Wrestling With The Residue Of Rejection ~

Transcript from broadcast February 19, 2020

Good Morning Blessings to you all and thank you for joining me today on Ring of Fire Ministries.  What a joyful blessing it is to fellowship with you all today.  It is so good to see each of you and I am thankful the Lord got us through another week!  So we are one more week closer to going Home — yayyyy!

Last week we talked about Rejection and how sensitive we are to it, often stemming from our upbringings.  I hope it blessed you like it did me and that we can just rest in the truth of our Lord Jesus, trusting Him to reveal, deliver and make us complete and whole in Him.  I had mentioned how much the Lord shared with us last week, which was a precept of what we are going to study today – and it is this portion I am most excited for knowing when we study different characters in the Bible we see a unique commonality which brings hope for us – if there was hope for them and the Lord brought them all the way through it is a promised guarantee He will do the same for us.

I was thinking the other day how we are created in His image, being fearfully and wonderfully made and just how precious each one of you truly are to our Father.  I was also thinking about how innocent we all were at birth, trusting, unseasoned by the World – not tried by fire yet or anything like that.  We weren’t skeptical yet, were we?  Some of us lost that innocence way early, while others had more love filled youth so the pains of humanity were delayed a bit.  Regardless, all have experienced some sort of rejection.  When we are formed in His image, I was thinking about how it is way more difficult to “keep that imagine” untarnished when the harshness of life bristles your heart over and over again.  As I was praying the Lord said to me…  It is very true you were created in My image, but whether or not you keep my image depends on your own freewill. 

So here we are again…  Seems like we cannot escape this season of surrender we are currently in – this surrendering is giving up our desires and wills in exchange for His – to keep His image intact, we lose our image and then it dawned on me… Image is the root word of “imagination.”  And where is imaginations conceived?  In the mind.  So it makes perfect sense He is cleansing our minds of all corrupt thinking in order we, as new creatures think just like Him, meaning we contain the mind of Christ.

The words, mind of Christ, get thrown around so much it seems almost common, sort of watered down and familiar.  But if we really think about it…  Our minds are very opposite of Jesus’s in so many ways.  This is a truth we should not take lightly as if we have already reached that goal… Because in truth we haven’t.  It is funny how short we fall in trying to judge ourselves rightly.  In the Bible it actually gives a command that we are to judge ourselves…  Which is a precursor to repentance. 

Repentance is not very politically correct in the manmade church these days…  Sadly, the modernized church of today surrenders to ego and self so frequently the very word repentance bristles the masses.  And every message we hear, we often have names and faces of others who need to hear it – as we discount the word – especially the written word was written for us – not the World.  Soon we are going to be talking more about the Mind of Christ, but I felt led today to just set the groundwork for the future study, Lord willing.  Romans 12:2 Tells us so very clearly to not conform to the World but to be transformed by the renewing of our minds and THEN we can test and approve what God’s will is because His will is good and pleasing and perfect.  If our mind is sick and not healed, we cannot think correctly in so many ways and so our lives look out of kilter or off and in chaos. 

I am so very excited to share with you a portion of Jacob’s life, found in Genesis 32 today!  All the rejection Jacob suffered was overseen by the Lord, Himself, just as ours is.  And I hope you will see how similar what Jacob went through so did Paul and many others and you and even me.  The beautiful part about the Bible is that we get to see the end and the beginning – which is quite different from our own lives.  So hold tight knowing our Father changes not and He is One Who does know our end as He orchestrated our beginning as well. 

Old things have no power over the new creature any longer, thankfully.  We sometimes get so caught up in all the details that we overcomplicate the simplicity of walking hand in hand on this journey called life abiding with Jesus the whole way through.  There are way too many words sometimes… like we are over processed with methods that work and don’t work, what instructions others give, corrections and even edifications…  I call all these “religious tricks of the trade…”  These are very very noisy to those who are extremely sensitive in the Spirit, like we are.

The Lord gave me a beautiful Psalm yesterday… I am going to share it if that’s okay with you?  It is simplistic and embracing.

