, destitute of Christian virtues and eternal riches, powerless to accomplish an end, needy, in lack.  It really means unable to learn of the ways of intellectual culture – giving themselves up to Christ’s teaching, proving themselves to lay hold of the Heavenly treasure.

To me it seems more purposeful now than ever – to just die to self all the way around and asap to just go with the flow and let Him have His way.  To enter God’s Kingdom, we must allow Him to do away with ours.  Our own personal old Kingdom of self, in that we may enter into His.  It seems like we can finally let go of any and all reputations and titles within the World.  No more competition, making a name for ourselves, any desires to be noticed or even embraced…  To me, it is just all over – plans we made to formulate our Kingdom here on Earth – and where the poor part really hits home for me is – my spirit feels very bankrupt to a greater degree.  Maybe some of you all can relate?

A poor soul, is a crying out soul and a soul that is crying out totally has the Father’s attention – especially one crying out in authentically – laid bare and open, hiding nothing.  So if this is you – let me just say, you’ve got your Father’s attention – His eyes are particularly on you.  And now, without all the distractions, we too are able to conceive of and see His Kingdom. 

But back to the whole truth, void of mixture and percepts and imaginations of how we wish it to be… But rather receive it just as it is, in fullness.  Please stick with me in this, I am really going somewhere, believe it or not…  We must know that God does speak to us through His word.  We try so hard to hear Him, we seek Him at every turn – even to the point of getting frustrated and yet many people have His word and its dusty, not having opened it in months or years or if ever.  Do you see how quickly we can become agitated with our Father for our own shortcomings?  He desires for us to grow and increase in our knowledge of Him – but just how can we do that if we disregard what He inspired to be written about Him?  We can’t.  So I said allllll that so far to say this…  Can we handle some meat today?  I am cautiously optimistic we are poor enough in spirit now to go a little deeper into His word and grow.  I’ve had somethings to share for quite some time, but due to milk – I withheld it for quite awhile – and today the Lord pressed upon me – no time like the present.

These Scriptures are meat, because they will choke those who prefer mixture – they are not comforting if you find yourself landing on the wrong side of right – they also display the fullness of our Father – who is loving, merciful, gentle and kind, but as tender as His embrace is – His wrath is just as purposed. It is the fear of the Lord that is the beginning of wisdom – trust me, you cannot know Him fully and not fear Him.  Someone told me the other day – God doesn’t hate anything.  Ummmm, yes He does.  I know it comforts people to think He doesn’t – but His word speaks contrary to man’s opinions of Him.  And this is just one example of many – so we have a choice to make – Do we truly want to KNOW HIM or just KNOW ABOUT HIM?  If we desire to know Him, then we are not satisfied just knowing perceptions about Him, relayed by others who have opinions over truth.  Our Father corrects us as His children because He loves us – not to spite us.  We are not bastard children, rebellious and without a parent, no our Creator Parent is just as involved in our lives this very moment as He was when He formed us together, individually and purposely in our mother’s womb – remember, He is not leaving us as orphans.  Our Father knows and some of us do as well…  That just because you correct someone, does not mean you cast them away, it is because He loves us.  But with that… due to self-will, if someone chooses to walk away due to His correction – they made a choice and He will wait with open arms for them to return from having a prodigal state of mind.  And we’ve all rolled around in the mud long enough, wouldn’t you agree?  What is somewhat worrisome to me is that many are playing with the fire of time, banking they have plenty to sow rebellious seeds, having enough time to return to Him, after they satisfy their souls on Worldly interests.  Well, lately, I am feeling that is a very dangerous roulette game – all signs do point to Jesus’s soon return, He is our blessed hope and it is a guarantee if we don’t meet Him in the air soon, we will pass from this life to the next via death.  Either way – we will soon see Him face to face. 

So He gave me a stern warning to lay to our hearts today ~ first about the time we live in to seek Him in fullness and to peek into what it is like to fall into the hands of an angry God, because many will unknowingly and without warning – how disheartening it would be to hear, depart from Me you worker of iniquity.  My mom called today and said several times she heard God audibly say to her the words in the past couple days… “grave danger…”  I said nothing, I know why He said this to her, but unfortunately I must stay silent – she doesn’t want to hear the truth, especially from me.  So I just pray.  But it did get me thinking…  I wonder how often the Lord is speaking to me and I ignore it because it is not what I want to hear?  I bet it is a lot.  Which is why we read the Word more now to convict us of our carnal ways, cleansing us through the act of repentance, making us whole and poured out of self, filled with Him – to in truth live a transformed life.

So in Proverbs 6 is a very strong warning for the brethren – not the World, not the sinners, not those who have not been saved – BUT FOR US, so let’s read it –

12 A naughty person, a wicked man, walketh with a froward mouth.

This person is deceitful with his speech.

13 He winketh with his eyes, he speaketh with his feet, he teacheth with his fingers;

He is charming and all over the place speaking, going from person to person

14 Frowardness is in his heart, he deviseth mischief continually; he soweth discord.

His heart is evil & foolish, he is a fraud and deceives others, causing great pain as an instigator of contention, strife &, arguments among the brethren.

15 Therefore shall his calamity come suddenly; suddenly shall he be broken without remedy.

16 These six things doth the Lord hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him:

Does the Lord hate?  Yes.  Aren’t we curious to know what He hates and even what that means, in order we may put it under subjection in our own lives?  Yes, again.

NOTE:  When God “hates” something or someone, its not like we do as humans – it means He considers that thing or person to be an enemy or a foe or not of His direct replication of His image.  For example – God is light, there is no darkness within Him, so to Him darkness is opposite of Him in every way, He hates darkness, so it flees from Him.  When He hates something, He opposes it.

We are doing a great disservice to ourselves if we are convinced we can do anything we want and still be pleasing to our Heavenly Father.  Of course, due to Jesus dying on the cross, we are washed cleaned – but today – I am speaking to a few remnant believers who have this inward desire to please their Father.  It like being saved is just not enough – you want more, you want all of Him and you desire He have all of you.

So in order to proceed, being poor in Spirit, we need to know what it looks like to abide in the Kingdom of Heaven and honestly, to rid ourselves completely of that which is not tolerated within it.

So here we go…

17 A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,

18 An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief,

19 A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.

Now I personally know some of you – I also know, you are poor in Spirit and that some of you never do these things God hates.  You may have in the past as the old creature, but now as the new creature – with many stripes the Father has placed you within Himself, purified in these areas.  And like I always say – it is a process, Jesus is the Author and Finisher of us daily.  And He is also our mediator, so that when we stumble, we confess our sin immediately and repent to do it no longer.

God considers those His enemy who are proud of their works, considering themselves higher than others  –


See, that wasn’t so scary was it?  Most of you do not even need the searing of this word to the heart because your heart is not set upon the destruction of another.  You all are some of the most loving and merciful people I know and though at first you might have been resistant to this Word, getting hung up on God hating anything, once we study it we realize it is given for our good, not our destruction – and we receive it as such.

20 My son, keep thy father’s commandment, and forsake not the law of thy mother:

21 Bind them continually upon thine heart, and tie them about thy neck.

22 When thou goest, it shall lead thee; when thou sleepest, it shall keep thee; and when thou awakest, it shall talk with thee.

23 For the commandment is a lamp; and the law is light; and reproofs of instruction are the way of life:

The commands of the law that the Father established should be some of the easiest precepts for the follower of Jesus to attain and are not fearful whatsoever if you are on God’s side.  The Law is a true blessing, especially when first saved – when you need some concrete do’s and don’ts and you are learning to follow Jesus’s ways and footsteps.  Some of my most precious memories of Sunday school as a child were having fun while learning about the 10 Commandments.  While humans make them scary by holding them over your head and adding to them – Jesus fulfilled the Law – meaning He submitted to the commands which were written.  Verse 23 tells us these simple steps of the law, lights our journey here on Earth, disciplines us when necessary and gives clear instructions on what the Father expects from us as His children.  The Law is a gift in so many ways – only those who walk in rebellion, get irritated because the law goes against their fleshly lusts and desires.  I am sorry, I warned you this was going to be meat today and earlier we set the foundation of why it is important to receive the fullness of the Father, not just what is comfortable to us.

Oh and real quick…  our Father in Heaven manages all evil, placing limitations, barriers, confines and purposes for our good on the times we do choose to interact with evil in anyway.  He allows and disallows all entrance into and out of our lives.  We are on a leash – for some it is short and for others it is real long…  especially concerning the curiosity of evils and the knowledge from the tree of good mixed with evil.  The truth is – many who claim to be Christ followers are still mesmerized and curious to know the deep secrets of satan.  Yikes— they will be sifted as wheat, the poor things, but God is God and I am not and I am the last person to tell Father of all parents how to raise His own children.

Okay – Are we good?  I pray I haven’t overwhelmed you today… 

I just want to point one more thing out that I found so amazing when I was studying this in Proverbs 6 – the Holy Spirit directed me to write out all the body parts involved in actions which God hates and I was stunned – We have EYES, MOUTH, HANDS, FEET and HEART mentioned here!  Just as described in the NT as Jesus’s Body (us) He said we have EYES, MOUTH, HANDS, FEET and HIS HEART of FLESH…  This body mentioned in Proverbs 6 is the EXACT OPPOSITE of the Body of Christ.  How amazing is our Lord!!!

So then He took me deeper on how each part that evil body plays by lifting themselves up in pride, shedding innocent blood, having these wicked imaginations, being so mischievous, bearing false witness against others to sow discord among the brethren.  And I went to the Beatitudes and you will not believe this – well you will, this lines right up with being the opposite of what Jesus would call THE BODY OF CHRIST/THE BRIDE – who are HUMBLE/POOR IN SPIRIT, MOURN, SEEK RIGHTEOUSNESS, MERCY, PURE IN HEART, PEACEMAKERS, PERSECUTED BY LIES.  It is almost as if the ones who are represented in Proverbs 6 are targeting those who are named in Mathew 5 — oh my, I pray you are getting what I am having a hard time articulating!  Bless your hearts, I know often my rambles need to be spiritually discerned – but I was just so excited to have my eyes opened to this truth and I wanted to share it mainly for those who shy away from some of the things which appear to be harsher in the Word than what they really are, like our Father’s commandments.  I just have this deep desire within me to take you all by the hand and go much deeper spiritually into the Word, but at the same time I don’t want anyone to choke on it…  It really is a balancing act sometimes.

Mark 4:19 tells us that we have so much focus on the things we care about in the World that deceive us, along with lusts of things in opposition to our Lord which enter into us that will CHOKE THE WORD – in which we reject it and it will not produce living fruit in our lives, if we permit it to do so.

But as we overcome our desires for worldly things and enticements, the Word falls on fertile soil, giving increase and fruit resembling the Kingdom of Heaven.

Is it really that hard for us to accept that God opposes or hates anything?  I mean can we grasp that He will say… Depart from me you workers of iniquity?  When we do not understand why He would do such a thing, may we rest in the truth of knowing He is God and we are not and therefore, His ways are higher.

If we are still loving what He rejects/hates…  then Scripture will be extremely offensive to us.  But if we love Him more than anything else, we may feel the sting of His redemptive correction but never offended by His truth.

So considering the World we live in and the mixture within the Church and still within us personally – we need to just have an open discussion about those who we deal with on a daily basis that are outlined in Proverbs 6 and UNREPENTANT…  Unrepentant is a word you are going to hear much more often in the near future.  Rarely these days will anyone say they are sorry for anything they do to harm another…  intentionally or inadvertently, if someone is hurt by us – it should be our pleasure to say I am sorry so they feel better and are happy and at peace again and feel loved.  Saying sorry is another quality of the poor in Spirit.  Thank You Lord.

I can’t believe I took up almost a whole broadcast just to set the foundation of what I really wanted to share…  Dealing with those who are unrepentant in the heart.  Well, it must have been purposeful. 

Those who are rebellious despise anyone talking about discipline, let alone it coming through the brethren.  So we are going to move very slowly and only by Scripture – we will let the Lord’s words speak for Himself on this one.  I can already feel the resistance and we haven’t even started the study yet.  Remember those with nothing to hide, hide nothing…  so come with a clean and pure heart next time we meet and we will truly have nothing to be offended about.

I am going to leave you with something to consider and ponder, knowing many of not most of you will shrink back…  But I am most curious who is with me?  It compliments our last study regarding “receiving” the least of these…

Proverbs 31:8-9 says –

Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute.  Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy.

