If I Should Walk Away…
If I should walk away would our paths cross again?
Would I lie in a sea of regret, taking notice of sand particles which slipped right on through?
Would I rest firmly at ease knowing on a clear day it would have worked, or would I wander aimlessly knowing a little would have actually reaped the full lot?
Would I know without a doubt it was never meant to be, or would I feel starved, alone and scared for I now know, Who truly held the key?
Choices in life do not come without bars and walking without order, makes it too easy to see.
I glean from the messages and spaces in between, it was never you all along; So it must have been me.
I cry and I squirm and I dance and I sing, yet no desire is heard; So I sit and I ponder, for if I walk away… What notice, if any, will likely it stir?
Looking back on moments it happened in chords, yet yearning decreases, settling upon the wings of tormenting hidden words.
How did I get here? There is only One who truly knows, and it is He, Who sits in the Heavenlies on God’s Holy Throne.
If I could have just a small glimpse of the Divine carrying me, I might, just possibly not run, to walk away from Thee.
I live in a land of forced if’s and decrees, yet nothing seems to quench the thirst fortifying me.
In dreams while awake, I imagine it all, yet the higher I go, the harder I fall.
I want to be done and finished with this day, yet as soon as one departs, another is on it’s way.
I asked for all this, I did, there’s no one to blame. Yet in confusion I plead… How do I stomp out this One’s eternal flame?
With question, upon question and me being me, please someone can you tell me… How do I walk away from me?
The most fearful question leads up to the end…
For if I should walk away… Will you run after me instead?
How many times have we ran or walked away from Him? For myself, it is has been too numerous to count. If He is anything, He is “Present, never fleeing and never leaving.” One of my most treasured moments with Him, in the secret place, is when I fully grasped just how much Jesus loves me. On that day, it was as if He allowed me to simply observe, as a recepient, just how much…
Jesus prayed for us…
I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world; thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept they word.
Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
I pray for them; I pray not for the world, but for them which thou has given me; for they are thine.
And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I glorified in them.
And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me, that they may be one, as we are.
While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name; those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.
And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves.
I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
Sanctify them through thy truth; thy word is truth.
As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
And for their sakes I sanctify myself, that they also might be sanctified through the truth.
Neither pray I for these alone, but for them also which shall believe on me through their word; That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us; that the world may believe that thou hast sent me.
And the glory which thou gavest me I have given them; that they may be one, even as we are one; I in them, and thou in me, that they may be made perfect in one; and that the world may know that thou hast sent me, and hast loved them, as thou hast loved me.
Father, I will that they also, whom thou hast given me, be with me where I am; that they may behold my glory, which thou hast given me; for thou lovedst me before the foundation of the world.
O righteous Father, the world hath not known thee; but I have known thee, and these have known that thou hast sent me. And I have declared it; that the love wherewith thou hast loved me may be in them, and I in them.
Following this prayer, Jesus entered the Garden of Gethsemane and was betrayed.
Knowing, He prayed.
Thank You, Jesus for running after me, when I walk away from You.
He is pure love demonstrated.