You can read the whole Chapter, it is short… Psalm 15 –

David starts out asking…  Who will abide in You Lord?

And then he gives answer, as follows…  Those who’s daily walk is based in integrity, does righteous works and speaks the truth in his heart – being open and honest when talking – one who does not backbite – talking bad about others, one who does nothing to harm others and never seeks vengeance,  Vile people who practice such things will be condemned but those who fear the Lord will be honored.  He goes on to tell us the importance of keeping our word to others, even if it hurts us to do so and that we are not to change, going back and forth, but stand firm, innocent and true.  This Psalm goes on to say we are to give to the poor and needy, specifically widows and the weak and that it is not to be repaid when giving.  This Psalm ends with those who follow this example shall never be moved. 

Real quick…  Can you see Jesus in this Psalm?  Jesus walked always with integrity, He was righteous and always spoke truthfully, He was open to share His heart, He never was a backbiter even when accused or sought to be killed He sought no vengeance, He had reverential fear towards the Father, Jesus kept His word always, even when it hurt Him to do so physically, He gave to the poor and needy and He embraced females which was forbidden in those days, He comforted the weak and gave all of Himself to tend to everyone else, never expecting to be repaid.  Jesus never wavered and when we abide in Him, we will not waiver either. 

I shared this today for one reason only – Jesus is the only example we are to follow.  No matter who says what… If you cannot picture in your mind or know in your heart that He also would do or say it… Do not proceed any further.  Just stop, take a moment and rest in Him, inviting Him in to lead and guide, always in everything we say or do or think even.  Remember, we are to think upon things which are lovely, true, of good report, etc…  HE SAYS TO THINK ONLY UPON THESE THINGS… He actually used the word… ONLY.  Quite often the reason we do not have the mind of Christ it is because what we are placing into our minds ourselves… Sure we like to blame the devil and all, but the truth is not all things are profitable, though they may be permissible. 

Well that was sort of an unplanned ramble this morning… lol  forgive me!  I need to get back on track here with today’s message.  Before we get started, let’s read today’s Bible passage taken out of Genesis 32.

In this particular chapter we see that Jacob was extremely distressed, he was at odds with his brother – desiring to make amends, not knowing how or if his brother Esau would receive him, so he sent gifts before he went and he prayed that the Lord would deliver him from the hand of his brother who sought to kill him because Jacob had great fear that Esau would not only kill him, but his wife and children.  There is nothing more heartbreaking when your family becomes your foe – I am sure we’ve all had similar type moments… Rejection at its finest.

We are going to read a portion of this Scripture, beginning in verse 24 – because it says it all…

Genesis 32 ~

24 And Jacob was left alone; and there wrestled a man with him until the breaking of the day.

25 And when he saw that he prevailed not against him, he touched the hollow of his thigh; and the hollow of Jacob’s thigh was out of joint, as he wrestled with him.

26 And he said, Let me go, for the day breaketh. And he said, I will not let thee go, except thou bless me.

27 And he said unto him, What is thy name? And he said, Jacob.

28 And he said, Thy name shall be called no more Jacob, but Israel: for as a prince hast thou power with God and with men, and hast prevailed.

29 And Jacob asked him, and said, Tell me, I pray thee, thy name. And he said, Wherefore is it that thou dost ask after my name? And he blessed him there.

30 And Jacob called the name of the place Peniel: for I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved.

Heavenly Father thank You for this opportunity to feast on Your word today as manna from Heaven in that our souls may be strengthened just as you strengthened Jacob.  Teach us Your ways oh Lord and direct our footsteps as we completely surrender to Your will each and every day.  Amen.

Jacob was left alone wrestling with the residue of rejection – many of us have been in that very place time and again.

  • Jacob was scared and alone
  • Jacob had been tricked and rejected by his own family
  • Jacob also admitted he had no endurance left – now this is when the Lord can really go to work on us, when we get so wore out and admit we have no answers anymore – we will surrender to Him as being our answer
  • He was up “wrestling” all night with who?  Because here in the word it says he was alone….
  • Jacob was wrestling with himself – his mind – ever have one of those nights?  Where you try to be at rest, you desire to sleep and yet your mind is chaotic with fear and worry so you wrestle, tossing and turning over and over – playing out scenarios in your mind of what if’s? 
  • This is a real battle, an internal battle of Spirit vs Flesh.
  • As Jacob’s thigh was out of joint – it portrays a weakness in the flesh, painful – we too can get out of joint in many ways and if we do not process through our mindset can become “wounded, offended, having a chip on our shoulder” so to speak.