Time to rise and shine Saints!!  When submitted to the Holy Spirit, we are free for the asking of calling evil good and good evil… Judging fairly, the Word says and remember – we are told to judge ourselves first and in the same measure/way you judge another you shall be judged – so tread ever so lightly in this…  This is just a teeny tiny bit of a pearl, for those who have ears to hear and a heart of flesh and are for life, all lives, placing others more important than ourselves.  If we do not view someone else more valuable than we are, seeing the preciousness within them – even if only a glimmer, we are not mature enough in our walks to judge someone of anything.  Glossing over rebellion to God ways, whether ours or another’s, is very dangerous ground to walk on.  There are times when the Word may seem confusing, even conflicting – when this happens just go to the Lord with an open and teachable heart, asking the Holy Spirit to guide you and open your eyes to the fullness of His word and He will do so.  The Lord will never deny someone who is whole-heartedly seeking truth.

So… could it be… we are being groomed to recognize, discern and even judge what is good and what is evil so we no longer mix the two?  Is Jesus teaching us how to judge fairly?  And like Paul said, is there no one spiritually mature to judge the most smallest of matters?  Please pray about this – and don’t ask one soul, but rather seek the Lord’s truth.  And next time we are going to talk about it more, along with disciplining those who are rebellious and unrepentant. 


Delusional & Loving It with Angela ~ Broadcast Transcript from January 28, 2020

So a long time ago I had this dream…  In it I was in a courtroom and I was on the witness stand, being charged as a criminal for proclaiming Jesus is Lord of my life.  As the prosecutor brought forth his evidence – he had gathered files and more files of instances when I followed Jesus, words I had spoken and such.  They were stacked one on top of another and he carried this huge pile over and placed it on the ledge right in front of me and said — “What do you say to defend yourself?”  And I said, I have no defense, I am guilty as charged.  The dream ended at that point.

I knew internally I had no defense, that I could never deny the words of my testimony and even if I tried – they had already presumed me guilty so saying anything in my defense would have been worthless.

I remember waking up and thinking – I wonder what my penalty would have been?  Were they planning to sentence me to death?  I knew instinctively what they were planning was drastic – because they no longer wanted me to witness of Jesus here on Earth.  I knew my fate had been sealed and yet I also knew when put into that position I could never deny Jesus.  Like I said, I had no defense because in their minds I had committed a great crime – they were delusional, drunk with vengeance and I was their target.  No convincing on my part would enlighten them that I was not their enemy, when in fact their enemy was a fragment of their own imagination. 

Did you know mobs are drunk on their own iniquity?  Iniquity meaning – their just and unrighteous cause – because no one who follows in Jesus’s ways would ever be stirred up internally to destroy another.  Lawlessness has gone rampant because people are not sober, but instead they have drank the wine of iniquity to the point sin is no longer sin and evil is good.  Their conscience is seared with a hot iron and they cannot even hear you.   They are convinced since you are not with them – that you are against them. 

I briefly mentioned the last time I was on air that I was walking this out – well, without my knowledge I have already been tried, found guilty and sentenced within my own natural family and at times my spiritual one.  And like I said – all I have been doing is remaining still in the Lord, not participating in the stone throwing and cursed condemnation of those they despise and rarely asking questions of those who hurt me and are void of self-reflection.  Thankfully, the Lord prepared me beforehand as much as I would yield and listen and grateful I am that this scenario is already scribed in His words in the Bible or I would likely be in greater torment than I am at times in this trial.  Funny how the word trial is used so much in the Bible – Who would have thought in that trial beings much persecution, condemnation?  I guess Paul said it best when he said he was a prisoner for Christ.  In many ways, we are too.

Jesus opened our eyes this past year so that when something happened, we would not lose our footing when it does – but rather be removed and separated from it.  Take mobs for example.  More than once we discussed the mob mentality and how they try to draw people into themselves by a commonality of revenge and curses to accuse.  He already prepared our hearts for what we are witnesses to today. 

So as I just sat back and looked at the full picture I see much of that going on right now in our own nation and even within the church.  And it pains me to share this… but please get ready, I have a real warning in my spirit that we too will possibly walk out what is happening as Christ followers, just like my dream was a practice event.  Which is why I shared it today.  Please do me a favor and get your eyes off their target – for or against – and see what is happening…  It is replay of the mobs who called for Jesus’s death – it is spiritual and those who are delusional and loving strife feast upon the blood of the innocent – those who are washed in the Blood of Christ.  And remember, this is not just about flesh and blood, the souls are injured internally from words so it is both they seek to destroy.  One of the main reasons we are discussing this is so that should these things happen to you – you rest in knowing it was already revealed and spoken and not some strange thing that is allowed to overtake you – but only to try you and make you white, pure and ready for Harvesting.  In addition, it is through the least of these the evil souls are judged – by the evil practices, plots and thoughts they have towards those who are considered little ones.  Which includes many of us.  Little ones are actually the humble, least of these, those who are less than in regards to citizens, weak, needy, a small remnant, struggling in many ways – without natural protection, orphans, fatherless, widows.  They are the chosen ones who may be least here, but will be the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.

Mathew 18 speaks of the little ones the most –

At the same time came the disciples unto Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?

And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them,

And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.

But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

How do you offend a little one? 

  • Trip them up, entice into sin, cause distrust in them by spreading gossip about who they follow, cause to fall away, encourage them to go against authority God put in place, to entice someone to judge unfavorably or unjustly of another, causing someone to get annoyed or causing them displeasure.

Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!

Now some of you all were taught to look down upon, if you may… those little ones who are offended.  But that is not at all what Jesus instructed – He simply said it is important the people in the World cause the little ones (those who are sensitive in the heart, wounded, humble) to be offended so that a woe is returned upon the wicked who harm the children of God.  He also proclaimed a woe be upon the whole world because of how they tolerate the offending of and offend the least of these in the Kingdom of Heaven.  Yes… tolerating it is just as wrong as participating in it.  Unfortunately, many will have to have Jesus Himself reveal that truth to them and hopefully repent from all the innocent blood on their hands as well.  And just to note… the disciples had not been converted yet fully at this point, so they were in a place of admonishment from Jesus– so they too were still compromised in such a way.  That should be a wakeup call for many right there, note to self, especially me.  Okay, deep breath… we need to Holy Spirit to lead and guide us in this message today like no other.

How many of you believe you “receive” little ones?  Keep in mind…  Receiving little ones is doing the very same thing to Jesus – as what we do to the least of these we do unto Him.  So… again, do you really believe you “receive” little ones?  This sounds like a trick question doesn’t it?  Lol…. Well it is, because I know you’ve been told differently… lol…. But God’s truth remains firm.  Again JESUS SAID – WHOEVER RECEIVES one little child in my name RECEIVES Me.  Do I have your attention now?  Because until I studied this… I must confess I missed the seriousness of what Jesus meant when He said RECEIVES a little child.  Just to clarify – this isn’t just by natural age, like all things Jesus spoke Spiritually to confound the wise in the minds – they just could not perceive it – You could be 65 years old before you become a little child in the Father’s Kingdom.  A child of God is considered innocent, naïve, etc…

To receive one who is little – receive in Greek means:

  • Take by the hand, pick up and carry, protect, nurture, fully receive, grant them access to you – not refuse intercourse or friendship (intimacy), teach, instruct, listen to what upsets them, receive as your own, never reject, endure with and bear them up to cover them & offer comfort.

So again I ask us…. Do we being little children ourselves or not, receive a little one?  Or do we let them wander around by themselves as sheep being led to the slaughter, uncovered and vulnerable?  I’ll let you answer that question for yourself and we will let the Scripture speak to us itself.  All I am asking is that you please consider what I am saying and not so quickly cast away the honor given to those who are their brothers keeper, like Cain did.  We all have our own placement within the body for the perfection of Jesus’s body in wholeness and healing.  Some of you all have built within you an urging to protect and nurture and comfort little children, don’t deny that leading, no matter what.  Always use Jesus as your example to follow, not man.  So what we just discussed is part of loving others just as you love yourself – that scripture do unto others as you would have them do unto you – same thing – no difference at all.  You do encourage your own souls, right?  So encourage another.  You protect yourself from harm, do you not?  Then protect others who are in harms way and do not realize it.  We comfort ourselves in many ways, so we should also be comforting another who is helpless.  And the list goes on and on…  Again, if you see one who is small, fragile and needy, vulnerable, weak – consider how you would want someone to assist you or even how you guard your own heart – and when given opportunity, guard theirs, I think the word says something like pulling another believer out of the fire in the Book of Jude.  Wouldn’t that require each of us to actually enter into a fire to pull someone of it?  So think about that for a moment and please lay it to heart.

Okay, so back to today’s message…  let’s partake of the Word together and pray that the Holy Spirit nourish us and strengthen us for the battle plan laid out before us.  I thank Him continually for hiding us under the shadow of His wings, keeping us hidden when we need to be hidden and seen when He permits us to be seen.  I pray we continue to surrender to His will, which is perfect as the Beloved witnesses we are and that we know in truth this World is certainly not our Home.  Amen.

We are going to read a few chapters in the Bible and discuss each one afterwards, in hopes that when we are faced with similar situations in our lives we have the Word to assist us to make it through.

We are getting into Mathew 12 – which…

Starts with the religious trying to find an accusation against Jesus as they viewed themselves very holy due to how they upheld the religious laws, but Jesus told them they had condemned the guiltless- Can you imagine condemning those who are guiltless before the Lord on High?  Jesus proceeded to go right into their synagogue – place of worship – healing people, which really upset the religious – they cared much more for obeying the law than they did for obeying the Father.  They were so caught up in the snare of the day, they would not even pick someone up who had fallen down on the Sabbath day. 

So the Pharisees gathered together trying to get a plan on how they could destroy Jesus.  They even declared what miracles Jesus was performing was being done by the power of satan.  Jesus knew their thoughts, just as He does ours, whether spoken or not and told them, a house or city divided against itself will not stand.  There is one important verse I want us to really take a look at:

Vs. 30 – He that is not with me is against me.

The same is true for when we are against other people, which should never be the case, providing we are FOR JESUS all the time.  So Jesus goes on to explain to them the repercussions of blasphemy of the Holy Ghost, rather refusing to be led by the Spirit and surrendered to the Father’s commands.  He explained to them we are like trees known by our own actions, called fruit.  If the tree is good, so will be the fruit and if the tree is corrupt so will be the fruit.  Applying that to us as humans, whatever the truth of us is, our actions will reflect who we really belong to – good or evil.  It is what we do, that reveals who we really are, although at times when we cannot hold our peace by our tongues our hearts are revealed during provocation by others or situations that frustrate us.

Vs. 34 – He calls them vipers, saying how can you being evil, speak good things – since out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.  Rather, the truth of us is revealed in our speech.

Vs. 35 – A good person has treasure in their hearts and manifests goodness, while an evil person manifests evil.

Vs. 36 – He tells us, that we will be held accountable to every IDLE word we have spoken.

Idle word – slow to perform, inactive, careless, temporal, useless, without performance, curses and condemnation – this is one reason why it is so very important we keep our word, as our yes should be yes and our no, no.  It would be much better to not say you are going to do something you really aren’t, than to say it and not follow through – in order to keep the conviction of integrity in the image of Jesus.  Remember, when others are looking for Him on Earth, they are looking to us, knowing He abides within His own.  Are we reflecting Him, do our walks match our talk?  Just something to consider… Jesus never spoke an idol word, keeping every promise He ever made – again, we should do our best to follow in His footsteps.

Vs. 37 gives a real wake up call – saying, it is by our words we are justified or condemned.  Saying one thing and doing another is not favorable in the eyes of the Father.

So they asked Jesus for a sign to believe and He told them it is wicked to seek a sign and no sign shall be given other than to remain in darkness three days, like Jonah – replicating Jesus’s resurrection from the tomb back to life after being in the tomb three days.

Jesus warned them about spirits being cast out of one person, roaming around the Earth, looking for another human vessel to reside it – to influence to carry out the enemy’s bidding on Earth.  But, if it finds no home to reside in, it then returns back to its original human abode – that was swept clean – bringing more evil spirits with it, they enter in and dwell and sadly the person is worse off than they were the first time.  Do you know why?  Lack of repentance, having no desire to be free – only a quick momentary fix… Jesus washes us clean when we invite Him into our hearts, but we collaborate with Him through the Holy Spirit the rest of our life on Earth every single moment– through repentance, to maintain the condition of purity and cleanliness, which why we are told to work out our salvation DAILY.

So we just went over almost all of Mathew 12, which I paraphrased for you.  We did this in order to see Jesus was about His Father’s business, being led by the Holy Spirit to speak on behalf of the Father, to teach, convict, guide, set Godly order, speak the truth of who others were, etc….  He had an assignment that everyday, He had not been known yet by His own family in Mathew 12 – so let’s look what happens in verses 46-50.

46 While he yet talked to the people, behold, his mother and his brethren stood without [IN NEED], desiring to speak with him.

47 Then one said unto him, Behold, thy mother and thy brethren stand without, desiring to speak with thee.

48 But he answered and said unto him that told him, Who is my mother? and who are my brethren?

49 And he stretched forth his hand toward his disciples, and said, Behold my mother and my brethren!

50 For whosoever shall do the will of my Father which is in heaven, the same is my brother, and sister, and mother.

You see this?  Jesus was led by the Father, right in the act of it and here comes His own natural family – His mother and relatives – standing outside the synagogue, gathering place – desiring to speak with Him, in need and influenced to pull Him away from His Father’s business…  This was a defining moment for Jesus and for us really, He looked to the crowd He was speaking to and said, these are my mother and brethren – stretching forth His hand towards His disciples specifically. 

So we have a natural family and a kingdom family.  Of course how divine it would be if they were blended, but they usually aren’t.  Just like Jesus, we have an immediate connection with others who are about the Father’s business, if we too are about His business and the same is true for those who are in the World – they clump together seeking the World’s kingdoms and ways.

We have so much more to cover on this topic.  Seems like we are truly at a turning point on our journey lately.  The Lord is opening doors and closing them as well, to give entry to those who can and cannot go forward with us personally.  Not all that began with us, will stay with us for the rest of our journey.  Which can be a sad time for many of us, through this awakening.  But just like we’ve gone over so many times, He knows we have little strength and yet have not denied His Name, are keeping His commandments on what we should do and where we should go.

Jesus told us in John 15:19 that if we were of this world, we would be loved by those influenced and within it, but since we are not of this world – being chosen to come out of it, those still entangled within it will hate us.  We will go over this more another time in the future.

Let’s apply what we learned today, knowing the words of Jesus are so comforting and nourishing for our souls to strengthen us to stay on the narrow path, walking hand in hand with Jesus and one another, no matter how treacherous it may become for our hearts and lives.

  • People will often gather up stones, I call them accusations, to use against others – they are gathering together now in mobs of people with likeminded hearts and minds to harm others with their words.  What is new and rampant these days is how if you remain steadfast in the love of Jesus, refusing to join them in stone throwing and accusation – since they are so delusional in their minds, they turn their fiery darts towards you.  If you do not join them in fighting their targeted enemy – you in turn become their enemy.  So unlike any other time – we must remain fixated with our eyes on Jesus above all else.
  • When the love of many runs cold, lawlessness increases and oh how the people love it so…  anger, hatred, accusations, bitterness and strife is the energy source which humans feed upon to rail accusations and then come against all those who are with Jesus.  Thankfully, Jesus told us if the World hated Him they will hate us too, so He prepared us for what is upon us now.
  • They may even proclaim Jesus is Lord, but…  their words are actions are against Him, when they are against others.  So pay very close attention to their actions – not necessarily the words people speak – but do they keep His words?  Is their fruit representing Jesus, the Tree of Life or are they a cursed tree with idle fruit which falls to the ground, never coming into fruition – remember we went over idle words verses fruitful ones.
  • Please ponder until next time we fellowship – If someone was forming a charge against you for the cause of Christ – Would they have enough evidence (your actions/deeds) to find you guilty as a bond-servant for Jesus?  If so, you are in better standing than most with the King of the Kingdom of Heaven.  If not, then pray and ask the Lord to help you surrender fully to Him and die to self, in that He be glorified in your life.  And just how do others glorify Him through you – by seeing His ways demonstrated to them through you.
  • Sometimes it feels as if we cannot make it another day – I get it… Remember, to cling to that which is good – Jesus, look to Him as the only example to follow – If He didn’t teach it, let it go, its just not that important in His Kingdom, if He didn’t say it – don’t receive it as truth, but consider it to be the mixture it is, release yourself from having to solve the problems of the World, being a sign seeker, pressed to be on someone’s side and above all things be the most loyal to HIM, not a Nation, leader – in the church or out of it, not your family, friends, church, ministry, nothing is to be placed above Him with our loyalty. 
  • Always forgive, knowing they know not what they do…  Just as they hurt Jesus, they often hurt us and I really believe if convicted by the Holy Spirit – if they really knew the ramifications of their own actions, they would not engage in such evil ways.  Mercy and grace is our redeeming quality found in Jesus, mercy given is mercy received and we all need more of it these days.  Jesus prayed, Father forgive them they know not what they do – this petition should also be continually crying out from our hearts on the behalf of those who are not called into the Kingdom as of yet in fullness.
  • Once the Lord reveals to us we too are a “little child” in comparison to the vastness of the Father and that in His eyes all His children are “little ones” our eyes and hearts are open in tenderness to watch over the least of these, as we are encouraged to do by Him.  We are all in a process of maturing into childlikeness and many have not the realization of this truth yet, which that too is purposed and a part of His divine plan, knowing we all see truth in parts right now – trusting Him to open our spiritual eyes to the fullness of Him little by little, precept upon precept, line upon line His ways and words are being sown into our lives and coming to increase by Him.
  • Which in this state of fighting, many will call foul on others – wearing themselves out, still defending self – they are those who focus on the offended, negating the woe which comes upon the ones who do offend.  It is a process… I’ve been there and done that too – it is a part of Jesus washing us clean from the sin of blaming others, including self.  Which blaming self is typically the last piece of residue to go.  I find those who harm others, prefer to focus on you not being hurt to distract from themselves being held accountable and taking ownership of the pain they’ve caused.  Never forget – hurting people, hurt others and yet, in the Kingdom of Heaven there is no wounding one to another.  The beautiful part of all this, so it is purposeful, is that Jesus mends up the wounds of the broken-hearted and heals us, making us whole.  We must not forget as His hands and feet, we too have a part in comforting one another and the only way to do so with authenticity is to have suffered in the heart as well.  To comfort another, you must need comforted as well, or you are harsh and commanding in your approach.  The Lord when He touches us, softens us in many ways. Not weakens us, but softens us by smoothing off the rough edges that are to abrasive to the sensitivity of others.
  • We must be disciplined in the Word as Jesus commanded us and not be like His disciples saying in our hearts – who is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.  This is a very hard one to master and takes many stripes to rid us of this mindset of wills.  Again, Mathew 18 that we went over tells us – only the humble, little ones, children are the greatest in the Kingdom.  On Earth, it is like the strong survive and thrive – in Heaven it is the weak, children of God.  This is a very difficult concept to embrace fully – most often the mind perceives it, but the heart is vacant to walk it out. 
  • A woe is promised to come upon those who harm little ones, children of God – little ones do not retaliate which opens the flood gates for the Father’s intervention.  It is true we do not repay evil with evil interventions – God does recompense evil done to us as He watches over us – but that does not mean we just sit back and tolerate evil being done to the least of these, doing so, doing nothing will cause us to partake in sin and that same woe will come upon us.  When the woman caught in adultery was in the midst of being stoned, Jesus didn’t walk away – He intervened, actually distracted those seeking to harm her by pointing out their sin in place of hers so they would reconsider – they too were caught in the act with her.  When living by Jesus’s example, we do not sit idly by why another is being harmed.  So those who were like us, bullied and delivered – we stand up for one being bullied, in that the curse is broken over that one’s life.  Leading by example, they will do the same, given the opportunity.
  • Jesus told us to “receive” little ones, meaning to take by the hand, carry, protect, nurture, etc… Great shall be your reward in Heaven for doing such as He commanded us to do.  Mans ways are not His ways – so we are highly blessed to have recorded so many of Jesus’s ways to guide us in this life.
  • Be very careful about attempting to cast devils out of people who do not desire to seek the Lord to remain free.  Guilting someone into repentance is not our Lord Jesus’s way.   You may share how the person is hurting themselves or others or even you – which may convict them we pray, just as we are convicted when we are disobedient.  Only Jesus can sweep clean a house, only Jesus can assist one who seeks Him to keep it clean – otherwise, people return to their own vomit and end up resentful and worse than how they initially were.  Never once did Jesus or the disciples chase devils away – they fled from them…  So keep that in mind, be wise and innocent at the same time.
  • We are to be imitators of ONE Jesus, our Lord and Savior and honestly, it is easier to model after Him than I initially imagined because He changes not.  When we try to imitate man, other humans, even in the church it is defeating at times because they are always raising the bar, changing, saying one thing one moment and something else the next.  There is much mixture in their speech and walk.  So if we fixate just on Jesus and His word, seeking to be pleasing unto our Father by desiring to do what is good in His sight – peace, love, light, rest pours into us in a most precious way so we may let our lights shine before all men in that they glorify our Father in Heaven, not us be glorified, only Him.
  • We are told to preach the Gospel and I am finding out most do not even know what that is…  Mathew, Mark, Luke and John are called the Gospels – so that is your hint.  The Gospel is, ready?  THE DOCUMENTATION OF JESUS’S LIFE WHILE ON EARTH – it includes instruction, His mannerisms, how He handled temptations, people influenced by devils, the sinners who sought Him and those sweet ones who desired to be near Him, what it looks like be a servant, how to treat females, how to forgive, how to love, how to interact, surrendering to the Father’s will, obedience, how to stay sober, rest, work, eat and even celebrate with dance – mainly how to be in this World and not of it – the Gospel is an incomplete record of Jesus, the only living example we are to follow.  It is the light which illuminates our path, so we know His ways to walk in them.
  • Lastly, some of us get this already and some of us need a loving reminder… that Jesus alone is the Savior, as the author and finisher of everyone’s life.  We sometimes confuse being our brother’s keeper with saving them, which can be very tiring to the soul.  Jesus told us what we do the least of these we do unto Him, like we are actually clothing Him, feeding Him, healing Him and visiting Him in prisons.  By fostering light in place of hopelessness within others, their lights shine brighter in a very darkened place.  To actually BE LOVE, is way different than orchestrating or choosing love.  Love just is – it is a constant, not forced upon or simply spoken… it is demonstrated through the heart of one, penetrating into the other and change occurs.  Love is something we partake in one with another – it is shared and never one sided.  You cannot force your love upon someone to receive it and you also cannot force someone to love you.  It just is… it just remains, but that is only when it is present, otherwise, it goes away.  Like a flame, if not cared cherished it will go out and when it does, our hearts grow cold.  So don’t do that… lol

The Lord just has pressed upon me so much with all the vengeance and blaming going on, as people target one another that we need to hold fast in being our brother’s keeper, looking out for, protecting, assisting and comforting one another.  These days are certainly like the days of Noah in which lawlessness, anger and strife was the order of the day.  It is my prayer we do not partake in any of that darkness and live as children of light and love in the Kingdom of Heaven here on Earth.

So as our hearts turn toward the Lord Jesus, we cross over from seeking to convict another to being broken and contrite in the spirit and heart petitioning the Lord to break our hearts for what breaks His so that we may receive the convicting gift of the Holy Spirit for the perfecting of our souls into Jesus’s image. 

Bible knowledge does not mean someone is spiritual – remember lucifer quoted the Scriptures to Jesus.  What does make us spiritual is obedience.  Doing what Jesus would do in any given situation is our test and trial, in that we decrease and He increases.  Purposely for me and for most all of you…. Receive His children, just as He did.

Things are very uncertain at the moment, doctrines of men, fear porn, drawing you in to look for signs, etc… is almost a daily temptation for many.  Overreacting, underreacting…  seems like an almost constant – what do I buy to have plenty just in case, how do I decide what to get, look up to the sky because it is falling, look down below the dark ones are rising out of it and so on and so on…  so how about this?  How about for the next week we all just look to Jesus first.  Really study Him – How He handled storms, accusations, rejections, the unseen and the unknown – and then once that is revealed let’s do our very best to imitate Him in every way.  I promise you, your time will not be wasted like it is looking to Earthly kingdoms in search of truth and direction.  Jesus said, not one hair on our heads shall be harmed, which is just one morsel of strengthening truth our souls are starving and crying out for to combat all the saber rattling the enemy is doing to shake us.  He also said He would appear and draw us up to Himself in the air…  and so many other words of comfort.  Jesus is our blessed hope and honestly, we become hopeless when we take to heart what is spoken by man more frequently than being fed by the Lord’s word.