Verse 28 is where the victory lies…  After wrestling all night long Jacob’s spirit won out over his flesh and his identity changed.  Jacob received a new name – he was a new creature, walking by the Spirit.  His old creature was put under subjection, which represents his flesh and the old name which defined him. 

Something so beautiful about this story is how Jacob surrendered in the flesh to God and began walking in the Spirit and was blessed the Word says.  With power which comes from on high we will prevail just like Jacob – but we must be willing to give up our old natures, ways, mindsets, comforts and anything attached to this flesh.

Sometimes we wrestle to much to hold onto the past, that we actually begin to wrestle with God, Himself.  Telling Him what to do and how to do it.  We will often have a battle raging within us at times to the point we are raging within, like a storm brewing between God, Self and Spirit.  The Bible tells us we wrestle not with flesh and blood but with principalities… oftentimes, that principality is US.  Us being cultivated in the mind – our thoughts, emotions, words of man or curses spoken over us by humans.  We weigh them constantly in our minds, which is why the Lord has told us to take captive our thoughts and put them under subjection to Jesus – the living example we are to follow.  He leads we follow and if we get out of step from that and try to lead…  We wrestle, I like to call it floundering – similar to a fish being out of water and sometimes our life looks just like that doesn’t it?

  • Everyone is wrestling (struggling) with something – everyone!
  • We overcome all things in Jesus… but everyone has something to overcome.

But this is what is so amazing —  When we invite Jesus in – the battle is no longer our own.  Yayyyyy!  Someone should be doing some celebrating with me right now!

  • All insecurities, anxiety, hyper-sensitivity, rejection, loneliness, feeling unloved, fearful, workaholic mentality, dependencies on others – the list is endless really – But each one of us has flesh that is yet to be overcome by the Spirit – so we wrestle with it.  Remember – the battlefield is in the mind, some call that the devil’s playground – I can see it.

Although, this can be applied in struggles too many to name – today we are going to finish up our study on rejection, carried over from last week in order to clean up any residue we carry from rejection.  Therefore, today we are going to talk about – WRESTLING WITH REJECTION.  Because if you’re breathing right now – you’ve been rejected at some point and time or possibly even today.

I call that person who you just can’t seem to get out of your heart and mind to the point it gets a stronghold on you – the object of affection.  I saw this a lot when ministering to people so you see, it is not the person they are clinging to, but rather the fear of rejection… so they wrestle in their minds with this person and themselves.  Jesus should be our only object of affection and as we calm down and breathe we accept the truth – for our own wellbeing He places others into our lives and He removes them as well.  It is for our own protection and good, not for our harm or hurt.  This person can be anyone really – a family member, a friend turned foe, a love partner, child, boss… Whoever you wrestle with – it is not them, it is self.  Sometimes it is your past you cannot seem to let go of.  Make sense?  We cannot move forward if we are constantly looking back – remember, we learned last week to forget those things which are behind us today and keep our eyes focused on the Lord, Who is our prize which is our higher calling in this life.

Just to get this in context… Have you ever attainted that object of affection, whether it be a person or dream, only to still be left wanting?  This is because only Jesus is to hold that sort of placement in our hearts – He completes us, everyone and everything else can only compliment what He already established within us.  We abide fully only with Him, no one else.

  • Wrestling with rejection is an unavoidable reality – others pretty much refuse to accept us for who we are or who we are not.
  • Jesus, Himself, experienced rejection as the first of many brethren, so we will too – remember, He was the stone that the builders rejected?
  • If not put down or tended to – rejection will become a weapon the enemy uses to fragment our souls and we will not ever be made whole when Jesus sets before us an offering to do so.
  • Rejection means to “throw backwards” which also is how we backslide.  How?  I’m glad you asked…  It is woundedness.  Why?  It causes offense to enter into the soul.
  • Soul wounds are different than flesh wounds because the bleeding is inward and internal and it hides itself to the point we sometimes do not recognize it and when we don’t recognize it we underestimate the damage it causes.