Ring of Fire Broadcast Transcript ~

God’s Design For Loneliness ~

January 21, 2021

The Lord kept pressing upon me just how much the church body needs one another and yet, they do not believe it, let alone demonstrate brotherly/sisterly love to one another.  He began showing me several groups in the World who are more loyal and loving to one another than the average Christian, while they are yet sinners and what a blemish this portrays to His church.  He impressed upon me we better get it together and quickly, for time is very short and soon, very soon we are going to be placed into forced situations of needing one another and yet, no one may be found.  A call to love has gone out upon His people – Will we answer that call?  Some will and some will choose to stay in the false mindset of pride, stating, I have Jesus and need no other, which isn’t Biblical by the way – so as a gift He gave me this corrective and instructive teaching to apply to my own life.  It is a blessing because it drew up from within me what my heart cried out for and already knew and it also pressed repentance upon me for going against His design and listening to humans too much.

We are in a new season of preparation – He is gathering us together and those who want to come with Him are joining as one, partaking of love, feasting on Jesus – soon the door to the feast is closing, as He is personally tossing out the spots and blemishes who are not authentic in their demonstration of love.

You all ready to learn about – God’s Design For Loneliness?  Let’s get started!

I am already aware that many of you suffer silently in loneliness, thinking there is something wrong with you, afraid to speak up, confused and listening to whispers from the enemy that there is something terribly wrong with you – like you are incomplete, questioning your faith in Jesus and maybe why He is not enough for you.  I too know those self-condemning voices all too well – so rather than listening to man or even woman in my case, it is time we lay down all the words of vanity and go right to the Father’s words and search out the Scriptures for God’s true and divine plan, so that we have wisdom and strength in Him. 

Just to stir up your minds a little and open them to truth, I want to begin with a question, which we will answer along the way today…  Before the Garden fall, at the very beginning is where we too are going to begin today.  Back to a place where all things were perfect and good, way before sin entered the minds and hearts of others, be cleaned and washed by the purity of the Father’s design…  In a place and time where His design was untouched with the uncleanliness of humanity.  Because when our foundation is wrong, the whole thing is wrong… My question to you is:  If all things were design were perfect, void of the separation of sin and Adam communed fully with the Father – Why did the Father say to Adam, it is not good for man to be alone and created Eve?  What a perplexing question that is.  Right?

Well today, we are going to explore that Biblical truth, the Lord’s way, as the Holy Spirit unfolds God’s word and teaches us Himself.  We are also going to lay down all preconceived notions of man, which at times use God’s word selectively for self-gain in how they desire the Father’s will to be so they are off the hook so to speak from walking in submission to His design – today we are going to talk about – God’s Design for Loneliness and how it relates to the divine impartation placed within our heart’s desire.  And I hope to cover why you long for another to come along beside you on this journey called life.

So take a breath…. And let’s get started.  This teaching will likely make some of you nervous and for others bring a sigh of relief.  Regardless, the truth should always set us free, knowing it is already written upon the tablets of our hearts and if we are indeed a child of God, we should quickly come into agreement and alignment with what He has proclaimed – regardless of what the flesh desires.

In the New Testament there is a recollection of a time when Paul was very downhearted, lonely and depressed while out on a mission spreading the Gospel and yet he was with other believers his heart was longing for one he was especially close to.  He was pressed on every side, feeling hopeless and to help assist him – the Lord sent Titus to remain with him.

Let’s read the Word found in 2 Corinthians 7:

Great is my boldness of speech toward you, great is my glorying of you: I am filled with comfort, I am exceeding joyful in all our tribulation.

For, when we were come into Macedonia, our flesh had no rest, but we were troubled on every side; without were fightings, within were fears.

Nevertheless God, that comforteth those that are cast down, comforted us by the coming of Titus;

And not by his coming only, but by the consolation wherewith he was comforted in you, when he told us your earnest desire, your mourning, your fervent mind toward me; so that I rejoiced the more.

So the Lord sent Titus to deliver something to Paul’s heart that only he contained.  Titus comforted Paul, who described himself as downcast in the soul.  The Lord delivered comfort to one by the way of another when that particular one was lonely and in need.  He didn’t cast a demon off, he didn’t shame him for feeling hopeless, yell at him to get up, quote scripture to him – you know what God did?  He sent a friend…  A familiar face to embrace in love.  Paul and the others were in need and Titus was given a command to go and within Titus God placed comfort to deliver to those who needed uplifted and they were.  Relationship.  Fellowship.  God’s perfect design.

Did you know we are actually created within the Image of our Father to fellowship with one another?  Our Creator enjoyed fellowshipping with Adam in the coolness of the day and He actually enjoys being in relationship with each one of us – it brings Him great pleasure to do so.  This helps us to understand why loneliness sets in within us and a desire to be connected comes by the way of the heart when we are disconnected from those we love.  It is the same desire the Father has towards us as His creation, that we have towards one another.  But for many reasons the enemy like always, skews and tampers with to make unclean that which the Father has deemed clean – including relational love in the image of our Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Communing and fellowship is how we were created to be with one another.  Humans are interactive by nature since birth.  Did you know a newborn can have all their physical needs met and starve to death of love if not nurtured and held and comforted?  We are like that newborn in God’s family in many ways.

Here is what the enemy does not want to see happen, because he knows divided we fall.  He isn’t afraid of us nearly as much individually as he is when we join with fellow believers.  The more light we shine together, the more difficult it is for him to remain hidden and he hates it when darkness is revealed and brought forth by truth.  He can accomplish much more if darkness is not revealed so he goes to extremes to keep us silent and not exposing his unfruitful works.

Hebrews 10 says:

 25 Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.

Assembling here means to complete one another, gather together to worship the Lord.

We are incomplete without one another…. Even if we have the Lord, His Body is fitly joined together, one heart, mind and soul in Him.  We compliment one another in the Body by the tasks we have been given to complete the Lord’s work on Earth.  We have hands, eyes, ears, mouths, toes, arms, legs and all need one another to be a whole body.  Yay!  So see you are not so weird as people convinced you that you are!

We just read to not forsake gathering together to be complete.  Amen?  So a lack of connection stirs up loneliness for God’s children who are actually healthy in the heart.  The problem is we tried to join with most often with those who do not share or partake in the same love for Jesus that we have.  The Word calls this being equally/unequally yoked…  But wait… there is more – because honestly, many of us out of desperation for love have tried to join with others who do not share “in love” as we do…  We always love more, demonstrate love more than it is returned, are happy to compliment others for their growth, we pour out to those who do not “assemble” to love as we do.  Once we realize we are not in an equally yoked relationship, it helps to let go if possible and if not, to seek the Lord to restore all things new by His design, to be patient and wait for Him to move.  This is a tricky situation if you are committed, unless there is infidelity/abuse/neglect and such – which are all forms of adultery (being unfaithful in a relationship) – but let’s talk about that specifically another day because having sex outside of the marriage covenant is only one way someone is not faithful, there are many ways actually.  So if you are in one of those situations right now – pray and ask the Lord to lead you to stay or leave, depending on what His will is in your life.  It is during these times, I never trust my emotions or my heart – when I do I will stay when He wants me to go or go when He wants me to stay and most times He is seeking me to see if I will surrender to His will, then I am released from the desire of my heart.  He often doesn’t do things as quickly as we prefer – I remember Him telling me when married my husband was making me impure and I ended up waiting 7 years to be fully released.  Every situation is different and when I say released – it is about the heart, not the flesh because the flesh portion happens much quicker in my experience.  So above all else, seek Him. Amen.  Okay moving on…

The truth is Jesus sticks closer than a brother because He is all knowing to the truth of us – but even that doesn’t negate the joining of us with one another.

The only places I could find within Scripture that speaks of a true separation is where we are told that if an unbelieving spouse departs to let them go and then this one pertaining to marriage as well found in

1 Corinthians 7:

Defraud ye not one the other, except it be with consent for a time, that ye may give yourselves to fasting and prayer; and come together again, that Satan tempt you not for your incontinency.

So it is only through the agreement of both parties that you separate for a time to dedicate yourself to only the Lord, but we are instructed to come back together again or else the enemy will enter into the relationship and divide.

It is important to note, but we don’t have time to get into all of it today – that Paul often spoke of him not taking a wife as he did not burn with the desire to do so – it is evident the Lord used others to compliment him and ease his loneliness in a most precious way.  Which is the main reason we are even having this talk today – within the gathering together of Jesus’s Body, one to another we can live a very complete and fulfilled life.  Thank You Lord Jesus.  But for me and many of you as well, it is like we have a knowing inside that the Father did create us to compliment a partner in life – no two molds are the same, all are created differently for the fulfillment of greatest measured purposed on Earth.  It is the Father that places that desire within each of us, to be joined or be alone – one is not more highly esteemed than the other, just different.  My mom always told me there is a lid for every pot… just don’t boil over while in the process.  I do believe that – I do believe we are how the Father designed us before the fall – I just think we struggle with settling for something not that special, either giving up altogether or trying to make a square peg fit in a round hole., so we are always searching – never finding.

So don’t think it strange and don’t let anyone shame you for longing for, praying for and desiring to be a half of two, instead of incomplete as one.  Like I said God answered that question Himself at the very beginning by giving Adam an Eve and when He did so – He said it is not good for man to be alone.  Before the fall, like I said everything was perfect – there was no sin to separate God from Adam and the same is true for our eternal state of being.  Sin separates us not only from God, but from one another too.  When we sin against one we love – separation occurs by our own hand.  So in this beginning picture we see God and Adam communing together in the cool of the day and even with Eve too later on before they sinned – they had pleasure in one another and with the Father and the Father was pleased, they were pleased.  It is beautiful really.  So we see here it is possible to be in full surrender, obedience and purpose to the Lord and be one with another and you can also see you can be one with the Father and be alone and still have lack like Adam was before Eve.  Humans are created to be interactive and joined for complete fulfillment.

Like I said, unfortunately, we’ve looked for love in many wrong places, settling for wrong partners and friends, instead of waiting on God to deliver to us who He chose for us to be yoked with in Him.  Did you notice before how after every single thing the Father created He declared it was good?  He saw Adam and said this is not good… So He created Eve out of Adam and then declared it was good.  Have we just convinced ourselves that God changed His mind from the beginning?  Or do we just convince ourselves to bring comfort to ourselves on why things haven’t worked out?  Lately, the Holy Spirit has really been convicting me that if I truly desire to be surrendered and obedient I am not to pick and choose what portions of His word I want to come into alignment and agreement on in my own life, based on what I desire to agree with – He’s showing me either I embrace the whole truth or none of it and as all this is unfolding I am seeing the desires He placed within me – that it is those I am to hope for no matter what.  So I pray this encourages many of you as well.

Again, before sin entered the World, God declared it is not good to be alone, so He custom designed a female for the only male human existing on Earth at the time – all the animals already had counterparts, but remember He also placed within them a desire for one another, they already had a desire for the Lord – He joined them together, so that is truly three becoming one – a cord not easily broken.  Some might say it was for procreation to populate the Earth, but that is only the fruit of man not being alone, it is not the purpose of it, by what is written in God’s word.

Isolation was never created or called good – humans do that…  Relationship, human interactions with one another and with the Lord were His design from the beginning – it was His plan for humanity from the start and until the enemy began to lure Eve away, while Adam was distracted and then he weakened to the point of letting her convince him of going against what the Father said – 2 being 1 in the Lord was perfect, not shameful.  If they had not spent time apart, it is likely the serpent would not have been able to even get to Eve.  So as the love of many is growing colder in this World, relationships are severing all over the place and the enemy is at work in the process to redesign a masterpiece God already called good.  Lucifer divides in order to conquer and the Lord unites in order to strengthen and believe it or not, it seems as if the enemy is winning – thankfully he is already defeated and God will win this and all battles and by our reliance on Him, we too will overcome all things.

These life principals found in Ecclesiastes 4 that we are getting ready to read reveal a precious word portrait of the Father’s design of His family’s love one to another here on Earth.  Family in of itself is all about relational interactions – whether it be disheartening or dysfunctional or even frustrating at times… Love always remains between family and we remain loyal – family, real family is loyal to one another.  My brother Tommy John who is a few years younger than me and we used to fight like cats and dogs…  Today he is my very best friend, not because we haven’t ever been through any struggles – but quite the opposite really – we stick by one another, loyal and with love because many times, one another is all we have.  He is the other half of my 2 I guess you could say, proven by time he is always there for me – no matter what, just as I am him.  But as zealous as we are at love, we have the same zealousness for mercy, forgiveness, irritation – lol… like he hates it when I chew on the phone, just little things like that and when he corrects me – he’s usually right, but no one tell him that – I always have it coming and you know why he can correct me?  Because, we have relationship – he is there when I am down to comfort me – day or night and he is there to celebrate with me in the good times too.  Never correct someone more often than you love on them, not ever.  Anyway, I know this sort of love is possible, because I have experienced it – the problem is, sadly it is very rare.

Okay, back to our study…  We know lucifer isolated Eve in order she heard only him so he could coax her into disobedience.  And just to add to the 2 is better than 1…  Sadly, Adam left Eve’s side or she left his and they both were placed into a vulnerable situation.  You know the Garden is just so very telling of many things in the unveiling of truth and for today’s study, it is so important for us to see how the enemy can seduce the weaker one or even the stronger one without the covering of another.  And when we join ranks of agreement with the enemy through the uncovering, blame sets in, just as it did with Adam who blamed Eve and Eve blamed the serpent…. Not staying joined allowed the enemy to break the cord binding together, although not easily broken, it was severed and since both fell, neither could pick the other one up.  It makes me sad to think about really… What breaks that cord?  When you do not cherish the bond and nurture and care for it by partaking in love together.

Moving onto Ecclesiastes 4:8-16:

There is one alone, and there is not a second; yea, he hath neither child nor brother: yet is there no end of all his labour; neither is his eye satisfied with riches; neither saith he, For whom do I labour, and bereave my soul of good? This is also vanity, yea, it is a sore travail.

This is a mindset of the lonely – convincing themselves they don’t need anybody, even though our Father told us it is not good to be alone, these are the ones who protect themselves usually from past betrayals and hurts, who have slowly slipped into pride declaring I don’t want anyone close to me.  They become unyielding to others, will not listen to council and refuse comfort – sadly it is a sore and painful travail for them their whole lives.

Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour.

Two have a greater measurement of rewards for their work for the Lord as 2 can accomplish much more for Him than just one can.

10 For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up.

Every human falls at times and requires and longs for another to come along beside them and help them to stand, it is a God given gift – a back and forth sharing in a relationship of taking and receiving.  Sadly those who only learn to take are left with the void of what it means to give and those who only give are just as void, cut off from receiving love as well.  When we refuse to be yielded to help by insuring we stand alone, we suffer more unnecessarily, because we have not allowed anyone close enough to help us up when we fall.  The Word tells us we often cannot get up without someone else’s help in addition to the Lord’s and when we pick ourselves up, we lack the comfort required to be made whole again.

11 Again, if two lie together, then they have heat: but how can one be warm alone?

We can grow very cold inside without human interactions and intimacy with others.  Receiving love through a vessel which contains the love of Jesus keeps us warm during the coldest of trials.  Love is transferable between two of God’s creation – to receive and to return is equally important for balance in our lives.  If we remained guarded and alone, we may be warmed for a moment, but it is fleeting at best.  Love is relational, just as our relationship with Jesus is.

12 And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

We need one another to overcome the enemy who pursues us day and night, to steal, kill and destroy us.  Without a covering to walk with us on Earth, the enemy can prevail in our lives in ways he otherwise would not.  A threefold strand represents you, another and of course our Lord – so that we are able to withstand (not be moved to falling permanently) assaults, but rather overcome them all and grow.  Through trials as we grow, walking together, we grow as one too!

13 Better is a poor and a wise child than an old and foolish king, who will no more be admonished.

Here we are shown the purpose of being childlike rather than a secluded ruler, isolated and alone.

So we will get back to this in a moment, but first I want to touch on some places in the New Testament that compliments what we just read in the Old, knowing many carnal minds are thinking I have Jesus, I need no one else.  We still have a command to be together with others in such a communing way and have a command in essence to divinely serve those who are lonely, in which togetherness in the Lord is the remedy.  We – the church – with Jesus first of course, is the cure for such loneliness and oh how so many are lonely in this World right now, even those who are following Christ, many are lonely, needing comfort and love by demonstration, not just words.  All the disciples were blessed to know Jesus personally, but when He sent them out – even they went out 2 by 2, not to mention how the animals entered the Ark.  When we simply just give lip service to others regarding our love, it is void of sustaining fruit.

The reason I often hang on the demonstration part is because over the course of my life, I’ve often been told by many they love me, over and over and yet – their actions reflected otherwise.  Being older and wiser now – I am not moved so much by words of flattery, seeing I was laden with sin and drawn to that type, but Jesus set me free and I can see clearly now to my own worth and when someone does not mean what they say and say what they mean, that is it not purposed for me to cleave. Yay!

In the Family of God, the Ecclesia, the Church Body of Christ we are to partake in much together – relational, with one another, celebrating being an actual Child of God –

Romans 12              says to REJOICE with one another

Galatians 5             says to SERVE one another and CARRY one another’s burdens

Ephesians 4            says to FORGIVE one another

1 Thessalonians 4    says to COMFORT one another

1 Thessalonians 5    says to ENCOURAGE one another

1 Peter 4                says to OFFER HOSPITALITY to one another

James 5                 says to PRAY for one another

And the list is endless really, we are to mourn when others mourn, feed, clothe, visit them, give them our cloak for covering, actually… If someone comes to us in need and they are a part of the family of God, we are not to withhold our hand from them.  Again… relational and purposed actions and deeds.

So what does this look like exactly?  Because there truly are many rewards we receive right here and now from our obedience to the Father.  These are not suggestions, but rather principals that our real brothers and sisters are to abide by, as well as us, and if we do not follow our Lord’s commands we can be in danger at times and things don’t always go well for us, do they?

Reviewing Ecclesiastes 4 –

  • Verse 8 spoke of how difficult it is when we attempt to just go it alone.  I think the word was “sore travail.”
  • Verse 9 reveals how much more strength and encouragement we will have when given Godly assignments when shared by two, rather than just one doing all the labors, causing weariness.  There are natural and spiritual blessings that come upon 2 doing a quick work, like a faster turnaround, when there are doubled efforts of – hands, feet, eyes, heart, minds, etc… the work is completed quicker and in fullness.
  • Verse 10 explains how when 2 are walking along, 1 falls and is too hurt to get up, the other one can lift you up, even to face danger ahead or carry one another to safety.  Sometimes we need another’s perspective in our time of pain, they often can see things we cannot.  Plus, we all need that 1 who will not walk away no matter what and yet loves us enough to tell us the hard truths, not just what we want to hear.  It also says in the Word, that if one is entangled in sin, you who are more spiritual, help that person up, help them to stand tall and keep walking on the straight and narrow path.  You must, you must have a close relationship with someone first or they will not receive what you are saying – again 2 is better than 1 for this command.
  • Verse 11 shows us how providing support, comfort and nurturing is so warming to a hopeless heart when all seems lost.  That sort of love is extremely comforting as a display of our Father on Earth through one of His vessels.  It also displays our willingness to be humble, bend down to assist another, even to the point of touching what may be unclean to most – because that is what love does.  Love gives of your time to another, it is a display of affection, placing one above yourself which makes them feel worthy enough to even be loved.

When it comes to love cherishing another – perception is everything, otherwise it is cold and work based.  We are commanded to love, but love cannot be commanded void of demonstration.  We often make the mistake of loving others the way we desire to be loved, but pure love doesn’t seek its own way, it seeks to embrace the heart of the other person so they experience our embrace. 

  • This King Solomon, we read about being so very wise, paid a heavy price, pretending he could go it alone, not needing love as he had the approval of the masses by his charm, intellect, position, speech and appealing appearance.  He was alone by his own vanity of choosing self-reliance.  Solomon had lost his purpose somewhere along the way, eventually only to find himself alone on an emotional island.  He said, paraphrasing here, how there is nothing better than a faithful friend, speaking of how he went out searching for one and found none – only many who needed one – had finally decided he needed another, but none was found – just more of those who needed him.  He had receive the reward of the admiration he sought for, but he was longing and empty inside, having no one to share his life’s journey with – all the up’s and down’s – he finally figured out when it was too late… how lonely life at the top can truly be.
  • So there are many dangers to going it alone – like this King who was isolated, he refused to be willing to receive advice or wisdom from others, he would not receive assistance, comfort or help and what is the saddest part of this whole story – his heart grew so cold he no longer could receive love, he stopped searching for it.  This is what happens if we place ourselves on the throne of our hearts – we won’t let love in any longer. 

So there is a moral to this story and there is a purpose to it as well, which I will share in a moment.

I just want to remind us all – some pearls of wisdom –

To have a friend you must be one.

To be loved you must love.

We always get back to the exact measurement of what we give away and when you continually push people away, one day they will eventually just stay gone.  Yet, those who partake in the feast of love with you, will never leave your side.

Our joy is made full, not by receiving love, but by giving all our love away so that when it returns back to us, we are kept warm in the heart as it takes two – one cannot keep their own heart warm.  There is one to give and another to receive, Jesus is the love we exchange.

I mentioned there was a purpose in all this, besides the obvious, of course.

ROF Ministries is getting ready to launch ROFCONNECT…  I spoke a little bit about it a couple months ago and some of you sent your email address in and you do group emails occasionally, which is fabulous, btw.

I said after the new year, Lord willing we would launch ROFCONNECT and start plowing the ground and see if it is what you all, those we love and serve benefits you in anyway.  Remember our vision is to “heal hearts His way…” So this is just another outreach we are going to try and approach it somewhat patterned after the Prison Ministry. 

We firmly believe no one should feel left out, alone, sad and hopeless – so if the Lord allows, we have a heart’s desire to be used by Him to assist others to connect.  Whether that be in a group or 2 by 2, that is up to you and up to the Lord.  We are going to move slowly, prayerfully and with fluidity by the Holy Spirit in this assignment.  The Lord recently laid upon my heart just how much His Body and children are going to need one another to stand firm and in balance and that love in action is the key.

So here is how it will work…  Nikki is my assistant with this little outreach.  She has a new email specifically for ROF which is:  NIKKIROFCONNECT@GMAIL.COM

All you have to do is email her and for now all who join will receive continual weekly encouragements and I strongly encourage you all to write each other within the group often – words of encouragement and be open to share in your daily struggles, so without chains we may love and comfort one another.  As we move forward, we will seek the Lord’s guidance on matching people up 2 by 2 or you all may even do that yourselves.  If we do that… don’t laugh, but it goes with a dream I had years ago called – “matched by heaven…”  I used to joke I would run a dating service through the Holy Spirit’s guidance with strict adherence to Godly principals.  Although, males and females are encouraged to join ROFCONNECT, it is not, not a dating service… and believe me, I will know if any sneaky ones try to make it that…  With that being said – I still believe… every pot has a lid and may the Lord have His way in this, it is for you all and for His glory.  So if you are interested being on the ground floor of this new endeavor just email Nikki and we’ll see what happens!  I honestly have no expectations whatsoever.

Lastly, the Lord really convicted me last week…  Saying, my church keeps preaching about loving their enemies and my own children do not display love to one another.  He reminded me how charity starts at home and how we are not to withhold our hands from our own flesh…  Why?  Because when we do this preaching to the choir sort of thing and we are not walking it out one to another – we are no better than the hypocrites, saying one thing and doing another.  We are similar to those religious ones who pass by a stranger fallen down in need to get to church, to declare our holiness before all men.

We must check our own hearts to see, am I a clanging cymbal or sounding brass?

In closing, lets read it as a reminder of how important demonstrating love is to the Father, no matter our gift, assignment or calling…  love is what He desires to spread more than anything else.  Remember?   We are known by our charity, demonstrations of love – not our wisdom, teachings, fancy prayers, ministries, revelations, dreams/visions, declarations, but by our charity – which is all that we discussed today in how we authentically embrace one another.

1 Corinthians 13

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.

And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing.

And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.

Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;

Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.

For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.

10 But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.

11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12 For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

13 And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.

Ring of Fire Broadcast Transcript ~

Saintly Instructions For Abiding – Colossians Study

January 18, 2021


Colossians is a word from the Lord to the faithful saints who love one another, who’s hope is in Heaven and keep the truthful words as the Gospel, which is to witness and strive for Jesus’s ways while here on Earth.

They bring forth fruit by their actions, knowing the grace of God and love by the Spirit. They know God’s will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding and walk worthy of the Lord by desiring to please Him, showing only good works which others glorify Him for and are continually growing in their knowledge of Him, more than knowledge of anything else.

They are strengthened in might according to His glorious power, having patience and longsuffering with continued joy – giving all thanks to the Father by partaking in light as Saints in His inheritance.  They have been delivered from all darkness, being translated into the Kingdom that Jesus rules over, as He redeemed them by His blood, through repentance and forgiveness of sins.  As Jesus was the firstborn of many, they are too partakers of the invisible God.

The particular Saints believe it is through Him all things were created, that are in Heaven and Earth – visible and invisible, including thrones, dominions, principalities and powers – all things were created by Him and especially for Him and that He is before all things and by Him all things exist. 