Jeremiah said in Chapter 6:14 – that the wounds are tended to a little and people say there is peace when there is none.  We have all been guilty of this, covering up the shame and the wounds and yet… we bleed on others with our mouths all over the place.

Sometimes it comes out as poor me and with others it is an inflated ego to overcompensate – either way, it is there.

Thankfully, the Lord is close to the broken hearted and for those who are full of pride, their fall will be their salvation in the end.

  • When a wound is not healed, an infection can materialize – we will call this a “soul affliction.”

What is a soul affliction?  An ungodly personality trait – because out of the mouth flows the issues of the heart.  Remember our issue of blood we studied a couple weeks ago?  It is through ungodly personality traits we bleed on others.

So for today, speaking of the residue of rejection, this is a really good place to stop for now and we will pick up next week right were we left off on SOUL AFFLICTION connecting to infection of the heart and how they manifest in personality traits.  We will also take Genesis 32 line by line and study even more about Jacob being rejected many times over and how to overcome he had to wrestle with his own flesh and even the Lord until he finally surrendered it all and was given a new name as a new creature.

Before I go, I just want to address some of you all with precious hearts who are fearful looking upon all the things affecting the Earth and our World at the moment.  There is no need to rehash all the events pressing us and all the inhabitants of the Earth in one way or another.  I think you would have to live in a cave to not discern the birth pains we are faced with each day.

I also want to encourage you all to keep writing me, so that I can encourage and assist you the best way I know how… By pointing to Jesus, of course.  I have been pondering a lot lately about faith – mine is tested and tried almost daily it seems – I am even wrestling with myself about do I even have any faith?  I know that sounds awful… But I just know in my spirit by the Lord we have no clue what faith actually is – or at least I am finding out I do not. 

I look at it this way…  Regarding faith, it is the same as KNOWING JESUS or KNOWING ABOUT JESUS.  If we have knowledge of all the books of the Bible concerning faith we know ABOUT IT – however, that is not going to cut it in these tumultuous times…  We need to KNOW FAITH on a personal and deep level, intensely and intimately be unmovable in FAITH itself. 

So for three weeks now, I keep going to the Lord and going to the Lord because I had this thirst for Faith itself and I knew I had an understanding of faith and yet… still had a longing inside me because I knew there was way more to it than what I’ve learned or been told.

Refusing to give up… Finally, the Holy Spirit spoke to me in a very small voice saying…  “No one knows what faith actually is in completion because there is only one who in truth knows the end from the beginning.”  That totally settled my heart, but He went on…  He said, “Jesus Alone is the AUTHOR & FINISHER of everyone’s Faith, therefore, being unable to see the end we can never measure our own faith, let alone another’s.” 

And so finally….  I was at rest, infused with peace – real peace too, His… it comes from Him directly pouring into us and we settle.  We can finally breathe a little easier, knowing to be still is to REALLY KNOW HE IS GOD.

Countless times I have tried to author myself and I am embarrassed to say I tried to author many others, mainly those who I love deeply…  It would be an understatement to say I failed on every account.

We need to get out of the way of the Master, which is why we are in this painful flesh process of surrendering.  We welcome Him to abide within us to dwell and be Lord in our lives for real – He knows we need this and He also knows we crave this unity with Him.  I can certainly attest to the fact, the process goes a lot quicker and smoother if we let go and let God, in our own lives and especially with those we hold near and dear in our hearts.

Okay…  I just wanted to share that bit of wisdom He gave me a couple days ago.  Pray about it, seek Him and search for confirmation if you are so led to do so.

Lastly, when in prayer for these poor people stuck on these cruise ships who keep pulling on my heartstrings day and night the Lord gave me something to give in response to those who have more questions than answers.  As a matter of fact, none of us have any answers that are worthwhile, knowing Jesus is the only answer which satisfies a restless heart.