They also know He is the head of the body, called the church as He alone is the beginning, as a firstborn from the dead so that in all things He might come first.  It pleased the Father that in Jesus all fullness shall dwell.  He made peace through the blood on the cross so that only by Him are all things reconciled unto Himself – whether in Heaven or on Earth.

He said that we have been alienated and enemies in our own minds at times, doing wicked things and works – but after receiving Jesus we are no longer that person in our actions, because our minds have been changed.  Because He died in the flesh, He is able to present us holy and unblameable and unreprovable in His sight – we are changed in the mind so our actions reflect His and are holy and pure. 

If we continue grounded in the faith and settled and are not moved away from the Gospel of following in Jesus’s footsteps and ways – all that we have heard about Him, which was preached to every creature under heaven – it is assured we shall remain in Him. 

Ministers for Jesus do rejoice in their sufferings for the body, suffering afflictions of Christ in our flesh for His body’s sake, who is the church.  We are made ministers according to God’s plan in order to fulfill the word of God.  We not only speak of it, we walk it out.

There is a mystery which was hidden from ages and generations – but that mystery is not hidden from His saints – as God makes known what the riches of the glory of this mystery specifically to us.  This mystery is actually Jesus abiding within us individually, our Lord, the hope of all glory. 

He is who we preach, warning everyone who will listen – teaching all who are wise so that we may present all perfect in Christ Jesus – belonging to Him, eternally.  We labor and strive according to His working in others, just as He works in us in a mighty way.


We as His ministers carry a great conflict for the body, whether we’ve met face to face or not in that all hearts might be comforted, are knit together as one in love, rich with the full assurance of understanding and acknowledging the mystery of God, the Father and of Jesus – in whom all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge are hid, only in them is where true and pure knowledge is found.

So we warn all – take heed that any man may beguile you with enticing words, we are together and one in the Spirit, regardless if fellowshipping in the flesh.  We have joy looking upon Godly order, steadfastness and your faith in Jesus.  Just as you say you have received Jesus, you must also walk in His ways, rooted and built up in Him, establishing your faith – just as you have been taught, being abounding with thanksgiving.

Beward – lest any man spoil you by their philosophy, vain deceit or any traditions supported by man – who considers the ways of the World rather than considering Jesus Christ foremost, as it is in Him you may dwell in the fullness of the Body of Christ because it is in Him you are complete.  Jesus is the Head of His body over all principalities and powers.

You have a circumcision inwardly made without human hands, in which you now put off the body of flesh and the sins which corrupt, through seeking to follow Jesus’s ways.  Your old self was buried with Him and now you are risen with Him through your faith that Jesus is your Savior by the operation of God upon you, who also raised Jesus from the dead, you have been raised.

You were dead in your sins, revealed by the uncircumcision of your flesh ways, but He quickened you together with Him and forgave you of all your transgressions.  He blotted out all that was being held against us, that which is contrary to a child of God – He removed it all and nailed it to the cross.  He spoiled the plans of principalities and powers by making a show of them openly, while triumphing over them at the same time.

Let no one judge you in what you eat or what you drink or in respect of holydays, the new moon or even what they deem as the Sabbath days – which when they do is just a shadow of that which is to come later on.

Let no man beguile you either of your reward through volunteering for humility, the worshipping of angels, discussing things he has not really seen – which describes those who are vainly puffed up by their fleshly minds.  For they do not hold up Jesus as head of His body – who gives nourishment through ministering, being knit together in Him – the body increases with the increased knowledge of God – which is the only way of truthful knowledge.

Because if we are dead already with Jesus, then we are also dead to entertaining the rudiments of the World.  Even though we live in it and are subject to its ordinances (rules), consisting of directives to touch not, taste not, handle not – including all things we may perish from using – why simply follow the commandments and doctrines of men?  They direct only to show their own wisdom and humility while neglecting the body of Christ, not being honorable to satisfy their own fleshly ways.


But if you are one who is risen with Christ, you are also one who seeks only those things which are above – which is where Jesus sits on the right hand of the Father.  So from this day forward, set your affection on things above, not on things on Earth.  Because you are dead to sin, your life is hidden in Jesus so that when Jesus appears, who is our life – He is appearing through us in glory.  Therefore, mortify – which means to destroy – your members on Earth who display – fornication, uncleanness, unhealthy/excessive affection, evil impulses, idolatry and coveting what others have – because of these things the wrath of God will come upon His own children because they are so disobedient in these sinful ways.

Although, it is true – you used to be like this, because you too walked as a disobedient child – but now being hid in Jesus – you walk in His ways, putting off all anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication that is still coming out of your mouth.

Do not lie to one another as if you have put away how you used to be, but how you act is the truth of how you really are – rather, put on the new man, which is renewed in the knowledge after the image of Him that created Him – knowing Jesus is what is most important – all are equal to be hid in Him, if they chose to do so.

Put on as His elect ones who are holy and beloved, much mercy, kindness, humbleness of the mind, meekness and longsuffering – as you forbear one another, forgiving one another continually.  If you do have a disagreement with someone, forgive, just as Jesus forgave you.  And above all else, stay in a constant state of affectionate and brotherly love by have an attachment to one another – which is the bond of perfectness for the body of Christ.

Let the peace of God rule in your heart, as you are one body in Him, so be thankful.  Let the word of God dwell in you richly in all wisdom as you teach one another – and also as you admonish, which is gently warning someone through encouraging advice – using psalms, spiritual songs to edify the Lord through the grace you have in your own heart.

And may whatever you do, every single thing – whether in word or action – do all of it in the Name of the Lord Jesus, giving all thanks to Him and the Father too.

Wives submit to the leading of your husband, not trying to rule over them as if you know better how to guard your household, loving Jesus through them, loving them is just like how you love Jesus.

Husbands, love your wives, never being bitter towards them. Just love them, as Jesus loves and cares and is attentive to His church.

Children you must obey your parents in all things in order to find yourself pleasing the Lord.

Fathers do not provoke your children to anger, which will only in turn frustrate and discourage them to want to just give up.

Servants obey those who are over you in the flesh, not just when they are looking, nor as being a man pleaser – but with singleness of the heart, fearing not man but God alone.

And in all things you do – do it with your whole heart as you were doing it to the Lord Himself, not unto men, because you must know what you do to others you are doing to the Lord to receive the reward of your inheritance since you serve the Lord Jesus Christ.  But he that does wrong, shall receive the wrong which he has done, no matter who he is because God is not a respecter of persons – He treats all the same.


Masters who rule over servants, always give to them that which is just and equal, knowing we too have a Master in Heaven – may we replicate Him while leading others continually.

Continue in prayer and be watchful, always with thanksgiving.  Pray for us that God will continue to open a door to us by His mouth to speak about the mystery of Christ Jesus, for all His servants are truly in bonds to Him so that He manifests within us when we speak – so it isn’t us speaking, only Him.

May you walk in wisdom towards those that are without and may you be right on time when assisting them.  Let your speech always be with gracefulness, seasoned with salt – not to much, not to little, but accepted and good to ingest of, pertaining to the Word and may you know fully how to answer everyone’s questions by the Spirit and truth.

So before anyone totally discounts this Word by discounting themselves as a leader, lets stop for just a moment and consider if Jesus lets us off the hook really that easy.  Because the truth is anyone who says they are a Christian is anointed, qualified and called to lead others, many places in the Bible this is called being a servant – as one who is being transformed into the Image of Christ, a vessel in which He abides and works through, led by the Holy Spirit which also resides to guide and direct us individually – a true disciple in Him, leads others.  In fact, if we are really a Christian, everyone who comes in contact with us daily, should walk away from an encounter with Him through us.  So if you say, I am a Christian, what should follow is – and I love _______, fill in the blank.  It might be comforting others, loving other, sharing the Word with others, praying for them when they are sick, teaching them about Jesus and His ways, etc…  Being a Christian means Christ follower and in that, just as Paul spoke – others are going to look to us as examples on how to follow Jesus.  The title of Christian is not a given pronouncement like Mr. or Mrs. or Doctor before your name, it is a way of life. 

Even the disciples who spent time continually in Jesus’s presence while on Earth had a difficult time embracing this truth and there is more than one account when they argued amongst themselves – so much so, they even split up over disputes, betraying one another or not feeling as if they were on the same page all the time.  Can you imagine, in the upper room as they gathered in the presence of the Lord Jesus before He was to go to the cross, they were arguing in front of Him about who among them is the greatest?  Its in Luke 22, lets read a little about what happened.

This was right after satan entered into Judas for the ordained betrayment of all time – Jesus had told them that the hand of the one who will betray Him is with Him at the table that very moment, Jesus told them it was already determined He be betrayed, but that a woe would come upon the weakened vessel who did the betraying.  The same is true in our lives as well, many do betray us and it is allowed for God’s purpose and ours, but those who do so will suffer great woes.  Immediately after Jesus stated this, the disciples get into an argument about which of them would do such a thing, which then turned into a boasting of self that stirred up much strife over which of them should be counted as the greatest.  Which it seems Peter was the worst and due to his pride ended up denying the Lord Jesus three times, after proclaiming he was willing to go to prison and death with Jesus.  As the story goes, pride always comes before a fall – a woe granted in that satan may sift us as wheat to purify us from our own ego and pride.  And right after that – Jesus command they and us pray we enter not into temptation… then as Jesus went to pray in preparation for what was to come – all the disciples fell asleep – none stayed awake to pray with Him – Jesus told them sleeping was equal to falling into temptation.  And lets not forget, Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss – which is so profound and spiritually eye opening, isn’t it?  It is not those we meet on the street who can betray us of the heart is it?  Nope, it is those closest to us that can do the most damage.  The fact it was mentioned Judas betrayed with a kiss is very telling and a teaching in of itself for another time.

So lets read the word and see how Jesus responded to this silly dispute.

Luke 22:25-30

25 And He said to them, “The kings of the Gentiles exercise lordship over them, and those who exercise authority over them are called ‘benefactors.’ 26 But not so among you; on the contrary, he who is greatest among you, let him be as the younger, and he who governs as he who serves. 27 For who is greater, he who sits at the table, or he who serves? Is it not he who sits at the table? Yet I am among you as the One who serves.

He is telling us here that we were created to follow and lead others and those who are the World look up to are benefactors.  But that is not for us now, not now that we are within the Body of Christ – instead we exist for His pleasure, to do His will, to imitate Him as the young is greatest among us and to govern – you must serve others.  So He asked them who they perceive as greater?  The one who sits at the table or the one who serves those who are sitting?  Jesus said it is the ones who are sitting at the table to receive that are the greatest and that He is the One among who serves them.  I believe we can all agree Jesus in our opinion, we would consider the greatest of all, but He served, didn’t He? 

The reason many feel worthless and feeble in the mind is because before you were saved you were sitting at the table to receive and you surrendered your heart to Jesus in a most precious way and guess what you are still doing?  Being served, rather than transitioning over into being a servant – you are still, after all this time, taking and taking when you should be leading, loving, comforting, encouraging and leading others with your time, talent or treasure.  Jesus told us to make disciples of all men – to be fishers of men, but so many in the church have fallen asleep, tired and too lazy to stay awake and alert as the Body of Christ, serving and praying until Jesus comes.