Somehow, someway… the sovereignty of the Father has totally gotten pushed aside.  The church in my opinion is up for a great fall due to this dishonor and disrespect being done to our Master.  It is like they worship at too many thrones..  trying to figure out just who or what is in charge.  Please hear me on this – The Father is not up in Heaven wringing His hands unknowing what to do with this enemy or this rumor of war, or pending financial collapse or pestilence, plagues or anything which portrays itself as evil, rather than good.  If not one sparrow falls to the ground without Him knowing…. Why are we in a state of panic?  We need to look deep into our hearts to search why are we so fearful we are going to extremes to save our own lives?  Those who do this are stepping clearly into the abyss of conspiracy theories, man’s opinions almost to the point of being delusional where you cannot reason with them.  It is very sad to watch from an onlooker.  The grieving of the Holy Spirit is almost unbearable at times because some of the worst ones selling the drama for lucre and gain are those who come in Jesus’s Name pretending to be Christians… or saying they are Jews and yet are not. 

Forgive my ramble…  I need to focus on what Jesus told me… Not what the charlatans are doing – that is way above my Kingdom paygrade…  As I was in prayer, seeking His answer to these troubling emails all He directed me to was His word – which is enough for any soul that truly belongs to Him. 

So I am going to read His word in answer to all our questions… Even mine as we declare as one in Him that we trust You Lord, to the best of our ability we will put all our trust in You for our today and all our tomorrows.  Amen?

Let’s read… And let’s keep in mind, when people come to us we can ease all their fear with showing them His love and patience, while feeding them the truth, His truth because…

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39 KJV

Eccesiaties 3 ~

Everything Has Its Time

To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:

A time [a]to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.

The God-Given Task

What profit has the worker from that in which he labors? 10 I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.

12 I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, 13 and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor—it is the gift of God.

14 I know that whatever God does,
It shall be forever.
Nothing can be added to it,
And nothing taken from it.
God does it, that men should fear before Him.
15 That which is has already been,
And what is to be has already been;
And God [b]requires an account of [c]what is past.

Injustice Seems to Prevail

16 Moreover I saw under the sun:

In the place of [d]judgment,
Wickedness was there;
And in the place of righteousness,
[e]Iniquity was there.

17 I said in my heart,

“God shall judge the righteous and the wicked,
For there is a time there for every [f]purpose and for every work.”

18 I said in my heart, “Concerning the condition of the sons of men, God tests them, that they may see that they themselves are like animals.” 19 For what happens to the sons of men also happens to animals; one thing befalls them: as one dies, so dies the other. Surely, they all have one breath; man has no advantage over animals, for all is vanity. 20 All go to one place: all are from the dust, and all return to dust. 21 Who[g] knows the spirit of the sons of men, which goes upward, and the spirit of the animal, which goes down to the earth? 22 So I perceived that nothing is better than that a man should rejoice in his own works, for that is his [h]heritage. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

So I challenge us today to really consider the Master’s ways… and trust, trust Him to make all things beautiful in their own time – which is quite often different than our timing.  Whatever He uses, whether that be sickness, lack, abundance or health – trust HIM.  The only one who absolutely knows where faith is found on this Earth, in who it is found and the measurement we need to overcome all things in Jesus, in spite of ourselves.  All we need is faith the size of a mustard seed – that seed is Jesus…. You believe in Him – He’s got you… The Lord gives the increase to that Jesus seed in His timing, His way and His planned out purpose.  It is much better to be that one who is ye of little faith than to be gravely mistaken believing your faith is greater than most, only to be found wanting when the weights and balances are at your front door when the time of testing is unleashed upon all the habitants of the Earth.

Never forget, you are only required to sustain that which you have been given, for those who have a greater measure more is required. 

What season are we in currently?  A season to embrace fully God is God and we are not.

If we truly perceived how fragile the plan of God really is, we would see our lack in attempting to be in charge.

If we imagine this World as being similar to a house of cards and each card is the Father working all things together for the good of those who inhabit the house He is building…  What would we do to intervene?  Would we remove a card titled coronavirus or possibly one named financial collapse or even sickness or death?  Taking this thought, removing a card of sickness for example would cause the whole house to collapse and fall down.  Faith is believing without seeing…  Believing His hand is upon every single manifestation upon this Earth, no matter what it is or looks like with our natural shortsighted vision. 

We forget sometimes that our Father is eternal.  Our beginning starts here but finishes there, so a calling is going out right now to all the inhabitants of the Earth to trust in Him and if we are honest – it is much harder than we ever imagined it would be.  Keep in mind the hairs on our head are actually numbered, which changes constantly by the way – that is just how Majestic He is and He’s got this, all of it – you, me, every situation and calamity is under His charge.  Jesus is not asleep in the boat during this storm we are facing… He is the boat and the enemy has no authority to do one tiniest of things unless granted permission from our Father.  Masterpieces often look messy in the process of creation – He is building a masterpiece, which is us, He is the potter, we are the clay but His mind towards us has not changed or waivered… What we call messes, He sees the end result of perfection, since only He knows our end regardless of what our beginning looked like.

So this morning I was taking a step back in the Spirit, as on outside observer to this whole coronavirus situation.  As I was embracing the truth that the Father wills and lets at His perfect discretion… I began to ponder His ways in all things and as I did I began to wonder what if?  What if the Father is using what we call evil to actually be a call to good?  What if this virus is seeking those with vengeful, angry and hateful hearts to blow a trumpet of repentance so that their knees bow and their tongues confess Jesus is Lord as they call out to Him in the purity of the heart?  What if He is allowing this call to go out one last time before He sends forth angels to gather them like tares and throw them into the fire?  Wouldn’t a merciful Father send a fire prior to everlasting fire in order to capture the lost in His bosom in such a most precious way?  And that the revival we have been looking for all this time is right before us but due to self will we just cannot perceive or see it?

I am seeing more and more everyday His ways are not our ways and that the safest place to be is surrendered fully in agreement to His will being done on Earth, just as it is in Heaven. 

Let’s pray ~

Heavenly and Masterful Father I thank You with my whole heart for Your opening the eyes of our hearts so that our perception of Your mighty ways are being shown to us in a most precious way.  I thank You for settling our minds and our hearts to be at peace as we abide in the presence of Jesus, the King of Glory.  Forgive us Father for our misguided emotions and short sighted understanding which question Your sovereignty.  We are the smallest of creatures, weak in nature, only strong through submission to You.  As You so ever so gently lead us through the red sea of life we humbly bow down before You in thanksgiving and praise saying Abba Father deliver us fully to the place You ordained and appointed us to be before time existed.  We thank You for our blessed hope for all eternity and have the deepest of longing to be gathered together under the shadow of Your wings.  As the Author and Finisher of our faith we will trust in You to do a complete work in us and in those we love and cherish.  You are mighty to save and in Your mightiness You shall prevail.  As Your decrees go out into the Earth, we see Your fingerprint in all adversities while you are working all things together for the good because there is no shadow of turning or darkness within You whatsoever.

Father once again I consecrate ROF Ministries unto You and ask that all we do brings glory only to Your Name.  That we would continue to remain a voice without a name or face as You alone are worthy to be praised.  Lord I ask that should it be Your will that we continue on this path together that You move hearts to support what we are doing here at ROF Ministries, as You go before us each day preparing the way that we are to walk in.  It is both an honor and privledge Lord to visit those in prisons with You.  Continue to guide us Lord as we assist and comfort those the World has turned their backs on.  You already know Lord what we have need of before we ask, so I thank You Lord for the provision released in order ROF Ministries continue to operate just as You ordained.

And Father, I thank You for keeping each one of those who are listening today or will in the future through the archive in Your perfect will.  Hide them Lord under Your wings, guide them daily and protect them when death is at their doorsteps.  Place a wall of fire of protection around their hearts and their dwellings so that they rise above as obstacles set before them, declaring Your majestic works to all those who have ears and hearts to hear.

I pray all this in Jesus’s precious and love filled Name.  Amen.

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