Okay, lets apply the Word we learned today ~

  • The Lord never changes and He is continually resisting the proud, they get sifted by satan, purified in the process in order they stand in Him as His hands and feet, rid of self glory.
  • When the Lord resists the proud, He also releases to the meek, activating them and giving them charge to be salt and light on the Earth.
  • One quick way to recognize those who are self-elevating are those who boast on themselves or glorify themselves in how holy they are because of their own deeds.  They are also quick to point out the faults of others, blind to their own awareness – yet obvious to all.  These are called faultfinders – they ignore the plank (blinding fault of theirs) and yet see the miniscule speck of fault in others.  And by the way – the plank is actually ego which makes them blind to humility and they cannot perceive their own weaknesses.
  • Jesus must be revealed to us before He is revealed through us, keeping in mind Jesus is love.  An empty glass has nothing to poor out… but self I guess.  When Jesus’s love is revealed to us, He pours in then we can pour Him out to others so that all we say and do is done with love.
  • Speaking a truth is not the same as an accusation.  Jesus called some  vipers, the disciples also often spoke the truth of who was before them – idolaters, thieves, murderers, prostitutes and so forth, but the key here was for redemption, not a death sentence and remember… accusations rarely speak the truth, usually contain an element of false embellishment or flat out lie.  This is meat, not milk and your baby flesh likely wants to resist it – but it is time the church grow up, time is just too short.  Sadly, we cannot even teach on this subject fully, there is too much resistance, even right now many do not want the fullness of the Scriptures, preferring to have their ears tickled by what they already perceive as truth to themselves, rather than grow by the nourishing word.
  • Speaking the truth about someone in love is not judging them, proclaiming a sentence of death by consequence over them for that sin is judgement.  But can we hear these words?  Or do we prefer to hear smooth words of mixture?  We’ve all fallen short of representing the Lord’s glory haven’t we?  Best to just confess it to overcome it – comforting and loving one another for the purity of His body, than to just keep hidden all that which is soon to be brought before all through the light so very soon.  Jesus is coming soon – are we ready?  I mean truly ready? Or when satan comes, will he find something still within us to cling on to that we hidden deep inside?  I saw satan fall like lighting – have you all?  He has already been defeated, it is my prayer we embrace Jesus fully and surrender our whole hearts to Him and be none of reputation here on Earth and like I say all the time, those with nothing to hide, hide nothing.
  • When we are hidden in Christ, we lay down our reputation so His is witnessed to others.  Those who are joined to the Lord are one with Him and He is displayed through us by the characteristics we display to others.  This is called integrity – remember, a part from Him we can do nothing but display ourselves.  The problem with many in the church today is it portrays the image of self, not Jesus.
  • Jesus was betrayed and broken in the heart and scarred more than anyone in history and yet He loved extravagantly, never to forsake us or others.  He is always calling us unto Himself and is trustworthy to guide us through the pains of this life.  He sits with us when we are weak, He carries us until we are able to walk upright again and all we have to do is reach for Him, He is there.  It may take all of what we are to do so, but in return we get all of Him.
  • When we attempt to do the will of God by our own might or power we wear ourselves out in the process quickly and begin to take things by force, it is then our burdens become very heavy.  We then flounder as Jesus no longer infuses us with His peace, but instead we are leaning on our own understanding, rather than trusting Him for the outcome.
  • We dwell in the Father’s house, which is where Jesus dwells – Jesus within us and us within Jesus.  This oneness is unique to anything found on Earth and we are joined together through Him and are at rest from our own works to make things happen, especially joining to those we are unequally yoked with.
  • As Jesus works in us inwardly, His works come through us outwardly so that it is evident Jesus as author and finisher is prominent in our lives.  We no longer do His work, we are His work.
  • Jesus as the master builder is building His people together, while the enemy is being used to tear down all that which is not found solely in Him.
  • As Jesus is revealing Himself more and more through us, religion is being shaken, as are those who are religious and contain the doctrines of men.
  • A worker of iniquity is right in his own eyes only and against anyone who is against the revealing of that iniquity so that they gravitate to those who flatter them with their lips.
  • We are only usable in the Kingdom of God to the measurement we no longer exist in what work we are doing for Him, as we have one COLLECTIVE purpose – Christ in you, individually and collectively.
  • Jesus is shattering all the faith words spoken to us and over us by man, so that only His word remains within us.  It is by faith we can do all things because it is not us doing it, but Jesus is performing His purposed will through us.
  • One day we will see that everything we deal with daily is His love on display through us and our faith is increased as our eyes are opened to see spiritually that the bad which happened to us actually worked together for our own good.
  • If you were the only person on Earth, Jesus would still do and would of still done everything the same – that is just how important you are to Him.
  • Being in God’s presence is the only fruitful place to be, being in obedience is also the safest place on Earth, no matter what is falling down around you.  So whether that is the viper’s den, lion’s den, ICU, jail, etc…  whatever trial you may be in at the moment is a starting place to surrender as we are just now learning what it means to abide and remain hidden in Him.  He is breaking off of us to be content with outside influences so that we are content only with Him residing within our hearts.
  • Never forget, we are safe and secure in His hands.  But do we believe it?  Do we understand Jesus was safe in His Father’s hands when He was anointed, put on trial, scourged and slayed?  Do we embrace or resist the Father’s sovereign plan, trusting Him no matter what situations we face?  Are we ready to relinquish all control and attempts to try to alter the Father’s divine plan or do we, like Judas take matters into our own hands for self-gain?
  • Remember – being a Christ follower, a true follower who imitates His ways, mannerisms, integrity and love – is not for the faint hearted.  It is actually the hardest thing you will do while on this Earth journey, requiring we lay our own lives down fully, to never pick them up again and settle it in our hearts to not be like one of those who told Jesus to come down off the cross of suffering to save His own life.
  • Encourage yourself believing – to live is Christ, to die is gain.  Dying to self, dying in the natural is really no biggie if you know where you are going.
  • As prisoners in this World, where you can barely breath since it no longer has anything of worth to offer us, we understand that death to self is the only way out and is where true freedom rings.

So as the Bride is making herself ready – it is my prayer we stop being that runaway bride, who avoids all things unseen and rise up as His Beloved, it is surely time.

With all the uncertainty in the World and especially our Nation at the moment, I am so very grateful Jesus is drawing us into Himself, as He calls us with His love. 

Fatherless, Orphans, Strangers & Widows ~

FATHERLESS/ORPHANS, STRANGERS & WIDOWS ~  Basically those who have been abandoned, having only the Lord to rely on as their source.  Although, it is true people may come and go throughout different points and times in our lives for a season, none have remained permanently. 

In order to make sense of all this and especially for those of us who are sensitive of the heart and rather than seeing clearly that something is fragmented within the other person – we have a tendency to take this upon ourselves, looking inward and saying – there must be something wrong with me, am I unlovable?  We are a very rare collection of people from that respect – One of our greatest qualities is we love deeply and fully – and this is something others will not understand unless they suffer it as well. 

When you give your all, when you love wholeheartedly and deeply – you suffer loss fully and wholeheartedly.  I can always tell who gets this and who doesn’t by how they interact with others.  It is very eye opening to just observe.  Most people love only on the surface, so they have no placement or are not familiar with loving others fully.  They may try to convey they are the same or even give in such a way – but they don’t… And how do we know?  By how easily they walk away…  Those who are abandoned, do not abandon – not ever in the heart – because they do not desire to inflict that sort of pain upon another, which is why we often remain in a holding pattern, longing, after others have separated from us.

Jesus understood this pain of the heart – which is why He in turn said – He would never leave us or forsake us, He too was abandoned, betrayed and left alone by those who He called His friends.  I was thinking about in the Garden how He was in view of what He would have to endure, asking just one disciple to stay away and comfort Him and pray with Him – but they all fell asleep.  We too have been in that same position at times, haven’t we?  Surrounded by those who say they are there for us – but when it is time for demonstration – they aren’t. 

So for a few – chosen by the Father – to be His child in such a precious way, just like Jesus – He becomes our only true source emotionally, physically, mentally – just all the way around.  There is really such a beautiful ending to this sacrifice we make in the natural which fuses us to Jesus, Who sticks closer than a brother, so that when abandoned He rises up as our only source of happiness, joy and hope.

Our Father takes great notice when we care for the least of these, the “strangers, fatherless, orphans & widows.”  There is one example after another when He pointed out in His word just how righteous someone is who tends to this select group and it is mentioned over and over in the Word, which tells us just how important this is to Him.

So I pulled out several Scriptures, to clarify this priority of the Father to His family – but I am finding who really comes to the comfort of the fatherless, orphans, strangers and widows are just that — the fatherless, orphans, strangers and widows.  We know Job was counted righteous because of the love he showed to this particular group and in turn become just like them, abandoned by all who said they would stick with him.

Because the Lord’s Words are so comforting, giving us placement in our identities, I am going to read several of the Scriptures which mentions us – as they portray the truth we may not matter to many, but to our Father in Heaven – we matter the most.

Exodus 22:22 

Ye shall not afflict any widow, or fatherless child.

Deut 10:18

He doth execute the judgment of the fatherless and widow, and loveth the stranger, in giving him food and raiment.

Stranger – foreigner in the World, misfit, the least of these

Deut 24:21

When thou gatherest the grapes of thy vineyard, thou shalt not glean it afterward: it shall be for the stranger, for the fatherless, and for the widow.

The Father always makes provision for us who have been abandoned

Deut 26:12

When thou hast made an end of tithing all the tithes of thine increase the third year, which is the year of tithing, and hast given it unto the Levite, the stranger, the fatherless, and the widow, that they may eat within thy gates, and be filled;

Job 6:27         

Yea, ye overwhelm the fatherless, and ye dig a pit for your friend.

Job 22:9

Thou hast sent widows away empty, and the arms of the fatherless have been broken.

Job 29:12

Because I delivered the poor that cried, and the fatherless, and him that had none to help him.

Psa 10:18

To judge the fatherless and the oppressed, that the man of the earth may no more oppress.

Psa 68:5

A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation.

Psa 82:3

Defend the poor and fatherless: do justice to the afflicted and needy.

Psa 146:9

The LORD preserveth the strangers; he relieveth the fatherless and widow: but the way of the wicked he turneth upside down.

Isa 1:17

Learn to do well; seek judgment, relieve the oppressed, judge the fatherless, plead for the widow.

Jer 5:28

They are waxen fat, they shine: yea, they overpass the deeds of the wicked: they judge not the cause, the cause of the fatherless, yet they prosper; and the right of the needy do they not judge.

Jer 7:6

If ye oppress not the stranger, the fatherless, and the widow, and shed not innocent blood in this place, neither walk after other gods to your hurt:

Look at this —- oppressing the stranger, fatherless and widow is equaled with shedding innocent blood

Jer 22:3

Thus saith the LORD; Execute ye judgment and righteousness, and deliver the spoiled out of the hand of the oppressor: and do no wrong, do no violence to the stranger, the fatherless, nor the widow, neither shed innocent blood in this place.

Jer 49:11

Leave thy fatherless children, I will preserve them alive; and let thy widows trust in me.

Ezek 22:7

In thee have they set light by father and mother: in the midst of thee have they dealt by oppression with the stranger: in thee have they vexed the fatherless and the widow.

Vexed – mistreat, treat violently

Zech 7:10

And oppress not the widow, nor the fatherless, the stranger, nor the poor; and let none of you imagine evil against his brother in your heart.

Mal 3:5

And I will come near to you to judgment; and I will be a swift witness against the sorcerers, and against the adulterers, and against false swearers, and against those that oppress the hireling in his wages, the widow, and the fatherless, and that turn aside the stranger from his right, and fear not me, saith the LORD of hosts.

James 1:27

Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.

I often refer to us as “Messiah’s misfits” and it is time to grow…  to grow into the truth of us.  From being a spiritual orphans to sons and daughters of the Most High God and Father.  John 14:18 tells us – He will not leave us orphans and in Revelation He promises that one day in a time to come – all will know He loved us.  Mathew 17:11 promises us that Elijah will come in the last days and restore all things – which includes us.  We are being restored, while the World turns and people go on about their own lives – The Father’s spirit is pouring out upon us, turning our hearts towards Himself and we are being separated out – and being drawn unto Him.  There is a crown of life promised to those that simply just love Him.  James 1:26 & 27 – reveals a great mystery…

If any man among you seems to be religious and does not bridle his tongue, but deceives his own heart (about himself) this man’s religion is in vain (about himself).  Pure religion (untainted by ego) and undefiled (no mixture) before God the Father is this – to visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction and to keep himself unspotted from the World.  VISIT – not just lip service, this type of love is an action word – it is walking out the principals of love via demonstration of love.  It is a knowing that what we do for the least of these – we are actually doing to Jesus – and once our eyes are open, we tread very lightly, but fully understanding we are in reality loving Jesus through others being the recipient of shared and complimented love where they is one source – HIM.

Once we grasp this kingdom way – we will never seek nor entertain tainted and false love again, which is counterfeit, producing no good fruit.  We go from looking for love in all the wrong places to only allowing into us love which the Father ordains is permitted for our goodness and growth.  And it is okay if you aren’t quite there yet – this is all about growth, not perfection.  Are we growing?  That is the question which we need to be asking.  And both have fruit which help us determine if we are embracing the identity of being an orphan or a child of God.

Let’s go over some of these tell-tell signs to assist us in measuring our growth or if we have become somewhat stagnant or stuck in place.  Obviously, I have already reviewed this list and if I am honest discovered I seem to gravitate at times to embracing being an orphan and not a child of God.  As I go over this – you might want to take a mental note of just which mindset you see yourself agreeing with.

WORKSHEET by Johnny Long – which I altered a bit and helped give me strength and clarity on just what is truth and what is a figment of my own mind.

Applying what we’ve learned, pearls ~

  • Our spirit knows the truth of us, but our minds do not grasp Spiritual truths continually.  In our spirit we know we are a child of God but in our minds/hearts we believe we are orphans.  Whatever truth we cling to and believe – that is what we will walk out daily.  An orphan identity is bondage, which a child of God is freedom to be you.
  • Fatherless, orphan, stranger, widow in Greek all means the same thing pretty much – UNCOVERED & UNPROTECTED.
  • When we feel abandoned we will often believe we are failing on every level, but the truth is – we may be failing on every level but God’s – since only He knows the truth of us and our hearts, every tear we’ve cried and every struggle we could barely get through.  And although man judged outwardly – only our Lord knows our obstacles, our weaknesses and desperation to overcome them and how our soul seeks to be pleasing to Him.
  • An orphaned soul knows the Father as ruler only, not understanding He disciplines His own children for our good – not because He is mean and enjoys causing us pain.
  • Abba means Father/Daddy – it is intimate and personal — our hearts cry out “Abba Father…” continually and He is always attuned to our cries.
  •  It seems we all have a common thread, which is – those who were appointed to love and care and cherish us didn’t, especially during our formative years, meaning when we were young.  We are often not loved unconditionally, just the way we are and those who say they love us continually raise the bar – equaling our performance to their demonstration of love – this is an unholy alliance, not replicating the Father’s love towards us, but confuses our souls to become fragmented.  And since some love is better than none, we are groomed to carry this way into adulthood.
  • Many will compete with others for loving attention, isolate themselves, become paranoid and jumpy, have depression, hopelessness, suffer from anxiety and people pleasing, show lack of boundaries, overcompensate, become fearful of love, distant and easily offended or defensive.
  • I want to encourage you to cry out to the Father as much as you need to – today and as you grow, especially when we are at the end of our rope and all we have left are tears which flow outwardly from a shattered heart.
  • As lawlessness increases as a result of the love of many running cold, so is the after effect of people not feeling loved – the two go hand in hand.
  • There is a special group of us who were abandoned and/or abused by our natural fathers, which place us into a particular position of not understanding the love of our Heavenly Father.  Knowing our own father, who we could see did not engage with us, makes it harder to comprehend a Father we cannot see would love us any differently.  We can be that change agent in the lives of many – especially our brothers in the Lord – even Paul called himself a Spiritual Father, saying we have many teachers, but not enough fathers, which conveys to us this problem is not something new in our society but was prevalent in Jesus’s time as well.
  • One major issue Jesus had with those He was among was that the men often put their wives away and abandoned their children, which tells us this is nothing new – so keep in mind all those who have done so and not owned the error of their ways will face our Heavenly Father one day and give answer to Him.
  • It is a real truth our Heavenly Father immediately accepts us, which is why we must love the truth and not make the mistake of comparing Him to our natural father.  We often get it backwards thinking if so and so does not love us like Jesus loves the church – He doesn’t either.  Jesus already set the command in place and it reflects on those who do not to a greater degree than it reflects on us not being lovable.
  • The Word tells us our Heavenly Father desires to gather us under His wings as little chicks – meaning He desires to protect, nurture and comfort us – to sustain us to life everlasting.
  • Every single person at some point has suffered loss – but if we forget that, we may in turn think the person we are dealing with is who we meet today, not really seeing the truth of them and that they have walls up with a smile on their face, but rest assured the truth is always revealed, soon or later.  One can only maintain a falsity for so long.
  • Religious people are often plagued with an orphan spirit and unaware of it’s influence over them.  They often compete with one another, are insecure and try to prove themselves worthy of their calling – I’ve heard them even boast on their own humility, which are all signs that person is not sure of just Who they belong to.  In the Kingdom of God – when we know who we are and who’s we are – we are settled in quiet peace, calm, knowing we are each on our own path with Jesus.
  • Those being influenced will frequently secretly take advantage of others, appearing pious openly and need a lot of attention to make up for their lack of worthiness.
  • Isolation is a big red flag we are influenced by this orphan identity – when you deep down you do not feel you belong in God’s family, which is often the residue of not being accepted by your own family.  Psalm 61 speaks to this affliction in the soul saying – you gravitate to a mindset of doing it all on your own, frequently withdrawing, hiding from others, being overly dependent, mistrusting of people still trying to prove yourself as being needed.
  • The Father did not create us to live in a vacuum and said from the beginning two is better than one.  The enemy tries to keep us from embracing the Father and His family, the brethren and it is only orphans who say they need no one as a shield of protection.  The Body of Christ is just that – a living and activated Spiritual body, which compliments one another and all parts are necessary for functionality and growth.
  • In the wilderness we often become delusional thinking we need no one, in isolation.  Fear and insecurity rules over the days of the wilderness and we become very unsure of our placement in the family of God – feeling vulnerable, uncovered, unprotected – so we tend to cover ourselves and hunker down in protective mode.  We become wretched, naked and blind without realizing it.
  • When we have a deep desire to be needed it reveals our weakness for wanting constant reassurance that we are okay.  The truth is the Father doesn’t need us, He loves us and if we get into a mindset where we think He needs us, those we are appointed to love suffer – you will be constantly seeking many to fill your needy tank.
  • If we need accolades from others every time we do something for the Lord – we are not doing it for Him.
  • Those who need constant reassurance are just trying to prove themselves – but we are commanded to be pleasing to One, our Father in Heaven.  What is amazing about Him is we get credit for attempting to please Him through His safety, acceptance and love for even trying to obey since He accepts us just as we are – while men seek proof, He knows our intentions.
  • Humans generally love us by how we measure up to what pleases them and often withhold love if we are not measuring up to their demands – our Father is totally opposite of humans in this way.
  • Humans will sometimes walk away or reject us when we do not do what they want us to do – but here is the beauty of our Father – He pulls us closer for instruction when we not obedient or misstep.  We need to just accept this truth as a first step… We have no father on Earth and no one on Earth will or can love us like Jesus – this is a timely word for the season we are currently in. 
  • Orphans often are plagued to perform, feeling rejected and therefore must continually make themselves in disposable to others.  They do not see they already add value, but will work constantly to overcompensate and be recognized as valued.  They constantly feel driven to gain identity in work and expect the same diligence from others or view them as weak.  Note:  If you are surrounded by someone like this for very long and if you do not share in their demands to perform they will cast you down and then away, forgetting we all have a special gift to complement, not compete.
  • Orphans have an ingrained mistrust of others, being fearful they will be punished at anytime they make a mistake.  Our Father’s love is undeserved and unearned, the same is true for His favor upon us as His children.
  • To overcome this identity and grow into the full knowledge of the truth as a child of God we must realize our minds are still carnal in many ways still.  We must get bare before the Lord authentically and confess our fears and faults – crying Abba Father – it is amazing but truly weakness is our entrance to join fully with Him, He actually seeks out those who need Him in such a precious way.
  • We also need to stay in the Word to nourish our souls back to health – this helps our hearts and eyes to be opened to defeat all the lies the enemy whispers to us on a daily basis and the negative self talk we have with ourselves on a regular basis.  Oh and a side note – you do believe what you say by the way or you wouldn’t say it – whether that be about ourselves or others.  A trap we often get into is speaking ill of ourselves to others so they comfort our flesh or carnal souls – when we should be taking all of this to the Father, knowing He alone can set us free and deliver us from these lies.
  • Humility places us into perfect position to receive the Father’s blessing – He offers it continually, but we often reject it.  His love will never grow cold, He will never leave us as others do and He actually loves us even more than we love ourselves.  You do realize you love yourself, correct?  You bathe, clothe, feed, warm/cool yourself – you tend to and nurture yourself – which are all demonstrations of love.  Well, our Father wants to do all this and more because we are His children.
  • When His peace settles into our hearts, wounds are healed, worry dissipates, wholeness takes place and we finally grow into a place where He is all that matters, because to Him we matter the most.
  • In our weakness He rises up strong within us.  All things we can do when all things we desire to do originate in Him and we simply cannot lose.
  • In His wholeness we are covered unto completion – all that is missing is returned and He fills in the gaps of our hearts.  It is through this heart change and we go from having a heart that is full of holes to a Holy heart sustained by Him alone.
  • By His grace we get continual do-overs and second chances – He is not a 1 strike and you’re out Father – as we seek Him more and more we receive the gift of the unction to repent, which equals how we go and sin no more – it is not so much we lose the sin, but rather we shed off the desire to do that sin.  It is not by might but by surrender that grace abounds so willful sin doesn’t.  It is so important to understand none of us could even repent without His help – we wouldn’t know right from wrong without His guidance.
  • It is His protection which enables us to trust Him during difficulties and He is so very patient, giving us opportunities daily, over and over to learn to lean on Him.
  • When we live for the World and those in it – we can easily become hopeless, but when we live for the Lord we are filled with everlasting joy.
  • His blessing and promise is to keep us continually, to not lose us as He shines His face upon us daily.
  • As a reminder, it is not necessary we go around constantly telling everyone about our hardships in life – they cannot do one thing to remedy our brokenness – keep in mind the Lord comes to our aid and He already knows all about what we’ve gone through and the heartbreaks we’ve faced.  We need to be satisfied and at rest knowing under His covering he will trouble those who trouble you.
  • Our Lord has amazing qualities built within Himself to satisfy all our shortcomings and needs.

HE IS our –



Abiding comfort

Loving presence


Prince of Peace

Banner against our enemies



Father and Husband

So I know it has been a long time since I spoke – and I am sorry for that…  If I told you everything that has been going on, you wouldn’t even believe it – but it has given me so much time for the Lord to cultivate more mercy and compassion within my heart for those who are hurting as I do sometimes. 

One major thing that opened my eyes in this study was how off I was in my identity and that although many of these horrific things did happen to me – they do not define my nature – where my soul originated from and will return to again – my first Estate, our Heavenly Home.

Lately it is all I can do to keep up with emails, keep the prison ministry intact and do two things – Not deny His Name and Keep His word, just like it was written in Revelation –

Revelation 3:8-12

I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.

Behold, I will make them of the synagogue of Satan, which say they are Jews, and are not, but do lie; behold, I will make them to come and worship before thy feet, and to know that I have loved thee.

10 Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I also will keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon all the world, to try them that dwell upon the earth.

11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.

12 Him that overcometh will I make a pillar in the temple of my God, and he shall go no more out: and I will write upon him the name of my God, and the name of the city of my God, which is new Jerusalem, which cometh down out of heaven from my God: and I will write upon him my new name.

So during this time of year, we can sometimes just walk around like a shell – going through the motions, feeling like an outcast as we put on our best holiday faces, pretend to be joyful, praying others do not notice…  It is like our flesh is engaged and our souls have checked out.  I see now why the Lord placed a delay on our study about the orphan identity – it was purposed for such a time as this.  I realize many of you have no one, while others have many, but they do not “belong”…  those we are placed amidst are not always our people.  And just like this World is not our home, they are not our everlasting family.  It is almost as if we have to let the Lord shut those doors, in order we enter into His rest completely.  Jesus said – He will not leave us orphans, instead He will welcome us into His family as a child of God.  It is my prayer that you fully embrace just how the Lord is guiding you to separate completely from all that which He did not appoint or ordain for your life – knowing He is guiding us and preparing us to not have to endure the hour of temptation like the rest of those who occupy Earth.  Is it painful?  Oh yes, indeed it is.  Do we stay in a weakened state from this point forward?  Could be…  But remember this – one day all will know just how loved we actually were by Him and if all you can do at the moment is just those two little things in verse 8 – which are not denying Him and keeping His word then that is really all you can do and Jesus knows what little strength we would be in during these days. 

Surrender is a beautiful thing and a burden to bear.  From the outsider’s point of view it looks like you are falling away, but to our Lord Jesus you are falling into Him.  You are a child of God, growing each day into fullness of the Name of Jesus, like a voice crying out in the wilderness – nameless, faceless, stripped bare before Him – this is the process of taking His Name, we decrease and He increases within us and it is purposeful. 

You are not a doormat and soon it will be your time to speak and shine.  Again – the Father Himself is particularly fond of the strangers, widows, orphans and fatherless.  All of this is purposed so we stop doing things out of our own strength and surrender fully to Him.  He doesn’t need us – He loves us. 

I pray this teaching has been both an encouragement and a blessing if even in only the smallest of ways.  Those of you with such precious shattered hearts are on full display in the placement of a harsh and merciless world.  You shine like the son, drawing those who are hurting unto yourself as Jesus resides within.  Only Jesus can heal what others break – so I encourage you to continually seek His embrace.

I pray you have a blessed day in Him.